~*just dance it!*~

February 25, 2006

bursting a balloon..

imagine a balloon.. you keep pumping air into it.. bit by bit.. slowly but surely.. one fine day.. it's gonna burst albeit elastic.. all it takes is that little bit more air to do the trick..

right now im that balloon.. almost maxed but not quite..

so pardon my aloofness.. my "i-dun-give-a-shit".. in all honesty.. i do care.. but b4 anything irreversible happens.. i better take some time to deflate..

im really really tired.. drained.. even 10 hours of sleep aint doing me good.. something's really wrong.. but right now.. i'm taking it on my own..

jen
~14:38~

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February 24, 2006

O A S I S R A W K Z ! ! !

lots of controversy about the oasis concert.. apparently me n yang were the only ones who think it was awesome.. maybe it's due to the fact that we were standing so damn near liam! like the 2nd row can!!! mosh pits are scary.. push here push there.. all the sweaty bodies rubbing against you.. body surfing.. it was plain madness.. but i enjoyed myself totally! so so so close to liam.. noel was just being his usual cool self with his guitar.. the concert was pretty short though.. 2 hours only.. i expected more.. but i was on tiptoes the whole nite.. din even have space to put both feet on the ground.. that was how crazy n packed the 160 bucks arena was.. everyone just shoving towards the front.. i swear i lost 1 kg sia.. haha

and this lucky bitch got called up by liam can!!! wah lau.. so damn lucky!! she spent a good 3 min on stage shaking HIS tambourine.. jumping up n down.. running around machiam like her concert.. and the best part.. she KISSED noel!!!!!!!!!!! no way rite!!! we were all shouting bitch!! haha obviously full of jealousy n envy.. bleahz.. n i din manage to catch the tambourine liam threw.. was too far front.. but i did manage to take a few good shots :) vidz lasted for a min or so onli.. b4 i got pushed to n fro by the crazy pple.. couldnt even hold the camera still for a second sia.. kana push here push there.. stepped on.. lol.. it was plain madness..

din get any merchandise for myself.. the shirts were either L or XL and there was NO tour tshirt.. how crap is that? so i bot a L for the biggest oasis fan i know in the end.. haha luckily i already have the tour tshirt when i went to see them in chicago.. :)

something unpleasant happened when i got back home.. got hung up on which i so totally hate.. tired already can..

not gonna say more.. today's a happy day.. today i stood just a few cm away from liam.. tonite i'll have sweet dreams :)

i want more... that was 160 bucks well spent.. :)

jen
~01:24~

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February 23, 2006

dead for 12 hours

i din hear no msg.. answer no fone.. slept from 10pm to 10 am.. til i waken up by a fone call from laopo..

dance yesterdae was bad.. coz of the lack of sleep.. i couldnt put in my all.. kana scolded by pat.. *wails* and everyone had to do that damn item one more time for me! sigh.. sorry guys.. i feel really bad.. next time im so gonna sleep before coming for dance.. cannot screw up anymore!!!

learnt all the steps yesterdae.. one more prac next wed.. n if have to.. one last one on fri.. den it's showtime already.. saturday 4th march.. probably my last performance as a member of blast.. still have alumni.. but whether anot i'll be around is a different story altogether..

so to all my frens.. 4th MARCH UCC COURTYARD.. NUS DANCE BLAST HIPHOP COMPETITION 7PM.. it's a saturday.. so do come ok!!! i'll be doing the opening item.. n the competition is worth watching.. tough competition.. i'll be supporting maki, rozzno n trace for the group and solo.. hmm def one of the blast boys.. :P

actually dun really know how to help out for the hiphop nite preps.. like always just hang around and cant do much.. maybe when they need help in prep of the props etc den i can be of more use.. heh..

the visit to chinatown was quite fun.. haha went around taking photos and eating the famous porridge! yum yum yum!! but i still think tiong bahru's porridge is still the best.. bedok 85 one also nice.. :) hau geng's mixed up world of fairytales proved to be quite the laugh.. haha we were all saying we pity his children next time.. coz all the fairytales he'll tell them are wrong.. lol.. house party after hh nite.. proudly organised by the central 6 gang.. it's gonna be one helluva nite.. haha maybe i'll pop by for a while..

the lack of sleep on tues nite proved fatal.. now im awake with a runny nose n bad throat.. hope it gets better along the day.. meeting laopo for lunch b4 he flies home to aussie.. damn.. supposed to meet him 3 times.. but we only made it to 2.. bleahz..

mid term break has become meeting people who are going back to aussie week.. haha everyone seems to be flying off this week.. n jk.. i think i missed you.. din even noe u went back already.. haha sorry man.. couldnt drive you out for supper..

it's time to get settled n start work.. today's the last day of mid term break yet im still not doing ani work!!! blahz...

mel just smsed me! :) she's safely back in aussie.. tog with frankie.. had a good time hanging out with her on tues nite.. heh so much to talk about.. sigh i miss her already.. most prob i'll see ya in july in aussie babe! :) need to save up so much cash for travelling.. but dun care lar.. b4 i start work i must playyyyyyy..

honestly.. im gonna grad n start work in like a few months time.. yet im still such a lil girl.. too protected.. will i survive in the wild?? hahaha.. maybe it's not so bad afterall..

jen
~10:56~

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February 21, 2006

physio 101 by prof chalk

click here

beware: content not advisable for children or those with a weak heart.. ultra lame entry.. but i think it's just so FoS i had to post 'em up... enjoy~

jen
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February 20, 2006

roses are red.. now bleed yourself dry for me..

sadistic or wad.. haha to think i came up which such a nick today.. maybe im hanging around the wrong company.. it felt weird seeing another fren smoke today.. somehow i get disappointed as more n more people around me start puffing away..

lab was ok.. my first session with the post doc student.. she had 9 freaking years of experience with cell culture! eeeuuuuwww.. i dont think i can even survive a year.. anyhow.. learnt cell counting using the haemocytometer.. or at least i think that's what it's called.. learnt how to split cells.. etc etc etc.. dealing with cancer cells.. scary or wad~ haha oh well.. oh n i learnt how to use the autoclave machine~ machiam like some washing machine.. lol

met up with laogong for lunch.. had so much to update sia.. on her side.. on my side.. *grin* we should do this again some time soon.. heh somehow we're in the same situation.. precisely why i believe that humans shouldnt be born with feelings.. simple life my fren.. simple life.. that's all im asking for.. graduate.. find a reasonable job.. get married.. settled down.. have a happy family.. dun even have to be rich or wad.. i just want to be happy..

chalk came to disturb n started doodling all over my physio notes.. lol.. WBC became wanton.. Hb became spaghetti.. and he even called the liver a pistachio! haha laugh until peng sia.. he turned the diagram of the heart upside down and said it's the male repro system.. haha gonna take pics of his drawings n post them up soon.. he's damn hilarious.. went out to chit chat with him so he could smoke.. lionel n harold came up soon after.. so chit chatted a while more and ended up not really studying much.. but ok lar.. long time never tok to them le..

bot ben n jerry's ice cream on the way back! yummmyyyy :) but they din have my fav cookie dough.. digged the whole refrigerator until my fingers turned numb but they din have it.. so i ended up with oatmeal chunk.. coz i din like cherry garcia nor the monkey one..

time to watch teevee n get some work done.. meeting up with my girls tmr.. the last time b4 mel flies off again.. speaking of which.. she told me that the ex emailed her.. like after not contacting each other for 1 1/2 yrs.. it's amazing how much he still loves her.. as much as i dun like him.. but i feel sorry for him.. it's hard to find such a faithful guy these days.. really very hard.. nonetheless i just hope he'll get over mel soon..

im actually very tired.. no matter how much i sleep.. i just cant seem to get enough.. something's wrong with me...

jen
~21:25~

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vroom vroommmmm

I'm a Chevrolet Corvette!

You're a classic - powerful, athletic, and competitive. You're all about winning the race and getting the job done. While you have a practical everyday side, you get wild when anyone pushes your pedal. You hate to lose, but you hardly ever do.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

jen
~20:24~

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February 19, 2006

as long as you're happy

"welcome to the life of the poor".. someone said to me.. those 7 words made me shut up a little.. and i felt realli bad.. maybe i realli do talk too much.. and me being the tactless me might have hurt the other person.. i certainly hope not.. wasnt intentional.. but if i did.. im sorry..

would anyone give up white gold for silver? most people would not.. but who is to dictate what's right and what's not? white gold might be expensive and precious.. but silver has its beautiful unpolished side as well.. so which would u pick?

caught fight club yesterday.. remembered watching it and falling asleep on that show when i was young.. maybe that's why it's R21.. too chim for the young.. but yah it's a really good show.. gives another take on life.. It's about this lonely thirty-something young professional whom upon seeking an escape from his mundane existence created his alter ego (aka HOT brad pitt). He formed underground fight clubs and gathered men under his wing.. this led to an out of control spiral towards oblivion whilst trying to gain release from the prison of reality.

"you have to know, not fear, that someday you're going to die.. until you know that and embrace that.. you're useless.. "

how would one react if you were treated like shit.. physically and emotionally hurt by that one person who means so much.. and in your blind spot.. someone else comes along and puts a smile on your face every single day? disillusioned i would say.. that's how humans are... honestly.. we shouldnt be born with feelings.. life would be so much simpler that way..

ok.. before u all go on and try to decipher what i've just typed thus far.. dont bother.. it's just my wild imagination blabbering away.. and i am not emo as of this very moment thank you..

im happy today ok! :)

daniel daniel called me from bahrain! was so happy to receive his call.. he's been gone for almost a month.. next stop I R A Q... take care bro.. i pray that you'll be safe from terrorist attacks.. :)

bot the si dian jin (4 pieces of white gold) from sq's dad's shop.. felt bad for making uncle come all the way down just to help me.. i cant say how thankful i am for that..

and i finally went shopping!! accessories galore~ so happy.. din really spend a lot.. sometimes it's the little things in life that makes you the most satisfied.. :)

it's only when you've been delegated to a state where you feel like trash that your heart melts when someone tells you this.. "as long as you're happy"

jen
~04:46~

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February 18, 2006

come here.. hold my hand for now..

field trip to sungei buloh today.. fell asleep on the bus journey there n ended up at some ulu place.. worse part.. it started raining.. wth.. luckily i brought my unbrella.. it wasnt that bad lar.. minus the rain.. i basically rotted for a few hours there.. best part was when me dawn n shim went to get ice cream.. heh yummylicious~ i lurve eating ice cream on rainy days.. some habit since pri school.. haha

phy in life sci tut was a breeze.. sometimes i wonder if i know more or the tutor knows more.. and i beg to differ from majority of the girls.. he is so not hot.. everytime lect i will over hear girls saying "there's the cute ta".. ok la maybe in sci he's considered not too bad.. but i dun like.. aniwae he kept asking questions n since no one wants to answer them.. i answered them for him.. got a lil irritated by his constant asking also lar.. just hope i din appear to "smart-alecky".. n did i mention the freaking test has no more cheat sheet and it's freaking negative marking!!!!!! thanks God im a life sci student.. as wad greg says.. " time to top the bell curve!" lol.. but im sure there are loads of life sci students in this module.. and bound to be super hardworking ones around.. so not that easy to top the bell curve lar.. 1 careless mistake could lead to your downfall..

last nite.. i asked jkai how come he says im unhappy ( coz he did some quiz for me..) and he was like ur blog always so emo one.. well i do try to make my posts as happy as ever.. but there are times where it's just no go.. esp not now when im fucking emo..

been pretty bothered about stuffs lately.. i finally see how helpless i am.. suddenly all my rants seem nothing compared to what you're going thru.. no matter wad i'll support u ok! you really dont have to take it all by yourself sometimes.. and this is no small matter.. i just hope i can help u in whatever way i can.. it wun be much but i guess it's still something.. *hugz* be strong.. everything will be alright now that im here..

i wish i could take away all your pain n troubles..

ps photos up on my photoblog...

jen
~00:43~

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February 16, 2006

awake but empty...

awoke this morning to an empty feeling.. do i really not care animore? maybe i still do.. but im just too tired to think or do anything.. screw it.. i dun give a damn..

evocation was great.. maki n tau looked so cute on stage.. fen looked so pretty.. n rozzno was hot lar! she totally stole the stage for the hip hop item.. :) congrats my prens.. you all were amazing..

blast class was so so.. somehow i couldnt realli focus.. kept screwing up the 1st 8.. but ok lar.. at least i managed to get it right towards the end of the lesson.. plus i need to internalise the 1 st week's steps.. hope i can dance for hiphop nite item..

on the way to lt13.. xiao told me something which kinda hurt me.. but i guess im just being sensitive.. he was just being nice.. but somehow the words came out wrong.. sigh..

photo whoring session after evo.. haha den proceeded to clementi to lepak with the blastards.. waffle n milo settled my dinner for the nite.. and val.. i had a good time talking to u.. heh.. it's funny how we're like in the same boat huh? *winks*

went out on tues for movie n dinner.. heh it was just a simple affair.. but i enjoyed myself.. mood was spoilt for a lil while but i just sucked it all in n smiled.. not fair to make my date unhappy coz of me rite.. lol..

been having so little sleep the past few nites.. my eye bags are like visible now.. n to think i never had them in jc.. only when i entered uni.. pimples also!! how come jc time i more stress but den no eye bags no pimples??? no fair!! :(

mid term break is coming.. but there are so many things to do.. sigh.. i hate school.. guess i used to enjoy going to sch coz of dance.. n now.. just go to school for the sake of going to school.. at least hip hop nite is coming.. so can help out :) realli hope the present comm will come together and work as a team.. it's so hard seeing just a few of them stressing over the whole event while the rest are busy with their other stuffs.. but i foresee the outgoing comm ocming to help.. as long as the event pulls thru im sure we all wun mind lending a helping hand..

so here's some publicity for the event

HIP HOP NITE
4TH MARCH 2006
UCC COURTYARD

it's a dance competition.. battle style.. solo and group (3 persons).. if there are dancers reading this and u're interested to take part.. email me at mysticjen@gmail.com..
1.5 min choreo, battling and freestyling.. wade robson style..

for those who are interested to come.. do come n watch! it's free! saturday nite.. good place to bring ur family n friends.. haha

jen
~12:47~

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February 11, 2006

the back view of you..

thurs : the meeting with the post doc student only took 1/2 an hour.. crashed perfume n cosmetics lect with shim dawn cheryl n nik.. rained like crazy..

sprang celia a surprise or attempted to.. when all our efforts went down the drain due to the lousy architecture of the computing faculty.. *sigh* nonetheless.. about 10 of us gathered tog to celebrate celia's 22nd! :) yummy sweet secrets cake~ lepaked at spin's at uni hall for bout 2 hours den a few of us went to hell for lunch n den to the lib to mug.. yeah.. pseudo-mugging i would say..

fri : boring boring lectures.. come to think of it.. im somewhat regretting taking physio hormones.. it aint that easy.. really a lot of material to cover.. (and i must cover 10 chapters by tues coz poor jen has a test on valentine's dae.. *sob*) studied a lil while with jt after sch b4 heading down to clarke quay for wine tasting tog with korkor n dasao.. memories of the times with *you just came rushing back in as i reminisced about that day when we drove all over niagara falls to vineyards and even had my first wine tasting lesson.. heh.. yes my dear.. i miss you..

chilled at nite for a while.. den had fun driving home late at nite with few cars around.. hitting up til 140 km/h.. i just hope there was no tp.. otherwise im fucked..

gazing at the back view of someone playing the guitar in a dimly lit room could actually trigger the melancholy me.. just from the back view.. i saw a troubled mind.. a struggling heart.. a person almost in despair.. but there's no one to turn to.. just a soul seeking solace with a guitar.. as though that's the only thing keeping himself sane thru all the turmoil.. not all problems can be solved.. yet not everything in this world is about money.. sigh.. the part and parcels of life..

jen
~15:41~

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February 09, 2006

lack of sleep...

lost 20 bucks at mahjong.. sigh.. and i used to always win at mahjong.. confirm it's the cny bad luck curse or something.. who has been cursing me!! boo hoo.. i dun wan to play mahjong already.. boo~

met up with jinny at gelare on mon nite.. just a quiet little catching up session b4 she flies off to shanghai and den back to aussie..

tues was full of boring lectures.. the 8am one ended at 9 coz that woman din wanna carry on.. ridiculous lar.. the qn can read on the spot wad.. friday's lect could have been cancelled can! i could have jolly well be in bed on a fri day at 8am lar.. urghh.. irritated.. making the lect at 830 aint gonna make ani difference can.. bleahz.. pissed off..

next lect at 10.. ended at 1115.. wtf.. ok lar.. he finished the set of notes n yah couldnt go on animore.. so i had my lunch break with jiating :) FIRST meal in science this sem.. amazing or wad.. and it's already week 5..

phy in life sci lect ended earli.. as usual.. at 1.. went to lepak at arts canteen for a while with maki n dot.. den headed down for changing landscapes.. after which i took a bus down back to sci to meet shim..

this was when that freaky thing happened.. some guy came up to me and said hello as though he knew me.. told me he always sees me around in zouk.. he knows im from veejay.. he knows my frens weijie n zihao.. but he's not from their sec sch nor jc.. so highly likely my memory aint that bad and i have realli never never seen him in my entire life b4.. the onli 2 times i remembered having an 'encounter' with him was once at zouk where this guy kept looking at me but i just looked away coz i realli din noe the person.. if dunno the person den wun say hi wad rite! and the 2nd time was on the bus.. where he happily waved n said hello.. me.. being me just blurly smiled.. remembered telling dawn.. maybe my dance junior lar.. i cant rem all their faces til now.. turns out to be that freaky guy.. and if that was not enough.. after alighting from the bus.. i headed str8 to starbucks as shim refused to answer my fone calls.. haha lucky thing she was there.. tog with isaac and his brother andrew.. that freaky guy waved from across the carpark.. and yah.. omg.. so weird! i realli dunno him at all.. den he keep saying hi.. sigh.. felt v traumatised.. like i din even dare to walk near the co-op to buy my book coz he said he'll be eating at the canteen.. *shakes head* who is this guy????

went to school to had an hour long conversation with the prof who's proably gonna hire me after i grad.. yes im not useless.. i may be stupid n in some sense bimbotic.. but at least i already found a job.. whether anot im taking it up is another issue.. meeting him and his post doc student again tmr at 9.30.. tmr will be the day i start learning the ropes in the lab.. and there goes my free day too.. but on the other hand.. if i end by 1.. i can go over to find candy n the rest.. :)

somehow after that conversation i felt really scared.. like super uncertain about what my future holds.. i have come to the end of my education here in singapore.. grad sch is definitely gonna be in the states no matter wad.. but yah just within the past 24 hours.. i was let into the lives of 2 people.. 1 rich.. whom i can safely say has almost everything in the world.. and another.. struggling to make ends meet.. it breaks my heart to see my fren suffering at work.. at school.. and even at home.. as he shared all his problems with me.. i felt damn helpless.. i couldnt do a thing.. the onli thing i could do was to thank God for blessing me with the life i have.. suddenly my oh-so-drama life aint that drama animore.. suddenly my problems seemed like nothing compared to his.. "tong ren bu tong ming"... but im proud of him.. fighting to change for the better.. always keeping his head up :)

so actualli i barely slept last nite.. was just very bothered about life.. and the uncertainties it holds.. went to physio prac at 2 with a heavy heart.. partly also coz we had to prick our fingers todae to get blood for the experiment.. sadist or wad.. kns.. thankfully this kind soul gave me some of his blood so in a sense that saved me the agony.. but still.. i dunno what's with me and needles n blood.. i was all ready to prick myself.. i tried to punture thru.. but my hands just kept trembling n wun stop.. am i that weak? if so.. why the hell am i in life sci?? i should be able to take all this shit!! aniwae looking at too much blood made me nauseous.. i regretted eating lunch.. sigh.. but yah as i said thankfully this nice guy saved my ass.. yr 3 life sci too.. yes i haven seen him around even though he's seen me around.. i guess i really walk around school with my eyes closed huh? in veejay also like that.. and now in nus.. no exception.. maybe that's why i still maintain my reputation of being dao.. but im realli not dao when u get to noe me!!! haha bleahz.. honestly i dun give a damn..

kana called by the lecturer during tut.. couldnt realli answer well.. and yes that kind soul helped me again.. haha he's like my saviour today or wad! and the best part.. i dunno his name :X forgot to ask lar.. *oopz*

oh.. and i saw freaky guy at the canteen after prac when rushing for dance! eeeee.. scared.. faster walk away.. haha

speaking of dance.. i rushed down to ucc.. clean forgetting that today's practice was at dance theatre.. got off at the ucc stop.. crossed the road den realised i was at the wrong place! called val.. no reply.. called maki.. no reply.. shit.. senior class started le.. den i called matt. (the only junior whose number i have).. he confirmed that todae's prac was at DT so i rushed over.. luckily pat just started.. and maybe im old.. but i feel tired doing floor work..

today's dance class was fun though.. i had a lot of fun.. :) *beep!*

just back from shim's.. went over to do the freaking eco lab report.. at least it's almost done.. left a bit of touching up and it's ready to be printed n handed up.. time to nua on my bed for a while b4 i call it a nite..

*i wanna be serenaded to sleep every nite!*

jen
~01:59~

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February 05, 2006

risen from the dead..

well almost.. slept for a good 12 hours.. mainly coz of the damn cramps dat kept me in bed on a saturday nite.. sis-in-law gave me a pill to take and basically the rest of the nite i was trying to sleep off the pain.. sorry tracy for not attending ur bdae party!! awaking from the 12 hours of sleep.. i suddenly felt as though i had died and no one cared.. no one bothered.. but i was partly wrong.. a msg came in to ask if i was ok.. :) other den that i could have died and no one would have known..

everything sparked off by me sleeping at 4 on thurs nite.. being someone's love advisor.. haha actualli din help much also lar.. just talked about happier stuff.. :) woke up at 645 on fri morning n headed down from my freaking 8 am lecture.. *yawn*.. this followed by the 10am lect which i kept dozing off and in the end i couldnt take it.. i ponned by phy in life sci lect.. no point going also lar.. mRNA.. wah lau tell me what i dunno about it.. aniwae i felt a tad bit guilty so i read my notes at starbucks with shim for.. got that over n done with in 5 min.. den proceeded to watch initial d with her on her video ipod.. takumi!!!! ryosuke!!!!!! keisuke!!! heh i wanna drive like them!!! vroom vroom!!!

eo field trip was a bore.. trekking in the jungle has never been my thing.. thank god for that can of insect repellant.. i ended up a one mosquito bite onli.. grrr.. i hate hate hate eco field trips.. the onli reason why im taking the mod is coz it's open book! heh.. bleahzzz.. on such a hot day somemore.. gave me a headache.. rawr....

dawn n i proceeded to yoon's room to shower after that.. thanks yoon for ur room~ n u looked realli lurvely that day.. that's what love can do huh? :P waiting at holland v bk for the longest time ever for our meeting with the diving peeps.. which was organised mainly for daniel who's leaving on a ship to duai n middle east.. some navy thing.. (daniel daniel: it's ok to announce it already rite??? :P)

me n dawn were dying of hunger.. we ordered a snack.. which consisted of 5 pathetic chicken cheese sticks.. and a drink.. we both tot there was gonna be 10.. unsatisfied.. i called zhiming to ask him n the other 2 to hurry up... haha me n dawn looked damn pathetic lar.. hungry n tired.. that toally sucks.. met 2 of the central lib guys.. sian we must have looked damn unglam.. haha.. luckily we showered otherwise we'd be hungry tired and dirty... eeeuuuww.. i would have jsut gone home sia.. anihow.. zhiming william n roy finally arrived and both me n dawn gobbled down our food.. haha i bet the guys din see us this hungry during our diving trip.. me being the slow eater.. still finished last.. n a few hours later.. i suffered from indigestion.. grrr...

we den proceeded to starbucks to wait for daniel and jeff to come.. chit chatted for a lil while.. it was great catching up with them again.. yet the close bond during the trip no longer exists.. at least to me.. at times i felt a lil lost n din noe wad to tok bout cept for general stuffs.. it's kinda weird huh? people you were so close to at one point of time.. suddenly seemed like strangers.. maybe it's just me..

joined shim jon n frens at zouk.. tog with kenneth.. shim told me something which left me thinking.. i dunno whether she was high or she just decided to speak her mind there and den.. but yah.. maybe this really is the last chance.. can this one last chance work out finally?? im still waiting to see.. left earli as zouk's music sucked.. and yah i went to phuture for a while.. but as usual i got turned off and left.. im swearing off phuture.. im still v disappointed at how what once used to be my fav place turn out to be like a warzone.. or should i say.. humping zone.. sigh..

couldnt sleept at nite.. think when i finally got to bed it was 730 am.. the sun had alrady risen.. but there i was lying awake on my bed.. managed a mere 3 hours of sleep and yah got up.. woke up to emptiness...

someone sang a song.. so sweet so soft.. just next to my ear.. someone carried my big heavy bag.. someone walked me up.. someone held me close... someone acted as if he din care but deep down he did.. someone gave me the gentlest of kisses.. someone played the guitar and serenaded me.. someone fetched me home.. someone shared with me his deepest secrets.. was it all but a dream???

jen
~19:56~

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February 02, 2006

paul van dyk is absofuckinglutely awesome!!!

the title pretty muc speaks for itself.. i aint a trance person.. but when it comes to paul van dyk.. it's a whole new level altogether.. the music was solid all nite long.. aldrin paled in comparison.. i dunno how paul van dyk did it.. but he managed to capture my attention all nite long.. spinning tracks i normally dun go for.. and it was a superb nite! not only coz of the dj.. but also with my beloved frens! mel n frankie (yes babe u still owe me one for leaving me halfway that nite! *grrr*).. jap, shaun n friends.. thanks jap for being around n taking care of me preventing me from being bumped by that short fart.. heh.. :P adam, justin n the rest of the cousins whom i met later on in the nite.. and especially to kenneth.. thanks for pei-ing me almost the whole later part of the nite :) n thanks for sending me back even though u dun stay near me.. u're such a sweetie :)

so the nite began with finger guessing with mel n frankie.. with this guy coming to tell me not to drink too much if not when pvd comes.. i'll be gone.. den started talking n played finger guessing in a group.. drinking their super strong LIT as penalty.. met them once again at zouk.. n the other friend kept losing coz of me.. so he challenged me one on one.. somehow my finger guessing skills have improved.. either that or he sucks big time.. so managed to 'con' them bout 1/2 jug of lit.. happiness or wad.. haha i made mel play too.. so we could all drink tog.. :)

stole a jug of drink which wasnt looked after.. i mean helloooooo u buy drinks den dun just leave there mah... so dumb rite.. but to our disappointment.. it was onli... fruit punch! urgh!!! kana cheated.. stole some gina's drink!!! boo... :(

danced my ass off when pvd was in the house.. super shiok.. haha made kenneth dance with this indian girl.. and turns out she was interested in him.. hahaha she asked him where he stay and if he had a gf.. so he panicked n dragged me in.. lol.. den i made adam dance with her.. n he happily danced.. he was soooo high that nite sia.. haha i laugh until stomachache.. dunno if he was actualli aware that he was dancing with a stranger not.. lol..

on the whole i have a helluva good time.. probably one of the best clubbing nites i ever had.. i love all my frens.. n i love pvd!!! heh.. :)

pvd pvd pvd pvd pvd pvd pvd.. i want moreeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

chi new yr day 1 was spent at church.. grandma's place.. and den mahjong at nite..

chi new yr day 2 was spent visiting the girls' houses.. chatting in my room.. playing banluck with my mummy n her office boys.. n den a dinner with my daddy's shifu.. sigh speaking of which.. the family minus daddy had a discussion bout his religion.. it's not that im against his religion.. but im against the way they teach.. the way the whole organisation is being ran.. shan't say too much.. afterall it's a family affair.. but my point is.. im disappointed..

after the dinner.. was dropped off at corpthorne.. waited a lil while for mel n frankie.. den headed into zouk.. heh.. slacked by the river side til 1130 b4 re-entering.. the rest of the nite.. *read above*

chi new yr day 3.. with family again.. mahjong mahjong mahjong.. haha overall lost 8 bucks.. this cny period my luck for mahjong has been bad... i normally do pretty ok in mahjong..

had dance just now.. wah shagggggg ar.... one whole month never dance le.. den suddenly whack hard.. my body is aching now can! gonna sleep soon sia.. damn tired... went for dinner at fong seng with liza maki n jackjack after blast.. banana prataaaa n milo dinosaurrrrr.. so yummy.. heh

had 2 tutorials today.. changing landscapes and phy in life sci.. changing landscapes was quite fun.. the tutor also very nice :)

as for phy in life sci.. haha i dunno whether it's good or bad.. but yah ok lar.. granted that the tutor is nice n reminds me that tad bit of the ex.. lol.. he's ok i guess.. but he realli doesnt noe his stuff and yah asked for life sci student somemore.. telling me i can just mark attendance and leave coz i noe all the answers already.. somemore everyone will get full participation marks.. wad kinda crap is that?? lol.. best part.. somemore dunno how to spell phosphodiester.. must ask me.. hello tutor.. u were already at wikipedia.. go check it lar!!! fainted.. sigh so much for that tut huh?? but yah i'll still go lar.. life sci student doesnt mean i know everything lor.. but one thing's for sure.. i noe much more den him.. :X

ah well.. dunno wad to say man.. haha u tell me lar.. where got this kinda tutor one?? sigh.. *shakes head*..

it's wednesday.. but jenjen's not at mambo.. :(

jen
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