September 28, 2005
stressed...
1 test finally down today.. 1 more to go.. pharmaco test was crap today.. should have left more blanks so i wun lose so many marks.. urgh.. i un-heart negative marking.. blah... probably can pass but dunno whether can do well not.. i lost count halfway whilst the lect was going thru the answers.. but seems promising lar.. lol...
so 2 tests and 1 proj down.. up ahead.. cancer test on fri.. die die die.. the stupid lecturer just changed the format from mcqs with negative marking to 6 freaking essays in 2 hours! wtf!! so so upset can.. that's like 700 slides of cancer shit to study! crap.. :X
dance todae was not too bad.. no senior class.. so joined in junior class... heh same steps at last week's senior class steps so was trying to polish my own steps.. still looks v raw leh.. sob..
vroom vroom-ed to sch n back today.. :) happiness.. though din really like the slight jam on the way back.. but happy that i got to drive anyway.. *hugs my baby 6!*
oh finally started on my urops.. and my worst nitemare came true.. i had to wear the surgical mask, hair cover, shoe cover, surgical robe and do work in the clean room!! wah lau machiam i got disease like that.. the very same thing that freaked me out a few months back is the exact same thing im doing now.. happiness rite? nonetheless im learning a lot from the phd student and im grateful that she's nice n din mind me asking so many silly questions..
with that said.. it's time to face the cancer notes.. wanna run away also cannot.. 30% leh.. how to play play n not study??? sigh... *shakes head*
jen is a nerd tonite and tmr....
jen
~23:26~
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September 26, 2005
jen's weekend...
sat.. brother's ROM @ hotel furama river front.. finally my brother is officially married to kristine.. honestly nothing ha really changed for me.. coz she's been staying with us ever since they got tog.. so.. yah in a sense it's no biggie.. but im really happy for them.. :) hope they live in eternal bliss~ pics up on
photoblog~
somehow i freaked out when the JP pronounce them man n wife..for a split second i imagined myself to be in that exact same scenario.. and what if the guy i was marrying is the wrong guy?? lol.. i quickly wiped that tot off my mind.. at least 5 6 more yrs b4 my turn comes.. will worry about it den.. :P
met up with my cousins and chatted a lil with my bro's frens.. one more down.. 2 more to go.. haha maybe by next yr all my bro's frens would be married.. hmm.. good chance.. and my cousin is also thinking of settling down.. she's like 24 this yr.. but been dating for 4 yrs plus already.. in my opinion they should.. date too long also not good.. couples tend not to end up tog.. and the heartache totally sucks..
supper at coffee bean at changi airport was shiok.. raspberry cheesecake! yum yum.. and my car was skidding whilst i was going up the ramp.. no guts to do the drift yet.. wait my car kana stuck how? lol.. but yah it was close to it lar.. according to my fren.. :P
after church.. i went home to concuss.. got woken up bout 1 plus to have lunch with andrew kor.. din plan to send him off tonite coz his new girl would be there.. wait mistaken den how.. heh.. so yeah nice lunch at cartel with him and coincidentally met junliang there.. chatted a lil while b4 heading home to concuss somemore.. i spent almost my whole sunday sleeping!!! yikes.. :X
my urops FINALLY starts tmr.. i cant wait..
on a sadder note.. chubby has a growth on her belly and im really worried for her.. really hope it aint anithing serious..
jen
~02:43~
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September 24, 2005
thrilled...
just back from dinner or supper with kev.. who so kindly met me to pass me the torch for my esplanade ushering job.. had swensens!! so yummy.. heh.. fish n chips and coit tower.. my fav!! of coz we shared it coz i wun be able to finish it on my own.. but shiok lar.. was so full after that.. it was great just sitting there and admiring all the chio cars that drove past.. miatas.. silvias.. wrxs.. etc etc.. wad a beautiful sight~
had esplanade ushering in the evening.. today's event was another cantonese opera but it was so much more slack than the prev one i did.. maybe coz it wasnt by some famous singer by the name of chan po chu.. lol.. was so bored during the opera.. i just sat there n stoned.. lol.. but i had uncle bernard as my outer door usher partner.. n i really learnt a lot from him.. i loved talking to him.. super inspirational.. *respect*... im realli impressed by his attitude in life.. how he's so patient and friendly with everyone else.. how everyone else knows him.. thanks uncle bernard for showing me the ropes.. :) cant wait to usher tog with you again.. you owe me something!! heh and have a great time with ur grand daughter!!! she's so so cuteeeeee :P
the funky mama aka jennifer siow was also on duty.. she's realli very funny.. behaves just like a 21 yr old girl.. made a few more new friends.. jiajian, wai mun and eric.. :) looking forward to 'stomp-ing' with u all.. sadly though we wun be working at the same time slot.. oh well..
had protein test in the morn and it was alright.. not as bad as i expected.. so yah hoping to do pretty ok.. at least a pass for the paper :)
thurs: met up with joanne!!! study study study in the engine classroom.. tog with paul too.. and someone stood me up for dinner... heh.. (to the guilty person: just joking lar! it's ok one :P)
wed: dance class was super fun.. i was on an all time high.. the steps super nice!! just keep shaking shaking and shaking! until i got a stitch.. lol.. :P but it was shiok!!!! loved the junior class steps too! heh.. wish pat's choreo will be like that for the next few lessons.. i'll be so so happy! feels the adrenaline pumping in me again~ yay!! i wanna dance dance and danceeeeeee!
i still miss tioman.. though lesser.. but i noe the memories will always be kept close to my heart..
i wish i could find that someone who loves me the most.. that someone who can pamper me and not put me down.. i may not be the best.. but i aint the worst either.. dun deflate my ego just to make urs bigger..
jen
~02:38~
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September 21, 2005
my lovely memories on pulau tioman...
it all started on fri evening.. gathering at the club house.. filling up forms.. getting up on the bus.. and off we went.. :) got off at the checkpoint.. my first time doing so.. heh.. normally always enter m'sia via car.. met the aur grp there too.. pple like greg n kheng moh! heh.. *waves* it's always nice meeting frens esp when u're in another country.. :P
slept the rest of the bus journey there.. stayed at hotel timotel in mersing.. not a bad place.. :) got hot water n ac.. that's all u need to make jenjen a happy lil girl.. heh cards over at dawn's cuzzie's room b4 heading back to our own room to concuss..
freaking wake up call at 630.. barely ate bfast coz i dun have the habit of doing so.. den it was a 1 1/2 hr boat ride to tioman!!! :) check in to the resort and headed down to the jetty in prep for our first dive.. heh
first dive @ pulau bay, 6m deep.. entered the water via giant stride.. descended down and performed some basic skills like regulator removal, half mask clearing, full mask clearing, fin pivot and hovering.. first time underwater.. a lil scared but was happily enjoying the fishes with my dive buddy.. there was this fish that swam v close to us.. heh.. wanted to touch it but it swam away.. and i crashed into a huge coral.. coz it as behind me n i din see it.. but luckily it din break or anithing.. phew..
2nd dive @ pulau soyak.. 12 m deep.. after lunch we took the boat out to sea again.. this time it was more of a leisure dive.. entered the water like james bond.. the reverse backflip.. so cool.. sit at the side of the boat and just lean back and flip 180 deg into the water.. hee.. practised finning n hovering.. but it was a lil bit scary coz this girl, huixian or so named mini cooper by jack suddenly stopped finning and sank right into the corals!!! jack had to go n rescue her.. my gosh.. i was so scared.. thought something happened to her.. she kept sinking whenever jack let go of her.. haha.. as wad jack said.. poor corals.. thankfully she din land on any of those hideous sea urchins.. saw stone fish, squid and a school of barracudas!!!
3rd dive @ pulau renggis.. 12 m.. my first leisure dive!!!! the open water divers were split into 2 grps from the start.. so for this dive we all descended down tog.. after descending down tog with my dive buddy.. i started swimming into the school of fish coz i saw fins from a distance and wanted to go join them.. lol.. kana pulled back by zhiming.. lol.. wrong grp.. :X but that moment when i was swimming in the midst of the huge school of fish.. magical! magical! magical!!! everywhere i looked.. i was surrounded by fish! up down left right.. there were everywhere!! so so pretty!!! totally took my breath away! even saw a blue spotted sting ray.. dunno why zhiming din manage to see it.. heh
returned to land after that and showered.. got ready for dinner too.. heh.. food was not too bad.. :) but din realli eat a lot also.. dawn had 3 servings of rice!! so scary!!! i am so amazed at the amount she eats man.. waited for the leisure divers aka daniel adam n wanho to come back from their nite dive as we were playing asshole daidee and i had my traffic light ice cream~ i dropped from being the president to being the big asshole.. wah lau.. so suay..
all 9 of us gathered in the room to play cards.. joined the 2 double decker beds and was happily playing daidee with 2 decks of cards when suddenly there was a blackout!!! *sings i need a man who can make it blackout blackout* haha lame.. but yeah so we were all sitting there for a while.. wondering when the lights will be on again.. it was quite dumb lar.. i was still holding onto my cards.. after a while it got super hot so we decided to go outside to get some freash air and check out the situation.. turns out the whole island had a blackout!
went to the dining area to sit around and enjoy the sea breeze.. and i started falling asleep.. heh daniel had to wake me up to go back to the room.. was listening to mp3s on the upper deck of the bed and unknowingly concussed.. i din realli feel hot as there was a slight breeze blowing thru the room.. the torch kev passed to me for my esp ushering job b4 i left for tioman came in handy! heh was using it and sharing my torch with others..
awoke at 630 on sunday by zhiming.. washed up and headed down for bfast.. omelette!!! there was a huge storm and it rained like crazy.. but after a while it was just drizzling.. cold n sad.. we headed to the jetty once more for 2 more dives..
4th dive @ pulau renggis... took a boat ride out to renggis again where we had a leisure dive.. the water was super choppy.. and visibility was low at 5m.. swam around.. admiring the corals and all.. alex was the dive instructor this time round.. dawn jeff n jason got lost from our grp.. according to her they were the last 3 to descend and one min they see us.. the next min they got intercepted by a school of fish and couldnt find us animore.. so they resurfaced and went for their own leisure dive with another instructor.. i tried to go as near the sea bed as possible but there were moments when i freaked out and floated up a lil more.. partly coz i dun wanna destroy any corals.. and also coz i dun wanna get stung by the sea urchins and end up lying in bed for the next few days.. did a safety stop and resurfaced.. waited damn long for the boat to come and in the choppy water i tried breathing thru the snorkel.. but the min i leaned back.. i drank sea water! eeeuuuwww.. but yah.. it was hard to breathe properly as well.. just couldnt wait for the boat to come.. the boat took ages to come man.. n i realli had no more energy coz i had to keep swimming towards the boat and prevent myself from not drifting too far apart.. the current was super strong.. in the end i hooked up with my buddy, william, roy and another open water diver from the other grp alex.. n i rested.. really super shag.. when the boat finally came.. i let the other girls go up first b4 i went up.. my energy level dropped to zero.. i couldnt even take off my fins! intructor alex had to do it for me and i was literally dragged up the boat.. climbed the ladder and almost fell back coz the tank was weighing me down..
den the best part came.. when everyone was back safely on board.. people started getting sea sick and puking.. it was madness i tell u.. like out of the 13 open water divers.. 4 were puking and there was this girl stella puking right beside me! my gosh.. i also buay tahan.. tried my v best to control and look far.. den we were told to reek up for our last dive n i carried my weights belt (which is 8 pounds!! coz i kept floating up), my fins and my mask over to the end of the boat.. almost fell off the boat man.. thankfully for roy and myself.. haha i crashed into the wooden seat.. so everything was fine.. roy helped mi carry my stuff over and we all reeked up.. being the lousy dive buddy that i am.. zhiming had to reek up on his own and den help mi reek up.. ee tze was helping me too.. i remember squatting at the side of the boat and shutting off all the puking sounds.. haha
5th dive at pulau tomok.. went into the water and immediately felt damn sick.. but i controlled.. so we did alternate air source ascent with my buddy, CESA and while waiting for my navigational lesson.. i felt so sick.. i puked! like a mouthful... so disgusting! it's like how mani years since i last puked.. totally hate to puke.. no matter how drunk i am i also dun puke.. oh man.. den when ee tze came over to show me n zhiming how to use the compass i told him.. i cmi le.. i need to puke again.. but this time round nothing came out coz i barely ate.. haha zhiming kept asking me to puke it all out but i din wan to.. apparently he puked twice and felt damn song after that.. lol
after all those training skills.. i realised i was like one of the few left onthe surface.. saw quite a number of people on the boat.. den i asked ee tze if can go down for leisure dive and alex brought me down.. this time the depth was onli 10 m.. but it was one of the best underwater dives i had out of the five.. just me n alex.. he showing me all the wonderful creatures.. playing with the cuttlefish.. me accidentally breaking a small piece of coral.. :X playing with mani nemos.. and even seeing a tiny tiny nemo.. seeing bat fishes.. did a safety stop b4 going up.. i wished i could stay in there forever..
but in a sense i couldnt wait to get back to shore.. felt realli sick.. and at the jetty.. there was xiao mao mi!!! alex named her tiger.. heh.. she almost got blown off into the sea.. luckily i held her.. brought her back to a safer spot and she was following me quite a distance.. heh.. so cute.. i love kittens.. din eat lunch but ordered hot milo for my grp of 9.. the milo did wonders.. i felt so much better.. went over to ai meng's room coz alsa's room had a queue.. took a nice warm shower (my area had no hot water at all coz of the blackout) and headed back to my lil chalet.. packed up and lepaked around.. :)
while waiting for the ferry to take us back to mersing.. i dragged zhiming, william and roy to find tiger.. heh played with her a lil while and den bot sour apple ice cream! so yummy~ heh filled up my dive log book and got my temp card! cant wait for the real card to be posted to me! blasted music the whole boat ride back.. was v hot n uncomfortable in the boat.. coz had to close all the windows.. den i had nothing to do coz daniel was sleeping.. heh.. washed up a lil b4 getting on the bus.. the bus ride back was long.. had a lil jam.. shared all my goodies with my grp on the bus.. yum yum.. nestle milky bar!!! :) reached back to the club house about 11pm.. and mummy came to fetch me home!!
so super tired but so super happy!!! this rounds up my whole adventure at tioman.. the magical moments underwater.. the new friendships made.. and honestly im quite impressed at how nice guys can be.. it's been a while since i last came into contact with a nice guy.. and this time round i came into contact with quite a few.. esp daniel and zhiming.. :) thanks my big brothers.. *grin* hope i wasnt too much a pain in the ass for u guys! heh
i miss tioman!! i wanna go back... im stuck in that moment n i cant get out of it...
gonna share with u all my magical moments at tioman..
click on me!
jen
~12:50~
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if you're going to san francisco...
im back from tioman!! sorry for the lack of updates.. :P the rest of the month's packed like hell and i dunno how im gonna cope man..
fri - protein test and food n health proj due, esplanade ushering in the evening.. some cantonese opera.. (again!!)
sat - brother's ROM!! big day for him!! and i get to wear my pretty pink dress~ heh just got news that the health show at toa payoh got cancelled.. how sad?! 100 bucks gone.. and i happily gave up my ushering job.. but nvm lar.. shall go out on sat! hee.. but i really wanna do a show... sigh... wonder what time my bro's ROM will end actualli..
sunday - family day and study for the 2 tests and get another proj done... all due for next week!!!
thanks jingkai for letting me get the 1st oct slot for STOMP! yayness! im gonna watch it n get paid! hee.. doesnt matter which position im posted.. outer door also got tv to watch.. good enuff for me.. heh~
damn tired.. went to med lib to mug yest with dawn n yoon.. den went bugis with TLC (the lepak club) aka my dance peeps.. seoul garden buffet! thanks WHAK for winning the vouchers! heh.. had so much fun... with a small comp amongst the guys to see who was the last man standing.. with the funny recipes from i'dil... celia's fried veggies.. xiao's float.. and a lot more crazy wacky stuffs! hee.. had so much fun.. den we met up with pat n the lao lang.. aka alumni.. sat at some open space at the national lib there and lepaked.. heh.. pat was telling us stories.. filling us up with trivia.. like how he n marq came up with the word blast.. his take on the diff scholarships.. and the 4 guys did some funky bicycle stunt.. heh.. laugh until peng! chatted til like 1230 am b4 we all headed home.. i concussed the whole bus journey home.. thankfully when i woke up it was a few more stops to my place.. otherwise i'll end up at bedok and either walk home (which will take me dunno how long..) or take a cab..(but im damn broke)..
and i finally managed to watch the dr video too! i tot it was v nice.. :) wished i could have been there.. but den again.. i wouldnt give up diving for the world.. the past weekend.. 3 days i will never forget in my life.. even now as im typing this.. im drifting in and out of nostalgia.. reminiscing the great weekend in tioman.. it's so hard to snap back to reality when i've left my heart and soul there.. i feel i dont belong here.. constant reality checks done on myself.. but every little thing just whacks me back to the memories of tioman..
you all must be thinking.. it's just a dive trip.. why is she making such a big deal out of it? why is it she's feeling this way?? well it's more than just a dive trip.. definitely i do miss being underwater.. within hand's reach of the fishes and corals.. but most of all.. i miss the people.. they were all so nice to me and constantly rendering help.. so here's a lil shoutout to my apache divers! :)
zhiming, my dive buddy: hey hey! thanks so much for helping me throughout all the 5 dives :) thanks for always holding the tank for me and for making sure im near you underwater.. and esp the time when i was damn tired.. even though you always bully me and say u'll purge my regulator or snatch my regulator... but heh i noe u cant bear to rite? *grin* i really appreciate your concern and i dun think i can find another dive buddy better den u!!!!
dawn: babe! heh it's so great going diving tog with u and ur cuzzies! they're one wacky bunch! i really wonder how u endure all their nonsense crap man.. haha 3 days and i cannot tahan already.. but yeah let's go diving again! haha this time we can go as leisure divers and go for nite dives! whee~ i wanna give u a big big hug! heh.. thanks for being there for me... and all our lil bitching sessions.. *wink*
daniel: my big bro who was always looking out for me the whole trip.. helping me carry my bag.. making sure i wasnt wet by the water when in the boat.. giving me a new mouthpiece for my regulator.. keeping my passport in his pouch.. THANKS! i really had a lot of fun.. n also for the advice as to not to panic during my first dive.. heh..
jeff: haha i dunno what to say man.. everytime i think of u.. i rem the walk back to the resort after our dive on sat.. *shhhhh* but it's been great knowing u.. haha always so cheery and full of crap.. ^5 to my fellow asshole in daidee.. lol..
william: eh.. ma xiao ling is mine can!! hee.. dun anyhow steal her away from me.. you also another one.. always bullying me.. but i tink i bully you more.. haha.. thanks for looking after this xiao mei mei.. and for going with me to find my xiao mao mi... :) u've been awesome~ loved talking crap with u on the bus ride and also in room 1004.. heh~
roy: the fella that loves food.. hee.. glad ur tooth is ok now and you could eat all the nice yummy food from paya beach resort.. lol.. u're such a funny person lar.. (right dawn?? *wink*) thanks for catching me when i almost fell off the boat.. lol.. and for all those jokes you made on the bus ride home when everyone else from our grp of 9 got off at clementi stadium.. easties!!!!
ai meng: though we probably wun be in contact animore coz i din get ur msn/hp.. thanks for letting me use the warm water in ur room to shower.. heh.. always thought u were damn dao.. like on the boat u barely talked to us.. but the walk to ur room showed a different side of you.. ac boy.. dun so attitude lar.. tsk tsk..
adam: another of dawn's crazy whacky cuzzie.. heh.. though we barely hung out.. except for the cards session at nite and lepaking after dives.. can tell u're one huge crappy person! haha well as they say.. what's new from the yeo family???
wan ho: sorry keep forgetting ur name initially.. in the end we remembered it as "one hole".. lol.. hope u had fun during ur leisure dives with adam n daniel!!!!
alsa and huixian: it's been great knowing you girls~ our group wouldnt have been fun without you two! heh huixian aka mini cooper.. rem to keep finning underwater.. dun break animore corals!! tsk tsk.. :) keep in touch! :P
to the dive instructors:
ee tze: the best instructor ever! it was really enriching learning under you.. you showed me all the ropes and skills of being an open water diver.. wasnt easy at first.. but it was all good in the end.. and dun worry lar.. ur wife wun be jealous one.. tsk tsk..
alex: the moment underwater with u alone was magical.. no inhibitions.. dun have to look out for anione.. just follow you whereever you went.. played with many nemos and the cuttlefish.. and even saw bat fish.. so huge!!!
jack: towkay!!! great leisure dives with u.. saw the blue spotted stingray, stone fish and a whole school of barracudas!!!! you must have had a hard time in the 2nd dive looking out for 'mini cooper'! lol.. at least huixian is able to dive on her own now without u having to hold her.. hee~
and the other dive instructors: thanks for the wonderful time on the surface and most imptly underwater.. i had so much fun.. being so close to nature and feeling like i belong underwater.. if only the air in the tank will never run out.. i wanna stay there forever.. bloop bloop bloop~
ok i shall post this entry first b4 continuing on the account on my whole dive trip.. :P super long entries todae!!!!
jen
~11:52~
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September 16, 2005
the day has finally come!!!!!!!!!!!!
16-18 SEPT 2005 TIOMAN - Jennifer's Open Water Course @ Paya beachoooohhhh weeeee~ i cant wait.. the feeling of exhilaration is building up inside me.. heh the past 4 days have been crazy... 2 diving theories.. and 2 diving practicals.. feeling much more confident now as compared to yesterdae and yah i hope i wun panic when i enter the sea.. heh.. :) already made a few friends taking the same course as me and yah im happy! just v v excited.. somemore the people all seem v nice.. n with dawn n her cousin jeff.. and daniel.. it'll be great!!!
so within the last 2 days.. i've learnt the lasic diving skills.. how to clear ur goggles in the sea.. how to breathe thru a regulator.. how to descend n ascend.. finning.. doing emergency drills.. n so many more! realli hope i can rem them all when im at sea.. but thank goodness i have a nice diving buddy.. heh tmr 7pm onwards.. jennifer will be away.. so just leave an sms or a tag on my tag board if u realli miss me a lot.. heh
let's rewind to monday.. wakeboarding!!! super uber fun!!!!!!! i managed to stand up on the board n ride the waves can!! heh thanks tingkang for the lifts there and out of the club.. :) thanks for jio-ing! hee.. had so much fun! on our own lil boat with me audrey justin huimin (yes from blast.. heh.. turns out she's justin's fren.. so qiao..) and this other ntu girl called jolene.. i just lurve being on the boat.. the wind blowing against ur face.. initially it was tough trying to stand up and yah the first time i stood up i started screaming.. haha scared lar.. dunno wad to do.. but the following few times were great.. though i couldnt realli stand up for very long but it was all good.. pics will be up real soon.. heh :)
the rush to prac afterwards was bad and i was 1/2 an hour late.. but who cares.. pharmaco prac.. slack ar!!! hee..
ok time to pack my bags for tioman tmr... 10am class.. yawn~ with all that diving training n all.. im so exhausted.. yet i believe it'll be all worth it in the end..
jen
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September 11, 2005
anticipation..
so my weekend is over and it's finally monday!! ie wakeboarding day!! in a few hours im gonna be riding the waves! just hope i dun swallow sea water man.. lol.. but im excited.. something i have been wanting to do ever since veejay days.. :) grin grin smile smile.. just hope i dun make a fool of myself.. hee..
weekend was great.. sat nite at yy's 21st chalet.. met up with gwendo, xuanwan, aud n risshe.. n of coz kev.. heh.. had fun playing mahjong with them!!! n i won! haha but din play money.. :P nonetheless there were a few classic moments like someone throwing out a chicken.. (hahahhahaa) i still laugh hysterically each time i think of that moment.. someone spilling whisky all over the place.. someone laughing each time my turn is skipped coz someone else pong-ed.. how we 'challenged' each other to see who can hit the tile louder.. haha all in the name of fun.. lame i noe.. but yeah one of the most wackiest mahjong sessions ever.. :) grin grin.. i miss all my cedar gurlies!!!
east coast macs for supper.. which was a sundae shared by two.. haha din wanna grow fat lar.. den sat at the breakwater to chit chat a lil b4 heading home.. realli brought back a lot of old memories.. sweet memories they were.. but it's all in the past.. somehow i thought to myself.. i must have been realli foolish to stop coming to the breakwater just coz of someone.. someone who still lingers in n out of my life but doesnt have ani effect on it no more.. i dun cry over that person.. there's no more special feelings.. nothing.. it's just acquantainces.. sad rite.. when i used to share a major part of my life with him.. for 1 yr and 8 months... all gone just coz things din work out.. nonetheless i guess we're both happy with our lives now and yah.. that's all that matters...
todae was mahjong day with the family.. i won 26 bucks! heh perfect.. needed the cash esp since i'll be spending like 500 on water sports this week.. and i still need cash for cab fare to sch tmr after wakeboarding.. sigh.. after this really must start saving le.. im sucking my account dry! never hit so low b4 can!!!
went with my bro n his future wife to try the suit n the gown respectively for their ROM day.. 24 sep 2005.. :) it's gonna be soon... and yah that lil girl in me was so happy looking thru all the wedding photos of other people.. forming designs of my own wedding gown in my head.. wondering when the day will come when my prince charming will kneel down n propose to me.. heh sure.. i dun deny i dun have expectations.. i do have a lot.. just that it's kept in this lil head of mine.. left to wander and imagine the happy ending every other girl has formed in her head.. :) den again... marriage for me wun be until at least another 5 yrs.. so.. haha i shall just live in my fantasy for now *grin grin*
ok im just happy today lar.. nothing's gonna spoil my mood.. nothing can! and have you all treid the raffles hotel mooncake??? champagne truffle or the cognac dark chocolate?!! it's so so so supra.. i mean super nice!!! heh i dreamt of my supra last nite.. :P and it was pink.. lol.. i cant believe i even dream of cars when i sleep.. haha
and i found a new love.. the spanking new ipod nano.. check it out at the apple website.. so sleek.. so small.. so cool.. i love the black one!!! *drools*
jen
~23:30~
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September 10, 2005
the exciting adventures of jenjen~
went to school like any other normal day.. sat thru protein lect.. not too bad.. at least i listened.. den came to the as what dawn would call 'bl***y caucasian' lect on diabetes.. blah he machiam dun teach.. dun wanna upload lect notes.. mumbles to himself.. and better still speaks in a uk accent that no one understands! and he thinks he's damn good lar.. saying things like oh u dun have to come to class if u dun wan to.. u can dun come for tutorial if u think ur answers are good enuff.. blahhh...
so aniwae i lept for joy when he ended his lect and headed home.. well not exactly.. dropped by parkway to do some stuff in preparation for jo's pres.. heh.. den home.. bot a bun too but din have the appetite.. was bogged down the whole day by a tummy ache n diarrhoea.. popped 2 dhamotil b4 going to sch.. *groan*
met ian at 530 at the upper concourse.. b4 heading down to the M level to get ready for my first ever ushering job! haha.. met hanzhong there too.. but he was stationed at concert hall.. took a look at the notice board for the event i was gonna do that nite.. and this is wad it said..Moonfest – A Mid Autumn Celebration:A Sentimental Journey 《剑雪浮生》by Spring-Time Group Limited (Hong Kong)
Starring Hong Kong's famous veteran actress Chan Po Chu （陈宝珠）, this musical theatre traces the lives of legendary Cantonese opera stars Tang Di Sheng（唐涤生）, Yum Kim Fai （任剑辉）and Pak Suet Sin（白雪仙）, and their undying love and dedication to the art. This production made its debut in Hong Kong six years ago with 100 sold-out shows, marking the comeback of Chan Po Chu after 26 years. And for the first time, it will travel outside of Hong Kong and Macau to Singapore. A definite must see for all fans of Chan Po Chu and Chinese musical theatre! (Performed in Cantonese with English and Chinese surtitles. 180mins with intermission.)
wth.. a full 3 hours of cantonese opera??? no way!!! the remarks said.. a lot of elderly!!! omg! die lar.. wait they use their walking stick n hantum me how? and it was almost full house.. 1723 people.. haha scary or wad.. but apparently the older generation adores this woman lar.. she whom i have never heard of b4.. lol..
so anyway i took down details for the concert and collected my nehru suit.. i was inner door usher~ so in the sense i was relieved.. not so bad coz 1st time n it's an easier job i guess.. so me and nor (senior usher) positioned ourselves in front of the firing squad.. most of them were really nice.. and started talking to us in dialect.. so i started answering their questions and listening to their 'stories'.. even showed some people where they were seated.. heh these 2 ladies were telling me that they took leave to see this concert.. haha best liaoz.. even asked if there was gonna be recording by the media so they could buy the vcd after.. and chan po chu has a fan club too.. haha scary or wad..
this lady kept asking how come we haven open the house yet.. i told her the production not ready n stuff.. den she told me she stand until her feet swollen and that she has cancer.. so i asked her twice to take a seat.. n she refused coz she din wanna squeeze.. so yah i just left it as that..
when the doors finally opened.. it was time for work.. ushering pple to the seats was quite fun.. some din need my help.. some elderly i helped them down the stairs.. haha suddenly felt like a 'hao gong ming'.. yeah 2 suitable intervals for the patrons to enter if they werent punctual.. and there was this 2 ladies whom i was told to let them sit at the first row.. but the seats were already taken.. so i asked them to take a seat at the side first and i will settle the issue.. went out to discuss with nor.. and apparently over the other side there were 2 pple without tickets... best rite.. dunno how they managed to come in also.. apparently thoese 2 rows were all friends and probably due to the sheer number of people.. they maanged to sneak in.. rectified the prob over the intermission and yah thankfully those 2 ladies werent unreasonable or bitchy.. phew..
oh and there were these 2 ladies who kept taking pictures!! i told them to stop already and at the end they whipped out the camera and took.. i overlooked that coz it was already very bright and from where i was i couldnt see the flash.. but according to the inner door usher at the other side.. she told me.. n i felt bad for not doing my job well.. sigh..
and one more thing.. thanks ian for exchanging torches with me!! my lousy quality torch was so dim.. cant see for nuts.. thanks man :P
so the event finally ended at 2330 or so.. and yah after everyone left n we had our post show debrief.. it was midnite.. crazy or wad.. i was hungry coz i din eat all day.. but my tummy wasnt feeling so good either.. nonetheless i agreed to meeting kev n russ so russ came to pick me from the esp and we went to newton for supper.. din realli have the appetite either.. was sharing wanton mee with kev but yah we both couldnt finish... sad case rite?! heh shared cab back tog with kev after coz i felt bad for making russ drive us back lar.. we passed his place den i was like eh just drop us here.. we can grab a cab back.. dun see the point in making him go one big loop just to send us back..
so that marked the end of my 1st esplanade ushering experience.. :) overall i would say it was good.. no unreasonable patrons.. no complaints.. yah n i got to experience a very different culture.. cantonese opera.. something i wun pay for to go n watch.. but it's not that bad lar.. got english subtitles and even though most of the time i din know who's the main star.. but yah there were some funny parts.. haha n since i couldnt do anithing else but watch.. i just tried to follow the story.. haha failed.. :X din realli know what it's all about anyway.. bahhh.. but yah an enriching experience i must say :)
jen
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first time working as an usher at the esplanade..
thanks ian for the help... at least i wasnt so lost..
supper at newton with kev n russ after..
thanks russ for the lift..
home.. tired..
shall update tmr...
jen
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September 09, 2005
yet another invitation to club tmr.. NO!!!.. *resists* heh.. i wun go i wun go i wun go.. n i have bfast appt le.. last week already pangseh-ed my fren.. haha actualli i clean forgot about it lar.. lol.. ok im a bad fren.. sigh..
sch tmr n im comtemplating whether i should go.. protein lect is fine but the darn diabetes lect after that totally sucks.. all thanks to the 'best' lecturer i've ever had in my whole 3 yrs of nus thus far.. no lect notes.. he mumbles to himself n speaks in a uk accent which the whole class din understand.. frustrating or wad! i guess the onli pple who can understand him are johnny n liza.. exchange students from uk.. lol
met up with allan todae and ate carl's jr for the first time! not that fantastic lar.. but the burgers realli v big.. couldnt finish so in the end i abandoned the buns for the meat.. heh.. n they have homemade iced tea!!! yummy~~~
headed down to cine to shop for jo's n yy's pressie.. n.. i finally got JO her prezzie!!! *grin grin* but it's gonna take a while.. sooo.. jo laogong.. be patient ok?!!! i'll faster rush n pass to u when it's ready.. im sure u'll love it!! :)
"I wanna boy that can make me [Blackout, blackout]
So good it makes me [Blackout, blackout]"
jen
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September 08, 2005
shagged but happy.. :)
so today was the blast juniors FIRST class! haha fresh blood fresh blood.. joined the class but too obvious i was a senior lar so gave up trying to be like a freshie.. was dancing with the juniors n i realised.. hey.. this batch is actualli quite strong!! the 3 guys around me.. whom i later found out are from TH dance.. were good~ i was amazed at how strong most of the dancers were.. *impressed* :)
the steps were nice!! rozzno taught today.. but i think she expected a lot from them.. haha but yah great job girl! i enjoyed class even though it's soooo much more tiring den pat's class.. haha can u believe i went home.. bathed.. dinner n concussed for a good 2 hours?!!!
met up with jo laogong at hell todae.. laksa yong tau foo.. yummyy... it's been like so long since i last went to arts canteen.. sadly this yr all my modules are in boring old SCIENCE.. *curses*.. but yah had a good 2 hour catching up session with her n i realised that i've been thru quite a lot this past month.. things that not only happened to me.. but to my close gfs.. made me realise quite a fair bit of things.. i wun be sharing them here.. coz it's quite private to me n i realise my blog is easily googled or yahoo-ed upon.. so yah.. *zip zip* but anyway.. girl.. congrats man! but u should have told me earlier! hahha :X k lar k lar.. at least now i noe.. still got more updates to get from u but no time.. maybe next wed? :P *grin*
i now know better who to be friends with and who to keep away from..
oh and im gonna do my first ever esplanade ushering job on friday!!! at theatre hall! wish me luck.. i'll be smartly dressed in the nehru suit.. heh.. :) quite excited actualli.. n im happi coz ian will be working too! so at least got fren.. if not go alone also sianz.. there was registration of slots for the next 2 weeks n im working again on 22 n 23rd sep.. 22nd sep no fren.. but 23rd sep got ian again! haha seems like we're fated man.. den fri another fren working in concert hall.. so maybe we can all go for supper after that..
met up with justin from senior class yest.. b4 he flies back to uk.. we meet like once a year man.. short quick bite b4 doing some shopping n den heading home.. he got a yellow adidas shirt!! so nice!! haha it's the same one we got for shaun on his bdae.. but it's niceeee.. i like it! :P wanted to get the dragon one for babey but no money n yah my 10 dollar adidas voucher is still left sitting at home untouched.. after diving i'll save up n buy the shirt for *him :P heh..
and yeah im going diving! at least if they've finalised it all.. but yah my daddy said no more activities after that so in a way it's not v good.. but i dun realli have a choice lar.. dawn's cousin will be calling up the place like tmr if the numbers are confirmed.. let's hope got good lobang.. if not also maybe wun go..
im in love with the taiwan shilin xxl crispy chicken!!! haha my current crave each time im in town.. :P
to *you: i miss *you..
jen
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September 06, 2005
frustrated...
i hate it!!! every time he does this to me i get upset.. i hate arguing back with him.. to make him see things my way.. im already gonna be 21.. why is he still so uptight about things?? it's my life.. i wanna do the things i wanna do.. he himself told me he doesnt want me to study all day long and said it's good i find sports.. but now he's complaining i spend too much time on other things instead of my studies.. yes i agree lar.. b4 papadum.. everything was about dance.. n i had to spend time with babey too.. what if he doesnt wanna come back this dec?? do u noe how f***ed up that will be?? urgh... understand pls... UNDERSTAND!!!! im like pissed coz he thinks i have too many acitivites when in actual fact.. i cut down on soooo much! dance is now reduced to once a week.. on wed afternoons.. i seldom go out to meet frens.. i've stopped clubbing.. i go home every single f***ing day for dinner.. i spend time with the family.. am i not making the effort?? dont i try to hide myself in my room to study? though i admit i havent been doing much.. but at least it's a start.. n now just coz i told him i wanna go diving.. he gets all angry n everything.. blahhhh..
i realli cant wait to graduate.. onli den will he stop being strict with me.. onli den will i FINALLY get my freedom.. onli den will i truly be an adult.. im so sick n tired of this.. yet i hate it every time i try to argue back coz i noe it's wrong.. it's disrespectful.. he is afterall.. my father...
yet his paranoia pisses the shit hell out of me.. the other time i was using the lighter to burn off some threads from my shirt n i just left it on my desk after which.. den he came to my room n tot i was smoking.. like wth.. this aint the first time u accuse me of smoking lor.. and just because my frens smoke or u see so many youngsters smoking.. doesnt give u the right to accuse me of smoking!!!
just plssssss stop restricting meeee.......
jen
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September 05, 2005
back from a nice lunch at soup spoon with dawn, huisin n xinloo.. :) spent 10 bucks on 2 pairs or earrings n a bracelet! so pretty! i likeeee :P n for those bodynits lovers.. now got sale!!! 50-70% off! i just bot a sports bra for 8 bucks!!!
dawn just informed me of the diving trip she's gonna go on with her cousins.. i vant to go too!! haha firstly must ask papa's permission.. if he shake head also lan lan.. sigh.. 16-18 sep.. the dates i was originally supposed to go with huiwen they all.. but.. now the prob is.. 16 is DR.. 17 is suntec finals.. and i wanna watch both! urgh.. but i really wanna go diving.. so yah if i get the green light from my dad.. i'll have to give up watching dr n suntec..
and den i turn around n i realised that my life is not all about dance.. yes dance is a v v huge passion of mine.. yet i have many other things i wanna try.. after wakeboarding n diving.. i wanna learn sailing.. heh.. den maybe go for 1 star canoeing and also sky diving!! but sky diving's for like when im older n working.. when i go to some nice country for holidae (maybe my honeymoon..lol) but no-no to bungee jumping.. lol.. :P im still a chicken when it comes to a lot of things..
so mahjong session 3 ended yest b4 dinner n i lost 4 dollars.. no luck at all man.. just kept paying n paying.. luckily got 2 rounds i won quite big so yah in the end the damage wasnt that bad.. there was this point when i lost about 30 bucks!
and bless my lucky stars.. no more blood in my phlegm *grin grin* byebye doctor~ heh see ya another time!! :P
im so gonna crash wed's class with the newbies.. heh so exciting.. shall pretend to be a freshie n mingle with the people.. no senior class mahhhh n i wanna dance.. so... heh heh heh..
and this song has been in my head the past few days..
"And I will flail under these lights that seep down from the bitter sky tonight
and I will kick and beat my wrists togetherand feel an ocean breathing waves,
feel them licking at my face.
Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet.
You could throw me down and walk on me
and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
The nightingales are singing now.
They're calling out our marriage to our subjects on their knees.
Their jewelery is thrown into the air.
They sigh at their release as their shackles hit the ground.
The trumpets call out now.
We're home at last.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go."
jen
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September 04, 2005
family dayyyyy
todae's family day.. haha at least to me.. decided not to study n go on a mahjong stint with the folks.. played 2 rounds of mahjong.. once in the afternoon and the 2nd round after dinner.. i won a whopping 70 bucks with just 20-40cents stake :) happiness! that covers the cost of my wakeboarding trip next mon.. whee~~~
steamboat dinner with ur loved ones is ever so warm n comforting.. i like!!!
nothing much to update.. just that i spent an hour crazily posting up pics on my photoblog.. just click on the month of sept.. or u can access it here..
*click on me!*laopo said i look damn tired.. maybe i am.. or maybe im just feeling unwell.. realli hope i dun have to resort to the docs tmr.. or mon... but i'll go if my condition worsens.. *keeping my fingers crossed*
as the night falls and loneliness creeps in.. i cant help but think of *you.. far away from where i am.. yet we're sleeping under the same big sky.. somewhere out there...
jen
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September 03, 2005
*hugs* phuture byebye...
my last final clubbing nite.. and i die die also must spend it at phuture.. heh was supposed to go dbl o to support andrew's n ziliang's bands one but everyone was late and yah with the irresistable free invites (courtesy of weiguo).. we decided to head down straight to zouk.. lol.. me daphy n jap! :) new clubbing kakis.. heh.. next time must bring the whole gang down den more fun.. met up with kev (from jr class) n frens.. dingyi, russell, nick, kev wong err i cant rem the names of the rest but yah all my vj juniors.. was playing stupid silly games with them.. we started with the finger guessing game n i kept winning so kev had to drink.. haha lol.. den the 7-up game which advanced to 7-11.. den some diu diu diu game which was quite silly.. haha n the drinking googles which i have no idea wad it's about even as im typing this.. all i rem is daphne nudging me each time it's my turn.. lol.. aniwae *huggies* to daphy! thanks babe! i had fun last nite~ heh.. :) no regrets not turning up at dbl o.. heard the music had some screw up n they play house instead of rnb.. phew.. cost of last nite.. zero.. heh.. ok besides tapping the ez link card twice on the way to zouk..
my new love - apple shooters :)
flava friday was great.. the music towards the end got really good but it got a lil too squeezy for comfort so i left.. *hug hug hug* im so gonna miss phuture n zouk!!! when i start clubbing again.. zouk/phuture aint gonna be what it's like now animore.. a newer better place im sure.. but yet all the memories.. the fun.. the frens met n made.. the silly drinking games.. the chilling out.. that helluva fun time with the blast peeps.. with joanne laogong.. n esp with *him on the mambo podium.. i hope it's not gonna be THAT much of a difference..
*waves* byebye zouk!
on another note...
blast auditions were great! :) well planned out though the poor peepz had to wait to learn the steps or audition for quite a while but bo bian.. we onli had use of the dt when last yr we had both dt n ds.. but yah taking in about 60 pple this time round n i noe who's in n who's out! haha secretly checked for my frens.. but yah dun come asking mi coz i cant tell u.. results should be out like next week.. and yah keep ur fingers crossed :) jimmy n zz came back to judge the auditions.. heh.. so miss them.. next yr im gonna be in the alumni already.. old already ar!! *cough cough*
one thing that made me regret was not being proactive in blast.. maybe i should have like bhb say i wanna join the comps with the rest etc.. den yah maybe i would have improved like crazy.. just maybe..
ok now for the part which got me a lil cheesed off.. one of my quite close frens recently told me he's attached.. but the prob is.. he's been attached for 2 yrs plus.. like wth.. i dun see why he couldnt tell me earlier.. even when i ask whether he got gf he kept telling me he's single.. like what's the big deal.. im also attached wad.. n im proud of my *babey.. i realli dun understand why such things must be kept from frens.. i mean like it's not as though we like each other or wad.. blah.. i realli dunno how guys think.. "scared people keep away" is just a lame excuse coz only the shallow people do that.. true friends will not keep away even if u had some incurable disease.. so there.. he made me pissed for the nite but im over it.. just have to accept the fact that even at 28.. some guys still wun grow up..
jen
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