frustrated...
i hate it!!! every time he does this to me i get upset.. i hate arguing back with him.. to make him see things my way.. im already gonna be 21.. why is he still so uptight about things?? it's my life.. i wanna do the things i wanna do.. he himself told me he doesnt want me to study all day long and said it's good i find sports.. but now he's complaining i spend too much time on other things instead of my studies.. yes i agree lar.. b4 papadum.. everything was about dance.. n i had to spend time with babey too.. what if he doesnt wanna come back this dec?? do u noe how f***ed up that will be?? urgh... understand pls... UNDERSTAND!!!! im like pissed coz he thinks i have too many acitivites when in actual fact.. i cut down on soooo much! dance is now reduced to once a week.. on wed afternoons.. i seldom go out to meet frens.. i've stopped clubbing.. i go home every single f***ing day for dinner.. i spend time with the family.. am i not making the effort?? dont i try to hide myself in my room to study? though i admit i havent been doing much.. but at least it's a start.. n now just coz i told him i wanna go diving.. he gets all angry n everything.. blahhhh..
i realli cant wait to graduate.. onli den will he stop being strict with me.. onli den will i FINALLY get my freedom.. onli den will i truly be an adult.. im so sick n tired of this.. yet i hate it every time i try to argue back coz i noe it's wrong.. it's disrespectful.. he is afterall.. my father...
yet his paranoia pisses the shit hell out of me.. the other time i was using the lighter to burn off some threads from my shirt n i just left it on my desk after which.. den he came to my room n tot i was smoking.. like wth.. this aint the first time u accuse me of smoking lor.. and just because my frens smoke or u see so many youngsters smoking.. doesnt give u the right to accuse me of smoking!!!
just plssssss stop restricting meeee.......
