February 28, 2005
it's been a long n boring weekend.. which basically comprised of my rushing thru my essays.. one due on mon.. the other on tues.. i felt like dying..
aniwae one thing good was that i did manage to catch 'white noise'.. not a bad show.. talking bout evp n all.. honestly i dun believe in it lar.. the people die means die already lar.. or if they're destined to die.. just let them die lar.. aiyo.. :X haha that show gave me a few good shocks too.. k lar.. overall i rate it 3/5..
one more essay to be completed b4 i end my writing streak n conc on the test coming up on fri.. yawn.. the week after midterms.. blah..
it's gonna be one helluva long week.. n not to mention youthpark practices.. weekend afternoons.. *burnt* >.<
jen
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February 26, 2005
Your Love Number is |
1
You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argument
You take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective.
You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart.
At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around. |
jen
~15:39~
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phew.. finally one essay is done.. 2000 words!!! well not exactly done.. still have editing n all that jazz.. and... 1 more to go!! sob..
zzzzzzzz.....
jen
~05:28~
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February 25, 2005
something interesting i found.. :)
small truth to make our Lifes 100%.......
If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q RS T U V W X Y Z Is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 1213 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
Then Hardwork=H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K =8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% only Knowledge=K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E= 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% only Love=L+O+V+E=12+15+22+5=54%
Luck=L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47% (don't most of us think this is most important???)
Then what makes 100%
Is it Money? ..... No!!!!!
Leadership? ...... NO!!!!
Every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps change our attitude.
To go to the top, to that 100%what we really need to go further..... abit more.......
Attitude=A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E =1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
It is OUR ATTITUDE towards Life andWork that makes OUR Life 100% = )
im actually too tired to blog about my life.. i was subdued by politics.. but at least im trying to stand up after the fall.. thanks all my frens who were there for me these past few days.. you know who you are.. seriously.. i feel so much better now.. n thanks s for so kindly putting mi up at ur place for me to do my darn essay.. i owe u one..
both essays still not done.. i foresee a weekend stuck at home.. screwed..
jen
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February 22, 2005
hmmz y am i blogging away on this hot lazy afternoon.. firstly im bored n have nothing better to do.. but hey at least i watched a webcast todae.. essay plans.. maybe tonite when im in the mood.. just got a piece of news that i might not be doing the 4th mar show animore.. how am i feeling? totally sucky.. but it's realli not up for me to decide.. afterall im not the one with 2 items.. in a sense im starting to lose direction.. dunno wad im talking bout? good.. it's not meant for u to know..
spent my afternoon watching 1/3 of season 3's satc.. now i noe why many are in love with it.. not for those kinda scenes.. but more on how women think.. how they react.. esp those above their 30s n are not yet married.. v intriguing yet understandable.. something that will not really happen in 'simple' singapore but onli in the city of manhatten..
hmmz den it hits me that blogging in the afternoon is bad.. im not making sense.. more satc to waste my day away?? nah maybe not.. maybe i'll wait for mummy to come home n bring me blading while she cycles.. or maybe i'll just play with my rabbit.. im really starting to lose faith in a passion i have.. how sad is that? it's not that easy acting like you dun care when in actual fact u so f***ing do..
jen
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todae was a great great day! :) thanks jiating! heh had so much fun even though we could have been at sentosa getting a nice tan.. met jiating for lunch at bedok.. apparently uncles loved talking n disturbing us.. 2 of them in fact.. one was a total bitch coz i used the spoon from his stall.. like wtf lar.. selfish or wad! the other was just giving some comments but i felt he was just being kpo.. a few aunties came n went as mi n jiating slowly enjoyed our spread.. haha one auntie spoke to us also.. so weird..
anyhow went blading at east coast park in the evening.. so fun!!! even happened to see kenny.. n also serena.. so long never see them.. kenny was jogging n jogging when he saw me n suddenly went hi.. haha i was a bit shocked.. serena was even better.. she cycled past mi n jiating screaming my name.. haha that girl.. sigh.. den there was this guy who grossed me out.. *details not included* n apparently some 'stalker' guy saw me at my house downstairs.. eeekz.. so freaky.. *details not included either* special shoutout to someone.. thanks shawn for calling.. i feel better now :)
sat: had a spanking great time with joanne! hee.. even though everything was so last min.. it was one of the best times i had.. with frens n all.. babe.. you rock! :P *energiser bunniesssss unite!* haha must do that again some time ok!!! hee *wink*
sun: nursing my gastric.. thankfully i got better after some solid sleep..
oh im gonna do the dancetitude item!! yipppeee.. heh wad to do.. im in love with 1,2 step! like can finally dance to that! heh.. thanks candy muak!!! :P
link to blading pics :
CLICK ME! heh photoblog finally updated..
jen
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February 19, 2005
dancetitude.. ntu's modern jazz concert.. not bad :) but i tink blast's item was the best.. the alumni's item rawked too.. karen.. shulin.. sigh.. to think my cuzzie's such a fantastic dancer n im just half past 6.. :X
ever get the feeling that you dun belong in a crowd of pple when you actualli do? maybe it's coz im tired.. but i did feel that way last nite.. amidst the crazy photo taking n chatting session.. somehow.. as usual blast was the last to leave.. machiam our concert like that.. but it was fun lar.. playing with the reserved signs n all..
thanks jason for worrying i would lose my way coming to ntu.. :) n for being my street directory..
supper was great.. i'll never forget last nite.. so many funny things.. n the best part was the exothermic rxn that i played on mr kong a long time back.. well maki played it on jacky which i would consider backfire on her coz she got herself all covered in chilli sauce.. haha well done maki :P n the shocked looks of archie n mich.. priceless.. haha tau's vogue n un vogue.. first impressions.. talking bout who would be in the new comm n how soon we'll be stepping down.. heh ok fine.. i was just tired.. i do belong :P
oh.. first time i parked illegally by the road side n the police came.. haha ran like a mad chicken for my car n parked at some ulu carpark which was supposed to be near the coffeeshop.. after walking out of the parking lot.. i realised i was lost.. along some street in jurong west.. i panicked.. like wtf.. haha stupid me din even bring my hp.. n silly peter was never good at giving mi good road directions.. *thinks of how many 3 pt turns i had to make each time he was in my car* man.. eventualli i found my way back n after supper.. the poor guys had to follow mi to get their bags from my boot.. haha gave candy, carol, mich, peter n ahmad a lift along the way.. windows down.. rnb blasting.. everyone enjoying themselves.. we travelled from one end of pie to the other end.. well almost.. but it was nice.. had my dose of night spin.. haha n mich im not an ah lian driver lar.. haha :X
well mid term's break here.. like not much of a diff.. lotza deadlines to meet.. essays to do.. proj to complete.. so fast n we're already into the 6th week of sch.. like how scary is that? is it just me? or has sch just really begun for all of us? *groan*
it's only been a day but im missing the company of my dance frens already..
n for the first time.. im scrimping n saving as much as i can.. hidden agenda.. but yah no more shopping sprees or expensive dining for a while.. heh.. 3 more months n if all goes well i can see my baby again.. i cant wait.. :P niagara fallssssssss...
jen
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February 17, 2005
i suddenly feel like 'sour grapes'.. wasted a great sunny afternoon in sch.. pat cancelled on us.. the few who were so kindly left out of dancetitude.. :X sigh something's wrong.. im getting affected by stuff around me so easily.. now i noe how fen felt a few weeks back.. ok i shall stop harping on this.. it's not that im not aware of the number of people reading this.. :X
den comes another thought.. why is it that people put up facades all the time? why cant we just be accepted for who we are? i see people trying to be mr or ms nice to frens n all.. trying to fit in.. when they're so actualli not nice to begin with.. wad has society moulded us into? hypocritical people?? so so sad.. i dun deny i do put up facades at times too.. i am one of those.. thus the feeling of disappointment comes creeping in..
ok im crapping.. i think too much.. stating the obvious n looking for answers to questions that really dun have any answers to.. maybe it's the philo mod.. haha i doubt it.. im just overly sensitive these days..
gonna watch dancetitude this fri.. expecting a good show! really really liked the item.. wish i could have been in it.. ok ok.. i know.. *shuts up*
jen
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February 16, 2005
something happened today which made me ponder about the ever-so-cliche saying.. friends come n go.. so so true.. yet it's saddening.. as i saw a we-used-to-be-good-frens fren go pass me in the flicker of an eye.. i suddenly thought to myself.. why is it that people we used to be so close to.. whom we used to call frens suddenly feel like strangers to u? i did make a good buddy last sem.. but everything was gone when the new sem started.. why cant people just be close frens all the way?? i mean no one's perfect.. but is it so hard to try to be good frens with many people at the same time??
i dunno.. i feel so confused.. like suddenly im just this small lil girl waiting to grow up to see the world.. yet on the other hand i just wanna be that lil protected girl forever so i wun have to face with life's complications..
the human heart.. so full of emotions n controversy.. does anyone of us know wad we actually wan in life?? who's to determine who's good n who's not?
i just cant get enough of 'you belong to me'.. sappy love songs.. adds on to my already burdened soul..
jen
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February 15, 2005
prezzie for my laogong!!!! :P
jen
~01:54~
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from my dearest jo laogong.. :P so pretty!! thanks my darling!! *hugz*
jen
~01:53~
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February 14, 2005
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY n HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!!!!heh.. guess most of you already have plans.. so do i.. stay home n sulk.. i wan roses.. haha oh well.. shall shut up.. im making myself sound pathetic.. heh aniwae the stay home n sulk thing's a joke lar.. i'll most prob be home but i wun be sulking.. :P such a happy lovely day.. i should embrace it with open arms!
today hasnt exactly been a great day.. yes i won 33 bucks at mahjong.. that's quite a lot considering that the stakes were onli 20 40 cents.. 2 rounds.. just so super lucky.. could have won more.. but i happily threw the card for my bro's gf to game with a limit.. crap.. oh well.. at least i won.. best part.. i dun feel happy about it.. my bro lost like 20 over bucks.. i feel bad for taking his money.. but he refused to take it back.. grandma too.. sigh
totally no appetite todae.. ate a lil for dinner n that's it.. felt like puking after that.. yes it's just one of those days that u feel depressed n skeptical about things.. n no.. it's absolutely not pms.. weird.. i rarely feel like this..
maybe i shall sleep.. "sleep always does the trick" as quoted by someone.. tmr will be a better day :)
happy bdae ben goh! :)n to my deariest deariest baby.. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.. :) thanks for everything.. you've always been there with me thru it all..
jen
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February 13, 2005
just back from sending mel off n from playing mahjong.. broke even so yah.. aniwae bro n gf were playing most of the time coz i had to leave for the airport.. nite spins once again.. i love it.. just cant get enough..
airport..a place of happiness n sadness.. always look forward n feel damn happy when a loved one is coming back to u.. but sad n dejected when he/she is leaving.. my fren asked why im always at the airport.. haha wad to do.. fetching pple back.. sending pple off.. sigh.. come to think of it.. i do more of sending den fetching..
mel told him like last min that she's leaving.. he rushed all the way down.. so mi aud wanni n zhao left first.. let them spend the last few min tog.. quite sad lar.. like those typical drama shows u watch but yah this time i experienced it first hand.. quite touched by the love he has for her.. wonder if anione loves mi so unconditionally.. sigh..
playing you belong to me over n over again on my comp.. it's another one of those songs that will make mi cry if the guy i love sang it to me..
im too full to sleep.. *yawn*
jen
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February 12, 2005
happy cny!!! :P hope u all collected super a lot of ang pows n had good luck during gambling.. heh
cny eve: met up with blast frens for CONSTANTINE... woot.. i love keanuuuu!!!! heh.. so hot can.. "my name is constantine.. john constantine you asshole.." heh.. n i esp love the got faith part.. full of puns n suspense.. it's a must watch!!! coincidentally saw ryan n gf.. n also sean n his fren's gf.. haha a bit weird but "dot dot dot".. went to 7-11 to get some food b4 heading home.. taufik gave mi a scare when he suddenly asked for the asthma spray.. rushed him all the way home.. at least he's ok now :) oh n after the show.. we saw fireworks!!!! so prettyyyy!! they just kept coming n coming for a good 5 min :) wish *he was there to watch it with me..
cny day 1: bai nian-ing at relatives place all day.. nothing spectacular happened.. oh got reminded of the lionhead i cursed at jassia's place during vj days.. haha oh.. how could i forget.. whilst i was at the comp.. a blue budgie flew from goodness-knows-where right onli the keyboard! haha so cute!! gave mi a scare though.. but it was realli tame.. played with it for a while.. den it happily went to attack chubby's food.. haha chubby obviously wasnt happi.. but she was scared of the budgie n dare not go into her cage.. so cute.. i love my chubby! heh.. :) sadly the budgie flew away the next morn after having a good sleep next to my cordless phone.. haha
cny day 2: met up with cedar gurlies.. went visiting.. last stop at my place.. popiah! heh.. every yr tradition.. den my bro's frens came over n i played puzzle bobble with adrian.. haha his generation din have the rainbow bubbles so he din noe how to get rid of them.. haha i happily took the advantage n went on to win him!!! :P yay.. im such a cheater.. haha played mahjong with family that nite n lost 6 bucks.. blah...
yest: missed drugs lect coz i couldnt wake up.. but attened 01 n 02 lect.. for the first time i listened attentively at 01 lect.. but 02 i dozed off at times.. but was listening most of the time.. feel so guai.. haha went over to mel's at nite.. den that silly woman dragged mi to coco latte.. as usual music quite good but din like the crowd.. oh well.. wad to do.. she's flying off tmr nite so i just went to chill with her lor.. still haven go sentosa tog.. but bo bian.. she pushed forward her flight just so she could tour aus with someone.. heh.. :)
quite an eventful past few days.. but i realli need to get started on my work!!!!! anione wanna study with me n make sure i study?? haha
jen
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February 08, 2005
sigh i screwed up the singtel show.. wth was i doing man.. damn disappointed.. one of the lousiest i ever danced in my life.. anyhow.. thanks missy, xiao n shaun who came to support..
ponned philo lect for town.. shopping kinda got me feeling a tad bit better.. venezia would have done the trick.. but we were stuck in far east.. so yah.. got my cny top.. like finally.. saw this pretty brown dress.. but decided not to get it coz i seldom wear dresses..
felt damn uncomfortable the whole dae.. stomach upset.. n i felt like puking.. eeeuuww.. luckily i din.. i so hate to puke.. but at least now im feeling a lil better..
oh.. n i found free parking somewhere.. whee~ thanks celia n mich for letting me in on that little secret *grin*
the e brake for my mummy's m6 works.. tried n tested for myself todae.. crap.. i was damn freaked out lar.. everyone was travelling happily along ecp.. when some bugger jammed his brakes n the rest all had to jam theirs.. scared the hell out of me.. first time experiencing something like that.. happened in the right lane somemore.. but luckily no accident.. *sigh*
ah well.. have quite a few more things i wanna blog.. things i've been thinking about.. but doesnt matter.. no mood.. so i shall leave u all with the chorus of a nice song.. it's been in my head ever since last nite reverie sang it.. thanks baby for sending it to me.. *smile*
"Fly the ocean in a silver plane, See the jungle when it's wet with rain. Just remember 'til you're home again.. You belong to me"
jen
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February 07, 2005
a bright n sunny morning.. :) feels so refreshed after yesterdae's outing.. heh.. was
Celia's bdae dinner at her place.. good complany.. good food.. super yummy bdae cake.. great hospitality.. nice simple dinner.. i like :) makes mi think twice now whether i should hold a big party on my 21st.. so mani 21st bdae parties n dinners.. it's scary.. heh..
went to chinatown after lepaking, playing with ashley's toys, watching david blaine n those who saw him for the first time.. they were freaked out.. biting candy's n almost biting taufik's fingers.. haha.. *recalls the shocked look on candy's face* hahaha.. it was close to midnite so like 1/2 the stalls were closed.. but it was still good.. "absorbing" the cny atmosphere.. haha but going to chinatown not realli my kinda thing lar.. mi more xiao jie.. prefer shopping centers.. haha lucky it was cooling last nite.. bought sparklers n me, celia, mich, jon, nick n shane went down to riverside point to play with them.. the guys were singing n singing.. so nice.. :) clarke quay was empty.. first time in my life i see that place so quiet n peaceful.. for a moment.. i kinda started picturing my future.. with kids n all.. haha a bit dumb.. im not 21 yet! :P
nic gave mi a lift home n i realised we were from the same church.. using their lingo.. "coincidental or wad??" haha.. after hanging out with them last nite.. i realised that they're super funny pple.. haha coz i always see them singing on stage.. so yah.. *impression changed* i can tell why *ahem* likes *ahem*...
spent an hour on the phone with
*him after i showered.. heh i did some silly thing.. crap.. but ok lar.. he din mind.. :P just so peaceful chatting over the fone at like 4 plus in the morning.. another thing to be added to my wad-i-like-to-do-at-nite list.. not that there's many.. it's mainly the nite spins.. haha..
had relative's dinner on sat nite.. my nephew's so damn cute lar.. heh.. it's like u just wanna pick him up n hug him.. haha.. the adults were talking about marriage n stuff when i joined in the conversation.. man.. im too young for that.. but there's nothing else to do.. who ask mi to be one of the youngest.. the other 2 younger den mi are sec 2 n sec 4.. den i'm stuck in the middle.. *sings malcolm in the middle's theme song* aniwae listening about things people say can be quite interesting at times.. haha.. oh n ian (my nephew) gave mi a kiss on my cheek b4 he left!! sooooo cute!!! he's like bout a yr old.. den when my cuzzie asked him to gimme a flying kiss.. he bend down to gimme a real one... awww... *heart melt* haha..
after having the car to myself for a whole week.. i decided that im quite tired of driving all over the place.. dun like it when i see the petrol tank meter dropping.. haha petrol's damn expensive lar.. aniwae thanks mummy for letting mi have the car :) thru out the week.. had one funny guy n another bian tai guy.. jiating could testify to how pissed i was on fri.. but im ok already lar.. the note wasnt meant for me aniwae.. science guys just too bo liao already.. childish.. bth.. >.< but the funny guy.. haha quite a weird experience lar..
been dancing almost everydae since wed.. let me see.. wed, thurs, fri, sat.. haha ok so that's 4 days in a row.. yest rest.. i miss my illusion girls.. so long never do show tog liaoz.. hope shuyi's grandma is feeling better.. later at 2 got performance at yih.. oh man i hope i dun screw it up.. somemore gotta rush from arts to yih coz i end my tut at 2.. maybe i'll ask my tutor if i can leave a bit earlier.. mummy on leave todae.. so i get to drive once again.. but if she's free.. maybe i'll just ask her to drive mi down.. heh..
time to do readings b4 going for tut.. hmmz.. nah.. maybe not...
jen
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February 05, 2005
FuNkY NeW fEaTuRe! *gRiN*
jen
~16:42~
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February 03, 2005
with this blog entry i end my day with... 2 blue blacks.. messy hair... tired eyes.. a bad throat.. n a sexy voice.. haha
2 blue blacks from dance.. floor work.. wadz new.. sigh but todae's steps quite nice.. psycho motor.. haha the kind candy likes.. hahaha i still cant do the 'baby swipe'.. grrr.. at least the item for our gig is coming together.. a few more days n gotta perform already.. a bit scared.. heh
messy hair.. due to the nice nite spin i had.. popped by wanni's for a while.. had a nice chat with her also.. cant wait to meet up with the girls on cny day 2.. finally a full complete gang together.. just like cedar days.. haha
tired eyes.. from looking too much at comp screens..
bad throat.. virus not cleared.. coughing badly..
sexy voice.. haha ditto as above..
jen
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February 02, 2005
yes im starting to screw up my bio clock.. wad happened to my sleep at latest latest 1??? *frown*.. the past few days i've been so tired.. for i dunno wad reason.. crap.. i hate this feeling.. i realli ought to force myself to sleep soon.. keep dozing off at 9pm onli to wake up at 11 pm n stone after which.. blah.. todae was the worst.. i din even have dinner.. n i was supposed to pop by my gf's house for a while.. din happen.. coz i was so tired i knocked out.. yes.. tmr i shall try to tune it back to sleep by latest 1.. :P heh
drove to sch yest n todae.. i like~ the convenience of it all.. n the thrill of beating the carpark system.. haha ponned 02 lect todae coz 01 ended at like 1245 n i decided to go home n rest.. spent the whole afternoon chatting with
*him n burning cds.. haha feel like a pirate.. *hush hush* printed some notes den went to watch the desperate housewives which i so happily fell asleep even b4 the show started.. i reiterate.. i dunno why im so tired.. ys asked if i was stressed.. i dun tink so.. hmmz..
had a nice lil chat with shimmy at the canteen todae.. it's been a while.. we used to talk about stuff all thru 04 prac.. haha esp about this certain someone.. super funny.. but it aint anithing bad.. *cross my heart* :)
dance tmr.. *quick recap of last week's steps in my mind* heh.. speaking of which.. tat's blog had quite a lot of activity going on coz of funka.. as usual.. the controversies.. who din deserve this prize that prize.. arent we all used to it by now? well next yr if they're still gonna have hip hop techniques as one of the main judging criteria.. i wonder who will win when breakers pit themselves against poppers n lockers? haha no more waterbabes style.. pure hiphop groove.. woot~ cant realli imagine it lar.. aniwae to me.. funka has lost it's glam already.. fight so hard for lee jeans voucher?? haha might as well take part in suntec dance rite.. more attractive prizes somemore..
the cough aint getting better.. neither is the throat nor the voice.. sigh i hate being sick.. *grumble grumble grumble* gonna hide in my room n chill b4 i feel tired enuff to turn in.. *turns on hi-fi* good nite world..
"and this dusk turns to dawn, still you're battered in your thoughts, you feel lost, so alone, and you wonder, can you carry on?"
jen
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