back to where i was again..
so yah things were fixed on wed nite.. after a crazy nite of phuture + mambo n stupid me not knowing my limits.. trying to drown my sorrows in long island tea.. hahaha wad a great joke.. i felt worse instead.. the problem stuck to me like a leech and wun go away.. i felt sick under the influence of alcohol.. but maybe it was the alcohol that did the trick.. i dunno..
in ani case im back where im started.. lost n confused.. i dunno which direction to head to.. i cant leave things where they were.. i so wanna do something about it.. but not when the other party is still fuming mad at me.. and maybe we really dont understand each other animore.. *shrug*
thurs was actualli the most perfect day i've had in a long while.. though most of it was spent sleeping or lazing around.. i actualli felt something i haven felt it ages and i realised how much i missed it..
rag day was fun.. did hair this year.. sitting in a circle listening to people bitch.. haha so funny i laugh until i couldnt take it.. but yes.. i cried when i heard them announce the winner for the chancellor's shield.. we won 2 others but this was the one jeremy wanted to win so badly last yr and this yr.. he made it.. when the emcee called out "SCIENCE FAC!!" i could see tears of joys flowing from all the seniors' eyes.. all those who had done their bit for sci rag.. n esp huiwen n jeremy.. *salute* i tried not to cry but the feeling was too overwhelming.. it's something we've waited for for 2 yrs.. it's something that meant so much to all of us.. all the hard work paid off.. frankly when i saw bizad's float.. i tot we din stand a chance.. but i heard they were not marked very highly.. that they had some penalties already and yah i haven seen for myself the whole effect of the sci float.. but when i did.. i took my words back.. maybe we did have a chance... and yeah we did.. we won.. we proved to everyone that the outright winners were us...
congrats sci raggers!!! *pat on the back* im so so so proud of all of you!!! and dancers.. you all were just fantastic.. i was smiling to myself as i was watching from the vip area.. it was THE performance of the day.. "from this door walks out a winning rag team..."
yet my happiness was soon overcomed by pain n sadness.. couldnt sleep.. couldnt do nothing.. din eat at all... i was just a pathetic soul existing in the world.. lunch out with the girls todae cheered me up a lot.. yet at the back of my mind.. i was still bogged down by my problems.. audrey asked mi why i look so sad.. i couldnt tell her.. i din noe wad to say..
maybe im just tired.. maybe i do need a break..
and to colin: was great catching up with ya just now.. even though it was just for an hour.. 1 n 1/2 yrs or more haven meet leh.. heh.. it had better not be another 1 1/2 yrs b4 we meet up again k!?! tsk tsk..
