lack of sleep...
lost 20 bucks at mahjong.. sigh.. and i used to always win at mahjong.. confirm it's the cny bad luck curse or something.. who has been cursing me!! boo hoo.. i dun wan to play mahjong already.. boo~
met up with jinny at gelare on mon nite.. just a quiet little catching up session b4 she flies off to shanghai and den back to aussie..
tues was full of boring lectures.. the 8am one ended at 9 coz that woman din wanna carry on.. ridiculous lar.. the qn can read on the spot wad.. friday's lect could have been cancelled can! i could have jolly well be in bed on a fri day at 8am lar.. urghh.. irritated.. making the lect at 830 aint gonna make ani difference can.. bleahz.. pissed off..
next lect at 10.. ended at 1115.. wtf.. ok lar.. he finished the set of notes n yah couldnt go on animore.. so i had my lunch break with jiating :) FIRST meal in science this sem.. amazing or wad.. and it's already week 5..
phy in life sci lect ended earli.. as usual.. at 1.. went to lepak at arts canteen for a while with maki n dot.. den headed down for changing landscapes.. after which i took a bus down back to sci to meet shim..
this was when that freaky thing happened.. some guy came up to me and said hello as though he knew me.. told me he always sees me around in zouk.. he knows im from veejay.. he knows my frens weijie n zihao.. but he's not from their sec sch nor jc.. so highly likely my memory aint that bad and i have realli never never seen him in my entire life b4.. the onli 2 times i remembered having an 'encounter' with him was once at zouk where this guy kept looking at me but i just looked away coz i realli din noe the person.. if dunno the person den wun say hi wad rite! and the 2nd time was on the bus.. where he happily waved n said hello.. me.. being me just blurly smiled.. remembered telling dawn.. maybe my dance junior lar.. i cant rem all their faces til now.. turns out to be that freaky guy.. and if that was not enough.. after alighting from the bus.. i headed str8 to starbucks as shim refused to answer my fone calls.. haha lucky thing she was there.. tog with isaac and his brother andrew.. that freaky guy waved from across the carpark.. and yah.. omg.. so weird! i realli dunno him at all.. den he keep saying hi.. sigh.. felt v traumatised.. like i din even dare to walk near the co-op to buy my book coz he said he'll be eating at the canteen.. *shakes head* who is this guy????
went to school to had an hour long conversation with the prof who's proably gonna hire me after i grad.. yes im not useless.. i may be stupid n in some sense bimbotic.. but at least i already found a job.. whether anot im taking it up is another issue.. meeting him and his post doc student again tmr at 9.30.. tmr will be the day i start learning the ropes in the lab.. and there goes my free day too.. but on the other hand.. if i end by 1.. i can go over to find candy n the rest.. :)
somehow after that conversation i felt really scared.. like super uncertain about what my future holds.. i have come to the end of my education here in singapore.. grad sch is definitely gonna be in the states no matter wad.. but yah just within the past 24 hours.. i was let into the lives of 2 people.. 1 rich.. whom i can safely say has almost everything in the world.. and another.. struggling to make ends meet.. it breaks my heart to see my fren suffering at work.. at school.. and even at home.. as he shared all his problems with me.. i felt damn helpless.. i couldnt do a thing.. the onli thing i could do was to thank God for blessing me with the life i have.. suddenly my oh-so-drama life aint that drama animore.. suddenly my problems seemed like nothing compared to his.. "tong ren bu tong ming"... but im proud of him.. fighting to change for the better.. always keeping his head up :)
so actualli i barely slept last nite.. was just very bothered about life.. and the uncertainties it holds.. went to physio prac at 2 with a heavy heart.. partly also coz we had to prick our fingers todae to get blood for the experiment.. sadist or wad.. kns.. thankfully this kind soul gave me some of his blood so in a sense that saved me the agony.. but still.. i dunno what's with me and needles n blood.. i was all ready to prick myself.. i tried to punture thru.. but my hands just kept trembling n wun stop.. am i that weak? if so.. why the hell am i in life sci?? i should be able to take all this shit!! aniwae looking at too much blood made me nauseous.. i regretted eating lunch.. sigh.. but yah as i said thankfully this nice guy saved my ass.. yr 3 life sci too.. yes i haven seen him around even though he's seen me around.. i guess i really walk around school with my eyes closed huh? in veejay also like that.. and now in nus.. no exception.. maybe that's why i still maintain my reputation of being dao.. but im realli not dao when u get to noe me!!! haha bleahz.. honestly i dun give a damn..
kana called by the lecturer during tut.. couldnt realli answer well.. and yes that kind soul helped me again.. haha he's like my saviour today or wad! and the best part.. i dunno his name :X forgot to ask lar.. *oopz*
oh.. and i saw freaky guy at the canteen after prac when rushing for dance! eeeee.. scared.. faster walk away.. haha
speaking of dance.. i rushed down to ucc.. clean forgetting that today's practice was at dance theatre.. got off at the ucc stop.. crossed the road den realised i was at the wrong place! called val.. no reply.. called maki.. no reply.. shit.. senior class started le.. den i called matt. (the only junior whose number i have).. he confirmed that todae's prac was at DT so i rushed over.. luckily pat just started.. and maybe im old.. but i feel tired doing floor work..
today's dance class was fun though.. i had a lot of fun.. :) *beep!*
just back from shim's.. went over to do the freaking eco lab report.. at least it's almost done.. left a bit of touching up and it's ready to be printed n handed up.. time to nua on my bed for a while b4 i call it a nite..
*i wanna be serenaded to sleep every nite!*
