DaNcE aWAy..

2006-08-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

SHUT UP and DANCE!
NUS DANCE BLAST! concert

8 9 10 sep 2006
UCC
7.30pm
tix at $12

come come! it's gonna be 3 helluva crazy whacky nites! :)

amazing

2006-07-31T03:09:00.000+08:00

it's amazing to see how much i love someone that even now when i think of the person.. i realise i dun hate that person at all..

on the contrary.. that person means a lot to me still..

sometimes i wonder..

2006-04-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

i wonder who still visits this blog.. checking intermittently as to whether i've updated.. or whether i've resumed blogging here.. fact is.. i still will blog here.. but seldom.. seem to have lost the enthusiasm to blog anyway..

*post editted*

so anyway most people would have been done with their deadlines by now.. but not for me.. i still have 2 more assignments n 1 more freaking irritating lab report to do... will onli be this weekend that i can study for my exams.. how great.. thankfully my exam starts on the 25th..

goodbye tiesto.. im selling ur tickets..

2006-03-24T01:38:00.000+08:00

mahjong madness..

2006-03-13T19:27:00.000+08:00

played mahjong 3 times in 4 days.. crazy or wad.. stakes were quite high.. luckily overall i won 18 on the 1st time, lost 10 on the 2nd time n broke even on the 3rd.. so ok lar.. the 8 bucks i won ended up in cab fare.. so.. to those mj non addicts.. it's actualli just a waste of time..

but i beg to differ.. lots of love to shim dawn the 2 jons kandi andrew n issac.. :) so much fun mj-ing tog.. my nua-ing gang.. what will i do without you guys??? looking forward to school tmr so that i can meet u all!!! :P

life is beautiful... esp when you can nua the whole day and find pleasure in doing so...

2006-03-06T01:08:00.000+08:00

The Surprising Lover
54% partner focus, 42% aggressiveness, 55% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Surprising Lover.

The Surprising Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and, like the name implies, is often filled with hidden delights and talents that might not be apparent from a surface knowledge of the person. The Surprising Lover is rather like a geode--sometimes rough on the exterior, but filled with beauty and wonder. The Surprising Lover is thus a gem to find, though it can sometimes be difficult to do so because they often tend to be humble and unwilling to reveal their inner greatness unless they're in a rewarding relationship.

In terms of physical love, the Surprising Lover really shines, often highly imaginative and utterly devoted to bringing the heights of pleasure to the one that they truly love. Given a rewarding, reciprocative relationship, and the right lover, the Surprising Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Carnal Lover (most of all) or the Exotic Lover, or the Suave Lover.

fucked up

2006-03-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

i fucking hate people who spread rumours about me.. so if u are guilty as charged.. please shut the fuck up and never talk to me again.. dun act friendly in front of me when u're actually stabbing shit holes in my back.. i really ought to be more weary of the friends i make.. sigh..

and pls get the facts right b4 starting the rumours.. thank you very much..

ps.. serious contemplation of shutting down this blog.. shall cease blogging for now.. frens will know my new blog url once i've started blogging again..

peace

2006-03-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

hello world.. im happy today :)

phy in life sci test was.. FoS.. realli.. badly phrased questions.. english really damn bad.. it's like a few random words constitute the question.. nus really should send lecturers for english courses before allowing them to teach.. wth is a sugar chain?? DNA chain or sugar backbone lar.. diao.. i read the questions until wan to puke blood le.. anihow.. a few careless mistakes on my part.. hope i dun screw this up sia.. supposed to score one..

physio test tmr but i dun have the mood to study.. been emotionally drained the past few days.. it's like i feel like a walking corpse.. and yes i've been anti social lately.. so u can call or sms me but dun blame me if i dun answer.. i'll reply when i feel like it..

spent the whole afternoon talking kok with shim dawn n kandi.. dawn left halfway while we continued 'studying' n talking more kok.. haha issac n andrew came to join us and that was it for studying man.. haha laugh until peng sia.. andrew's big mouth.. n a whole lot of other shit.. lol i never laughed so hard in ages.. good workout for the abdominals.. n the heart..

so now im feeling half screwed but a bit cant be bothered also about the test tmr.. 1 hour.. 4 questions.. hope it'll be do-able lar.. maybe i shall be a good girl and read my textbook after blogging..

dance prac tmr for hiphop nite.. i dun wanna screw up again sia.. dun wan to kana scolding! but den i forgot the seq of the steps le.. crap rite.. nvm.. tmr go earli n practise.. my last performance as an undergrad.. gonna treasure it.. :)

bursting a balloon..

2006-02-25T14:38:00.000+08:00

imagine a balloon.. you keep pumping air into it.. bit by bit.. slowly but surely.. one fine day.. it's gonna burst albeit elastic.. all it takes is that little bit more air to do the trick..

right now im that balloon.. almost maxed but not quite..

so pardon my aloofness.. my "i-dun-give-a-shit".. in all honesty.. i do care.. but b4 anything irreversible happens.. i better take some time to deflate..

im really really tired.. drained.. even 10 hours of sleep aint doing me good.. something's really wrong.. but right now.. i'm taking it on my own..

O A S I S R A W K Z ! ! !

2006-02-24T01:24:00.000+08:00

lots of controversy about the oasis concert.. apparently me n yang were the only ones who think it was awesome.. maybe it's due to the fact that we were standing so damn near liam! like the 2nd row can!!! mosh pits are scary.. push here push there.. all the sweaty bodies rubbing against you.. body surfing.. it was plain madness.. but i enjoyed myself totally! so so so close to liam.. noel was just being his usual cool self with his guitar.. the concert was pretty short though.. 2 hours only.. i expected more.. but i was on tiptoes the whole nite.. din even have space to put both feet on the ground.. that was how crazy n packed the 160 bucks arena was.. everyone just shoving towards the front.. i swear i lost 1 kg sia.. haha

and this lucky bitch got called up by liam can!!! wah lau.. so damn lucky!! she spent a good 3 min on stage shaking HIS tambourine.. jumping up n down.. running around machiam like her concert.. and the best part.. she KISSED noel!!!!!!!!!!! no way rite!!! we were all shouting bitch!! haha obviously full of jealousy n envy.. bleahz.. n i din manage to catch the tambourine liam threw.. was too far front.. but i did manage to take a few good shots :) vidz lasted for a min or so onli.. b4 i got pushed to n fro by the crazy pple.. couldnt even hold the camera still for a second sia.. kana push here push there.. stepped on.. lol.. it was plain madness..

din get any merchandise for myself.. the shirts were either L or XL and there was NO tour tshirt.. how crap is that? so i bot a L for the biggest oasis fan i know in the end.. haha luckily i already have the tour tshirt when i went to see them in chicago.. :)

something unpleasant happened when i got back home.. got hung up on which i so totally hate.. tired already can..

not gonna say more.. today's a happy day.. today i stood just a few cm away from liam.. tonite i'll have sweet dreams :)

i want more... that was 160 bucks well spent.. :)

dead for 12 hours

2006-02-23T10:56:00.000+08:00

i din hear no msg.. answer no fone.. slept from 10pm to 10 am.. til i waken up by a fone call from laopo..

dance yesterdae was bad.. coz of the lack of sleep.. i couldnt put in my all.. kana scolded by pat.. *wails* and everyone had to do that damn item one more time for me! sigh.. sorry guys.. i feel really bad.. next time im so gonna sleep before coming for dance.. cannot screw up anymore!!!

learnt all the steps yesterdae.. one more prac next wed.. n if have to.. one last one on fri.. den it's showtime already.. saturday 4th march.. probably my last performance as a member of blast.. still have alumni.. but whether anot i'll be around is a different story altogether..

so to all my frens.. 4th MARCH UCC COURTYARD.. NUS DANCE BLAST HIPHOP COMPETITION 7PM.. it's a saturday.. so do come ok!!! i'll be doing the opening item.. n the competition is worth watching.. tough competition.. i'll be supporting maki, rozzno n trace for the group and solo.. hmm def one of the blast boys.. :P

actually dun really know how to help out for the hiphop nite preps.. like always just hang around and cant do much.. maybe when they need help in prep of the props etc den i can be of more use.. heh..

the visit to chinatown was quite fun.. haha went around taking photos and eating the famous porridge! yum yum yum!! but i still think tiong bahru's porridge is still the best.. bedok 85 one also nice.. :) hau geng's mixed up world of fairytales proved to be quite the laugh.. haha we were all saying we pity his children next time.. coz all the fairytales he'll tell them are wrong.. lol.. house party after hh nite.. proudly organised by the central 6 gang.. it's gonna be one helluva nite.. haha maybe i'll pop by for a while..

the lack of sleep on tues nite proved fatal.. now im awake with a runny nose n bad throat.. hope it gets better along the day.. meeting laopo for lunch b4 he flies home to aussie.. damn.. supposed to meet him 3 times.. but we only made it to 2.. bleahz..

mid term break has become meeting people who are going back to aussie week.. haha everyone seems to be flying off this week.. n jk.. i think i missed you.. din even noe u went back already.. haha sorry man.. couldnt drive you out for supper..

it's time to get settled n start work.. today's the last day of mid term break yet im still not doing ani work!!! blahz...

mel just smsed me! :) she's safely back in aussie.. tog with frankie.. had a good time hanging out with her on tues nite.. heh so much to talk about.. sigh i miss her already.. most prob i'll see ya in july in aussie babe! :) need to save up so much cash for travelling.. but dun care lar.. b4 i start work i must playyyyyyy..

honestly.. im gonna grad n start work in like a few months time.. yet im still such a lil girl.. too protected.. will i survive in the wild?? hahaha.. maybe it's not so bad afterall..

physio 101 by prof chalk

2006-02-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

click here

beware: content not advisable for children or those with a weak heart.. ultra lame entry.. but i think it's just so FoS i had to post 'em up... enjoy~

roses are red.. now bleed yourself dry for me..

2006-02-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

sadistic or wad.. haha to think i came up which such a nick today.. maybe im hanging around the wrong company.. it felt weird seeing another fren smoke today.. somehow i get disappointed as more n more people around me start puffing away..

lab was ok.. my first session with the post doc student.. she had 9 freaking years of experience with cell culture! eeeuuuuwww.. i dont think i can even survive a year.. anyhow.. learnt cell counting using the haemocytometer.. or at least i think that's what it's called.. learnt how to split cells.. etc etc etc.. dealing with cancer cells.. scary or wad~ haha oh well.. oh n i learnt how to use the autoclave machine~ machiam like some washing machine.. lol

met up with laogong for lunch.. had so much to update sia.. on her side.. on my side.. *grin* we should do this again some time soon.. heh somehow we're in the same situation.. precisely why i believe that humans shouldnt be born with feelings.. simple life my fren.. simple life.. that's all im asking for.. graduate.. find a reasonable job.. get married.. settled down.. have a happy family.. dun even have to be rich or wad.. i just want to be happy..

chalk came to disturb n started doodling all over my physio notes.. lol.. WBC became wanton.. Hb became spaghetti.. and he even called the liver a pistachio! haha laugh until peng sia.. he turned the diagram of the heart upside down and said it's the male repro system.. haha gonna take pics of his drawings n post them up soon.. he's damn hilarious.. went out to chit chat with him so he could smoke.. lionel n harold came up soon after.. so chit chatted a while more and ended up not really studying much.. but ok lar.. long time never tok to them le..

bot ben n jerry's ice cream on the way back! yummmyyyy :) but they din have my fav cookie dough.. digged the whole refrigerator until my fingers turned numb but they din have it.. so i ended up with oatmeal chunk.. coz i din like cherry garcia nor the monkey one..

time to watch teevee n get some work done.. meeting up with my girls tmr.. the last time b4 mel flies off again.. speaking of which.. she told me that the ex emailed her.. like after not contacting each other for 1 1/2 yrs.. it's amazing how much he still loves her.. as much as i dun like him.. but i feel sorry for him.. it's hard to find such a faithful guy these days.. really very hard.. nonetheless i just hope he'll get over mel soon..

im actually very tired.. no matter how much i sleep.. i just cant seem to get enough.. something's wrong with me...

vroom vroommmmm

2006-02-20T20:24:00.000+08:00

I'm a Chevrolet Corvette!

You're a classic - powerful, athletic, and competitive. You're all about winning the race and getting the job done. While you have a practical everyday side, you get wild when anyone pushes your pedal. You hate to lose, but you hardly ever do.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

as long as you're happy

2006-02-19T04:46:00.000+08:00

"welcome to the life of the poor".. someone said to me.. those 7 words made me shut up a little.. and i felt realli bad.. maybe i realli do talk too much.. and me being the tactless me might have hurt the other person.. i certainly hope not.. wasnt intentional.. but if i did.. im sorry..

would anyone give up white gold for silver? most people would not.. but who is to dictate what's right and what's not? white gold might be expensive and precious.. but silver has its beautiful unpolished side as well.. so which would u pick?

caught fight club yesterday.. remembered watching it and falling asleep on that show when i was young.. maybe that's why it's R21.. too chim for the young.. but yah it's a really good show.. gives another take on life.. It's about this lonely thirty-something young professional whom upon seeking an escape from his mundane existence created his alter ego (aka HOT brad pitt). He formed underground fight clubs and gathered men under his wing.. this led to an out of control spiral towards oblivion whilst trying to gain release from the prison of reality.

"you have to know, not fear, that someday you're going to die.. until you know that and embrace that.. you're useless.. "

how would one react if you were treated like shit.. physically and emotionally hurt by that one person who means so much.. and in your blind spot.. someone else comes along and puts a smile on your face every single day? disillusioned i would say.. that's how humans are... honestly.. we shouldnt be born with feelings.. life would be so much simpler that way..

ok.. before u all go on and try to decipher what i've just typed thus far.. dont bother.. it's just my wild imagination blabbering away.. and i am not emo as of this very moment thank you..

im happy today ok! :)

daniel daniel called me from bahrain! was so happy to receive his call.. he's been gone for almost a month.. next stop I R A Q... take care bro.. i pray that you'll be safe from terrorist attacks.. :)

bot the si dian jin (4 pieces of white gold) from sq's dad's shop.. felt bad for making uncle come all the way down just to help me.. i cant say how thankful i am for that..

and i finally went shopping!! accessories galore~ so happy.. din really spend a lot.. sometimes it's the little things in life that makes you the most satisfied.. :)

it's only when you've been delegated to a state where you feel like trash that your heart melts when someone tells you this.. "as long as you're happy"

come here.. hold my hand for now..

2006-02-18T00:43:00.000+08:00

field trip to sungei buloh today.. fell asleep on the bus journey there n ended up at some ulu place.. worse part.. it started raining.. wth.. luckily i brought my unbrella.. it wasnt that bad lar.. minus the rain.. i basically rotted for a few hours there.. best part was when me dawn n shim went to get ice cream.. heh yummylicious~ i lurve eating ice cream on rainy days.. some habit since pri school.. haha

phy in life sci tut was a breeze.. sometimes i wonder if i know more or the tutor knows more.. and i beg to differ from majority of the girls.. he is so not hot.. everytime lect i will over hear girls saying "there's the cute ta".. ok la maybe in sci he's considered not too bad.. but i dun like.. aniwae he kept asking questions n since no one wants to answer them.. i answered them for him.. got a lil irritated by his constant asking also lar.. just hope i din appear to "smart-alecky".. n did i mention the freaking test has no more cheat sheet and it's freaking negative marking!!!!!! thanks God im a life sci student.. as wad greg says.. " time to top the bell curve!" lol.. but im sure there are loads of life sci students in this module.. and bound to be super hardworking ones around.. so not that easy to top the bell curve lar.. 1 careless mistake could lead to your downfall..

last nite.. i asked jkai how come he says im unhappy ( coz he did some quiz for me..) and he was like ur blog always so emo one.. well i do try to make my posts as happy as ever.. but there are times where it's just no go.. esp not now when im fucking emo..

been pretty bothered about stuffs lately.. i finally see how helpless i am.. suddenly all my rants seem nothing compared to what you're going thru.. no matter wad i'll support u ok! you really dont have to take it all by yourself sometimes.. and this is no small matter.. i just hope i can help u in whatever way i can.. it wun be much but i guess it's still something.. *hugz* be strong.. everything will be alright now that im here..

i wish i could take away all your pain n troubles..

ps photos up on my photoblog...

awake but empty...

2006-02-16T12:47:00.000+08:00

awoke this morning to an empty feeling.. do i really not care animore? maybe i still do.. but im just too tired to think or do anything.. screw it.. i dun give a damn..

evocation was great.. maki n tau looked so cute on stage.. fen looked so pretty.. n rozzno was hot lar! she totally stole the stage for the hip hop item.. :) congrats my prens.. you all were amazing..

blast class was so so.. somehow i couldnt realli focus.. kept screwing up the 1st 8.. but ok lar.. at least i managed to get it right towards the end of the lesson.. plus i need to internalise the 1 st week's steps.. hope i can dance for hiphop nite item..

on the way to lt13.. xiao told me something which kinda hurt me.. but i guess im just being sensitive.. he was just being nice.. but somehow the words came out wrong.. sigh..

photo whoring session after evo.. haha den proceeded to clementi to lepak with the blastards.. waffle n milo settled my dinner for the nite.. and val.. i had a good time talking to u.. heh.. it's funny how we're like in the same boat huh? *winks*

went out on tues for movie n dinner.. heh it was just a simple affair.. but i enjoyed myself.. mood was spoilt for a lil while but i just sucked it all in n smiled.. not fair to make my date unhappy coz of me rite.. lol..

been having so little sleep the past few nites.. my eye bags are like visible now.. n to think i never had them in jc.. only when i entered uni.. pimples also!! how come jc time i more stress but den no eye bags no pimples??? no fair!! :(

mid term break is coming.. but there are so many things to do.. sigh.. i hate school.. guess i used to enjoy going to sch coz of dance.. n now.. just go to school for the sake of going to school.. at least hip hop nite is coming.. so can help out :) realli hope the present comm will come together and work as a team.. it's so hard seeing just a few of them stressing over the whole event while the rest are busy with their other stuffs.. but i foresee the outgoing comm ocming to help.. as long as the event pulls thru im sure we all wun mind lending a helping hand..

so here's some publicity for the event

HIP HOP NITE
4TH MARCH 2006
UCC COURTYARD

it's a dance competition.. battle style.. solo and group (3 persons).. if there are dancers reading this and u're interested to take part.. email me at mysticjen@gmail.com..
1.5 min choreo, battling and freestyling.. wade robson style..

for those who are interested to come.. do come n watch! it's free! saturday nite.. good place to bring ur family n friends.. haha

the back view of you..

2006-02-11T15:41:00.000+08:00

thurs : the meeting with the post doc student only took 1/2 an hour.. crashed perfume n cosmetics lect with shim dawn cheryl n nik.. rained like crazy..

sprang celia a surprise or attempted to.. when all our efforts went down the drain due to the lousy architecture of the computing faculty.. *sigh* nonetheless.. about 10 of us gathered tog to celebrate celia's 22nd! :) yummy sweet secrets cake~ lepaked at spin's at uni hall for bout 2 hours den a few of us went to hell for lunch n den to the lib to mug.. yeah.. pseudo-mugging i would say..

fri : boring boring lectures.. come to think of it.. im somewhat regretting taking physio hormones.. it aint that easy.. really a lot of material to cover.. (and i must cover 10 chapters by tues coz poor jen has a test on valentine's dae.. *sob*) studied a lil while with jt after sch b4 heading down to clarke quay for wine tasting tog with korkor n dasao.. memories of the times with *you just came rushing back in as i reminisced about that day when we drove all over niagara falls to vineyards and even had my first wine tasting lesson.. heh.. yes my dear.. i miss you..

chilled at nite for a while.. den had fun driving home late at nite with few cars around.. hitting up til 140 km/h.. i just hope there was no tp.. otherwise im fucked..

gazing at the back view of someone playing the guitar in a dimly lit room could actually trigger the melancholy me.. just from the back view.. i saw a troubled mind.. a struggling heart.. a person almost in despair.. but there's no one to turn to.. just a soul seeking solace with a guitar.. as though that's the only thing keeping himself sane thru all the turmoil.. not all problems can be solved.. yet not everything in this world is about money.. sigh.. the part and parcels of life..

lack of sleep...

2006-02-09T01:59:00.000+08:00

lost 20 bucks at mahjong.. sigh.. and i used to always win at mahjong.. confirm it's the cny bad luck curse or something.. who has been cursing me!! boo hoo.. i dun wan to play mahjong already.. boo~

met up with jinny at gelare on mon nite.. just a quiet little catching up session b4 she flies off to shanghai and den back to aussie..

tues was full of boring lectures.. the 8am one ended at 9 coz that woman din wanna carry on.. ridiculous lar.. the qn can read on the spot wad.. friday's lect could have been cancelled can! i could have jolly well be in bed on a fri day at 8am lar.. urghh.. irritated.. making the lect at 830 aint gonna make ani difference can.. bleahz.. pissed off..

next lect at 10.. ended at 1115.. wtf.. ok lar.. he finished the set of notes n yah couldnt go on animore.. so i had my lunch break with jiating :) FIRST meal in science this sem.. amazing or wad.. and it's already week 5..

phy in life sci lect ended earli.. as usual.. at 1.. went to lepak at arts canteen for a while with maki n dot.. den headed down for changing landscapes.. after which i took a bus down back to sci to meet shim..

this was when that freaky thing happened.. some guy came up to me and said hello as though he knew me.. told me he always sees me around in zouk.. he knows im from veejay.. he knows my frens weijie n zihao.. but he's not from their sec sch nor jc.. so highly likely my memory aint that bad and i have realli never never seen him in my entire life b4.. the onli 2 times i remembered having an 'encounter' with him was once at zouk where this guy kept looking at me but i just looked away coz i realli din noe the person.. if dunno the person den wun say hi wad rite! and the 2nd time was on the bus.. where he happily waved n said hello.. me.. being me just blurly smiled.. remembered telling dawn.. maybe my dance junior lar.. i cant rem all their faces til now.. turns out to be that freaky guy.. and if that was not enough.. after alighting from the bus.. i headed str8 to starbucks as shim refused to answer my fone calls.. haha lucky thing she was there.. tog with isaac and his brother andrew.. that freaky guy waved from across the carpark.. and yah.. omg.. so weird! i realli dunno him at all.. den he keep saying hi.. sigh.. felt v traumatised.. like i din even dare to walk near the co-op to buy my book coz he said he'll be eating at the canteen.. *shakes head* who is this guy????

went to school to had an hour long conversation with the prof who's proably gonna hire me after i grad.. yes im not useless.. i may be stupid n in some sense bimbotic.. but at least i already found a job.. whether anot im taking it up is another issue.. meeting him and his post doc student again tmr at 9.30.. tmr will be the day i start learning the ropes in the lab.. and there goes my free day too.. but on the other hand.. if i end by 1.. i can go over to find candy n the rest.. :)

somehow after that conversation i felt really scared.. like super uncertain about what my future holds.. i have come to the end of my education here in singapore.. grad sch is definitely gonna be in the states no matter wad.. but yah just within the past 24 hours.. i was let into the lives of 2 people.. 1 rich.. whom i can safely say has almost everything in the world.. and another.. struggling to make ends meet.. it breaks my heart to see my fren suffering at work.. at school.. and even at home.. as he shared all his problems with me.. i felt damn helpless.. i couldnt do a thing.. the onli thing i could do was to thank God for blessing me with the life i have.. suddenly my oh-so-drama life aint that drama animore.. suddenly my problems seemed like nothing compared to his.. "tong ren bu tong ming"... but im proud of him.. fighting to change for the better.. always keeping his head up :)

so actualli i barely slept last nite.. was just very bothered about life.. and the uncertainties it holds.. went to physio prac at 2 with a heavy heart.. partly also coz we had to prick our fingers todae to get blood for the experiment.. sadist or wad.. kns.. thankfully this kind soul gave me some of his blood so in a sense that saved me the agony.. but still.. i dunno what's with me and needles n blood.. i was all ready to prick myself.. i tried to punture thru.. but my hands just kept trembling n wun stop.. am i that weak? if so.. why the hell am i in life sci?? i should be able to take all this shit!! aniwae looking at too much blood made me nauseous.. i regretted eating lunch.. sigh.. but yah as i said thankfully this nice guy saved my ass.. yr 3 life sci too.. yes i haven seen him around even though he's seen me around.. i guess i really walk around school with my eyes closed huh? in veejay also like that.. and now in nus.. no exception.. maybe that's why i still maintain my reputation of being dao.. but im realli not dao when u get to noe me!!! haha bleahz.. honestly i dun give a damn..

kana called by the lecturer during tut.. couldnt realli answer well.. and yes that kind soul helped me again.. haha he's like my saviour today or wad! and the best part.. i dunno his name :X forgot to ask lar.. *oopz*

oh.. and i saw freaky guy at the canteen after prac when rushing for dance! eeeee.. scared.. faster walk away.. haha

speaking of dance.. i rushed down to ucc.. clean forgetting that today's practice was at dance theatre.. got off at the ucc stop.. crossed the road den realised i was at the wrong place! called val.. no reply.. called maki.. no reply.. shit.. senior class started le.. den i called matt. (the only junior whose number i have).. he confirmed that todae's prac was at DT so i rushed over.. luckily pat just started.. and maybe im old.. but i feel tired doing floor work..

today's dance class was fun though.. i had a lot of fun.. :) *beep!*

just back from shim's.. went over to do the freaking eco lab report.. at least it's almost done.. left a bit of touching up and it's ready to be printed n handed up.. time to nua on my bed for a while b4 i call it a nite..

*i wanna be serenaded to sleep every nite!*

risen from the dead..

2006-02-05T19:56:00.000+08:00

well almost.. slept for a good 12 hours.. mainly coz of the damn cramps dat kept me in bed on a saturday nite.. sis-in-law gave me a pill to take and basically the rest of the nite i was trying to sleep off the pain.. sorry tracy for not attending ur bdae party!! awaking from the 12 hours of sleep.. i suddenly felt as though i had died and no one cared.. no one bothered.. but i was partly wrong.. a msg came in to ask if i was ok.. :) other den that i could have died and no one would have known..

everything sparked off by me sleeping at 4 on thurs nite.. being someone's love advisor.. haha actualli din help much also lar.. just talked about happier stuff.. :) woke up at 645 on fri morning n headed down from my freaking 8 am lecture.. *yawn*.. this followed by the 10am lect which i kept dozing off and in the end i couldnt take it.. i ponned by phy in life sci lect.. no point going also lar.. mRNA.. wah lau tell me what i dunno about it.. aniwae i felt a tad bit guilty so i read my notes at starbucks with shim for.. got that over n done with in 5 min.. den proceeded to watch initial d with her on her video ipod.. takumi!!!! ryosuke!!!!!! keisuke!!! heh i wanna drive like them!!! vroom vroom!!!

eo field trip was a bore.. trekking in the jungle has never been my thing.. thank god for that can of insect repellant.. i ended up a one mosquito bite onli.. grrr.. i hate hate hate eco field trips.. the onli reason why im taking the mod is coz it's open book! heh.. bleahzzz.. on such a hot day somemore.. gave me a headache.. rawr....

dawn n i proceeded to yoon's room to shower after that.. thanks yoon for ur room~ n u looked realli lurvely that day.. that's what love can do huh? :P waiting at holland v bk for the longest time ever for our meeting with the diving peeps.. which was organised mainly for daniel who's leaving on a ship to duai n middle east.. some navy thing.. (daniel daniel: it's ok to announce it already rite??? :P)

me n dawn were dying of hunger.. we ordered a snack.. which consisted of 5 pathetic chicken cheese sticks.. and a drink.. we both tot there was gonna be 10.. unsatisfied.. i called zhiming to ask him n the other 2 to hurry up... haha me n dawn looked damn pathetic lar.. hungry n tired.. that toally sucks.. met 2 of the central lib guys.. sian we must have looked damn unglam.. haha.. luckily we showered otherwise we'd be hungry tired and dirty... eeeuuuww.. i would have jsut gone home sia.. anihow.. zhiming william n roy finally arrived and both me n dawn gobbled down our food.. haha i bet the guys din see us this hungry during our diving trip.. me being the slow eater.. still finished last.. n a few hours later.. i suffered from indigestion.. grrr...

we den proceeded to starbucks to wait for daniel and jeff to come.. chit chatted for a lil while.. it was great catching up with them again.. yet the close bond during the trip no longer exists.. at least to me.. at times i felt a lil lost n din noe wad to tok bout cept for general stuffs.. it's kinda weird huh? people you were so close to at one point of time.. suddenly seemed like strangers.. maybe it's just me..

joined shim jon n frens at zouk.. tog with kenneth.. shim told me something which left me thinking.. i dunno whether she was high or she just decided to speak her mind there and den.. but yah.. maybe this really is the last chance.. can this one last chance work out finally?? im still waiting to see.. left earli as zouk's music sucked.. and yah i went to phuture for a while.. but as usual i got turned off and left.. im swearing off phuture.. im still v disappointed at how what once used to be my fav place turn out to be like a warzone.. or should i say.. humping zone.. sigh..

couldnt sleept at nite.. think when i finally got to bed it was 730 am.. the sun had alrady risen.. but there i was lying awake on my bed.. managed a mere 3 hours of sleep and yah got up.. woke up to emptiness...

someone sang a song.. so sweet so soft.. just next to my ear.. someone carried my big heavy bag.. someone walked me up.. someone held me close... someone acted as if he din care but deep down he did.. someone gave me the gentlest of kisses.. someone played the guitar and serenaded me.. someone fetched me home.. someone shared with me his deepest secrets.. was it all but a dream???

paul van dyk is absofuckinglutely awesome!!!

2006-02-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

the title pretty muc speaks for itself.. i aint a trance person.. but when it comes to paul van dyk.. it's a whole new level altogether.. the music was solid all nite long.. aldrin paled in comparison.. i dunno how paul van dyk did it.. but he managed to capture my attention all nite long.. spinning tracks i normally dun go for.. and it was a superb nite! not only coz of the dj.. but also with my beloved frens! mel n frankie (yes babe u still owe me one for leaving me halfway that nite! *grrr*).. jap, shaun n friends.. thanks jap for being around n taking care of me preventing me from being bumped by that short fart.. heh.. :P adam, justin n the rest of the cousins whom i met later on in the nite.. and especially to kenneth.. thanks for pei-ing me almost the whole later part of the nite :) n thanks for sending me back even though u dun stay near me.. u're such a sweetie :)

so the nite began with finger guessing with mel n frankie.. with this guy coming to tell me not to drink too much if not when pvd comes.. i'll be gone.. den started talking n played finger guessing in a group.. drinking their super strong LIT as penalty.. met them once again at zouk.. n the other friend kept losing coz of me.. so he challenged me one on one.. somehow my finger guessing skills have improved.. either that or he sucks big time.. so managed to 'con' them bout 1/2 jug of lit.. happiness or wad.. haha i made mel play too.. so we could all drink tog.. :)

stole a jug of drink which wasnt looked after.. i mean helloooooo u buy drinks den dun just leave there mah... so dumb rite.. but to our disappointment.. it was onli... fruit punch! urgh!!! kana cheated.. stole some gina's drink!!! boo... :(

danced my ass off when pvd was in the house.. super shiok.. haha made kenneth dance with this indian girl.. and turns out she was interested in him.. hahaha she asked him where he stay and if he had a gf.. so he panicked n dragged me in.. lol.. den i made adam dance with her.. n he happily danced.. he was soooo high that nite sia.. haha i laugh until stomachache.. dunno if he was actualli aware that he was dancing with a stranger not.. lol..

on the whole i have a helluva good time.. probably one of the best clubbing nites i ever had.. i love all my frens.. n i love pvd!!! heh.. :)

pvd pvd pvd pvd pvd pvd pvd.. i want moreeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

chi new yr day 1 was spent at church.. grandma's place.. and den mahjong at nite..

chi new yr day 2 was spent visiting the girls' houses.. chatting in my room.. playing banluck with my mummy n her office boys.. n den a dinner with my daddy's shifu.. sigh speaking of which.. the family minus daddy had a discussion bout his religion.. it's not that im against his religion.. but im against the way they teach.. the way the whole organisation is being ran.. shan't say too much.. afterall it's a family affair.. but my point is.. im disappointed..

after the dinner.. was dropped off at corpthorne.. waited a lil while for mel n frankie.. den headed into zouk.. heh.. slacked by the river side til 1130 b4 re-entering.. the rest of the nite.. *read above*

chi new yr day 3.. with family again.. mahjong mahjong mahjong.. haha overall lost 8 bucks.. this cny period my luck for mahjong has been bad... i normally do pretty ok in mahjong..

had dance just now.. wah shagggggg ar.... one whole month never dance le.. den suddenly whack hard.. my body is aching now can! gonna sleep soon sia.. damn tired... went for dinner at fong seng with liza maki n jackjack after blast.. banana prataaaa n milo dinosaurrrrr.. so yummy.. heh

had 2 tutorials today.. changing landscapes and phy in life sci.. changing landscapes was quite fun.. the tutor also very nice :)

as for phy in life sci.. haha i dunno whether it's good or bad.. but yah ok lar.. granted that the tutor is nice n reminds me that tad bit of the ex.. lol.. he's ok i guess.. but he realli doesnt noe his stuff and yah asked for life sci student somemore.. telling me i can just mark attendance and leave coz i noe all the answers already.. somemore everyone will get full participation marks.. wad kinda crap is that?? lol.. best part.. somemore dunno how to spell phosphodiester.. must ask me.. hello tutor.. u were already at wikipedia.. go check it lar!!! fainted.. sigh so much for that tut huh?? but yah i'll still go lar.. life sci student doesnt mean i know everything lor.. but one thing's for sure.. i noe much more den him.. :X

ah well.. dunno wad to say man.. haha u tell me lar.. where got this kinda tutor one?? sigh.. *shakes head*..

it's wednesday.. but jenjen's not at mambo.. :(

cny eve...

2006-01-28T17:32:00.000+08:00

just back from a hearty lunch with shuo at cartel n gelare.. thanks shuo for buying me lunch!!! :) heh had so much fun catching up with you.. but im so so so damn full now!!! haha n reunion dinner is gonna be like in 2 hours time.. steamboat!! haha think i'll just stick to soup tonite.. :P

mahjong with family after dinner.. yayness.. i hope i win money.. *prepares my red underwear..* hahaha

came home to tok to babey as he was feeling down.. and he said something that melted my heart even though i've heard it many times in different variations.. heh.. our msn conversation went like this...

Plue says:
tell u a secret
JeN -the rainbow in your sky- says:
wad wad wad?
Plue says:
i loveu
Plue says:
heh
JeN -the rainbow in your sky- says:
heh
JeN -the rainbow in your sky- says:
muackzzz
JeN -the rainbow in your sky- says:
that's not a secret

heh he's so cute lar.. somehow today's the day i find my answer as to why he means to much to me and why we're so in love with each other even after all that has happened.. 2006.. new year already.. *throws all the bad memories out of the window* :)

in the wrong fac????

2006-01-26T11:44:00.000+08:00

You scored as Journalism. You are an aspiring journalist, and you should major in journalism! Like me, you are passionate about writing and expressing yourself, and you want the world to understand your beliefs through writing.

Philosophy

83%

Psychology

83%

Journalism

83%

Sociology

83%

Mathematics

75%

Dance

75%

Theater

75%

Biology

67%

Engineering

58%

Anthropology

58%

English

50%

Linguistics

50%

Chemistry

42%

Art

haha this pretty much speaks for itself.. have i been in the wrong faculty all my life??? i've always known i was more inclined to the arts yet i stubbornly went to the sci stream coz i felt that i did pretty well there too and got 'more future'.. guess that's not realli the case huh??

my meeting with my da ge ge.. :)

2006-01-25T02:50:00.000+08:00

awoken by a telephone call.. showered changed.. headed towards parkway in a blur.. met up with daniel daniel.. (no not daniel liew..) at fish n co~

seafood platter for 2.. heh.. it's amazing seeing daniel daniel finish most of it.. sorry i din help much.. not much appetite lately.. anyhow.. thanks for the dinner and take care.. see ya in 3 months time!! sail away my fren sail away.. haha but make sure u come back k.. dun get lost in dubai or wadever scary terroristic countries u'll be sailing too..

8-4 class today wasnt that bad.. managed to stay awake for all my lectures.. altho not realli listening to changing landscapes..

this girl in the lift asked me if i was in secondary sch.. i was like errr no?? im in uni.. n i gave her the puzzled look.. hahaha i look old lor.. 22 this yr leh.. how can i ever be in sec sch??? even if u ask if im in jc also a bit wrong.. see hair colour also noe cannot be already.. but ok lar.. i take it as a compliment.. i look young today! :P *hops around* haha

mummy saw the list i wrote out from my ebay shopping.. so i introduced her to ebay.. haha but she just told me not to spend too much.. dun think she's receptive to the idea of online shopping.. aniwae time to keep away my damage list lest she sees it growing.. haha.. but realli i promise.. 1 or 2 more items onli... den i'll stop for a few days.. or i'll just browse n not bid.. *no im not crossing my fingers!*

not mambo-ing tmr.. will i feel that slight tinge of emptiness in me??? hmmmm...

relaxing day.. :)

2006-01-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

today was great.. i spent practically the whole day... ebay-ing.. omg ebay is so so so addictive can!!! i've spent like 100 bucks already!! and im still eyeing 2 more items.. more to come but im controlling myself from looking at the limitless items ebay has to offer.. my goodness.. i hereby proclaim myself as the new ebay addict!!!! online shopping is damn fun lar!!!! haha so mani things to see.. just click here click there.. and dun have to pay money also.. haha babey's paying all for me!!! :) thanks darling!!! but dun worry lar.. im not such a bad gf.. haha i'll pay u back.. even sent him an email IOU to remind him to collect payment.. heh..

met up with jassia n JJ todae.. JJ has grown so so tall.. i cant believe he's 18! i last saw him 2 years ago and he was like shorter den me! now he's in uni yr 2 doing a double major in law n commerce (fwah!!) and yah he's taller den me!!!!!!! jasmine is graduating at the end of this yr with a pHD.. this shows the quality of the pang genes.. lol..

coincidentally met dawn whilst shopping so in the end all 4 of us sat at starbucks to chill and talk cock.. i miss these days.. suddenly feels like a long time since i last sat down for coffee with dawn.. :)

had dinner with my family and after that it was back to the computer to.. no prizes for guessing... ebay!!! hahaha.. oh let me add that i woke up at 730 to check my auctions coz the items i was bidding for closed at 8.. n i got outbidded for 1 can!! so sad rite.. wanted to form my family of neopets one.. in the end missing 1 7" kacheek.. sigh.. but babey said he'll get it for me even if it means buying in the stores.. heh.. so sweet rite! :) i was so disappointed at first coz that was one of my first few items i was bidding for.. n i din noe how to go about bidding.. haha nvm.. now im pro already.. :P just closed another 3 more auctions about 2 hours back.. :) happy happy!!! shopping makes me such a happy gurl!!

8-4 tuesday tmr.. urgh.. sian sian sian.. must sleep after blogging n calling babey.. yest also not enuff sleep.. all coz of the stupid auctions i couldnt sleep.. haha i suddenly feel like a lil kid in a candy store again.. spoilt for choice.. excited about winning auctions.. yet not considering the amount i've wasted.. so after the last 2 items.. i think i'll stop ebay-ing for a while.. i need to save money for the US + alaska trip! n also to aussie if plans pull thru with wanni shuya n aud to visit mel...

oh and i've got a spanking new printer!! happy happy!!! now i can print my notes with ease.. auto duplex somemore.. how shiok is that! haha :) im so happy!!!

reunion dinner...

2006-01-22T11:28:00.000+08:00

had the traditional reunion dinner last nite at my aunt's place.. every year the paternal side will have a reunion dinner one week b4 the actual day.. meeting up with relatives... cuzzies.. heh just a nice warm cosy steamboat dinner.. this year we had something extra.. mini bbq on the hot plate.. baconn... yummy.. hee.. :) met my 2 cutie pies again.. my nephews ethan n ian.. so so so so cute.. ian as usual was fascinated with my hp.. and how he could see his face in my fone.. oh man.. he's so adorable lar.. with those precious moments eyes and big head.. haha andthe best part.. he calls me jiejie.. haha so im not aunty.. yet :P

over dinner were the usual few questions bout whether got bf.. (that applies to me).. when getting married.. (that applies to the rest minus my bro n another cuzzie).. how's work etc etc etc..

looking back.. i never was close to my paternal side.. most of my cuzzies are like around my brother's age.. so they're all working now and also settling down.. me on the other hand is right smack in the middle.. coz i have 2 more cousins younger den me who are like in sec sch now.. so i tend to be closer to my maternal side where all my cuzzies are around my age.. :) but i find that as i grow older.. the age gap becomes less significant and it is easier to talk to the older cuzzies about things.. more to talk about in fact..

but as i see my two cute lil nephews running around the house wrecking havoc.. i thought to myself.. die lar.. what if next time my kids like that.. how to handle?? i asked my mummy if korkor was like that when he was young.. she said he was worse.. haha so i made up my mind.. if i were to give birth to a boy (that's like 10 yrs down the road.. haha) i'll make my mummy look after him.. den she can run up n down high n low with him.. but.. if all else fails.. there's always raffia string and masking tape... hahaha

i noe the 2 boys miss their father.. ian saw korkor's pic in my hp and when i asked him who's that.. he replied me 'dada'... haha so cute rite.. sigh as i looked at how hard my cousin has to work to bring up these 2 boys.. my heart broke.. that bastard has not returned home for the longest time ever.. happily gallivanting outside with the bitch.. why is life like that? why must guys again be jerks even after they're married.. dont they ever settle down and learn how to treat a lady right?? or are us girls doomed for the rest of our lives to live with bastards.. as i said b4.. guys.. cant live with.. cant live without..

just a side note.. altho most of us are too young for that commitment now.. goes out esp to the guys and some girls too.. if you ever plan on getting married.. the day u sign those marriage certs.. is the day you must no matter wad love ur spouse and only your spouse.. ur heart must remain faithful and loyal.. even though if love fades over time.. but there are always other things to find to keep the marriage going.. dont ever walk out on ur spouse.. and no matter how bad the situation is.. im sure both of you can work things out together.. there is always a solution to the problem.. it's just whether you wanna put in the effort or not..

marriage is a life sentence.. as bad as that may sound but it's true.. u made the decision to spend the rest of ur life with that certain someone.. stick by it.. this is no game..

sigh i noe im v preachy but really.. dun get married if you cant commit.. or if you have problems keeping faithful.. and to all those men and women who have happily gone off with someone new and leaving his/her spouse behind.. fuck you.. i totally detest such people.. and im sure you wont make it to heaven.. what goes around comes around.. so there.

2006-01-21T12:12:00.000+08:00

just took this quiz.. what do you want in a man? lol.. how idealistic.. suddenly makes me sound so materialistic?? but am i realli that materialistic?? i guess it depends on how u look at it.. but to the most important person.. i am.. so.. maybe it's better to live life expecting nothing at all?

anyhow the results below are true to a certain extent.. but not in many.. im happy with who i've found.. so this test is not valid.. lol..

jeNnIfEr, you're a Romance High!

Romance

You're a sucker for romance! A guy who will pamper you with gifts and affection and express his deepest feelings for you through his actions is right up your alley. You can't stand guys who lack passion, and you think love and romance go hand-in-hand. In order for you to be truly happy in a relationship, your man - someone like Robert Redford or Harry Connick Jr., perhaps - has to woo you and dote upon you. According to your romantic standards, when the courting period ends, everything else does, too. Your high romantic expectations definitely eliminate a large number of men from the singles pool, but if it's really that important to you, by all means keep on searching!

Maturity

There's no denying that men are like fine wine - they definitely get better with age. It's not hard to understand why, when you consider all the benefits of getting older, which is why you like your guys a bit older and more mature. Suave and sophisticated, a mature-yet-fun man - like Regis Philbin or Kelsey Grammer's "Frasier" character - would be more likely to settle down into a real relationship and make a lasting commitment. On the other hand, your answers show that you don't go for stiffs who can't crack a joke. What's the point if there's no spontaneity, right? It sounds like you go for guys with experience and a sense of humor that's dry as a fine Chablis, but with a hint of spice.

Lifestyle

Some people say love is a journey of the heart. So if you're traveling anyway, why take coach when you can go first class? It sounds like you have some very clear financial expectations for your ideal relationship. Money is an important aspect of romance for you, probably because of the leisure and opportunities it offers. (One guy with a bank account that might live up to your expectations is David Hyde Pierce's character, Niles, on "Frasier.") There's no doubt that a luxurious lifestyle is tons of fun, but we hope it doesn't become the most important aspect of your relationship. We all dream about a fairy-tale love affair (complete with a castle), but it's important to stay within the limits of reality. Based on your answers, you should recognize and respect your desires, but if you meet Mr. Right, don't let anything get in the way of true love, even an itty bitty bank balance.

Looks

You may not judge a book entirely by its cover, but you definitely like the cute ones. (Who doesn't?!) You might consider someone who's a little less than gorgeous, but you generally tend to seek out very handsome men who can really turn heads. Matt Damon? Noah Wyle? Right up your alley. But if need be, you're willing to place personality and chemistry before a pretty face and a hot body. Nevertheless, your answers reveal that you take pride in your man's appearance and get a thrill out of watching others gawk at him. You're impressed by looks, and you definitely set your standards high when it comes to physical appearance. Still, you also realize that beauty may be only skin deep and that an average-looking guy with tons of charm might be your perfect match in every other way!

swing swing swing...

2006-01-21T00:50:00.000+08:00

i think im in the period of mood swings.. all of a sudden.. just when i clicked blogger.com ... my mood dropped.. and i suddenly lost inspiration for blogging.. does blogging make me feel depressed?? hmm.. shouldnt be.. im more den happy to pour out all my rants here rather den anione else..

everyone's just too busy.. just too occupied with their own lives..

honestly i dun see much change.. i still get the feeling u're ashamed.. that a part of you still wanna hide me in the dark.. is it just my imagination?? i know i can be over sensitive at times.. but it's hard keeping it to myself... honestly.. im not really used to blogging bout you here.. things have changed so much.. for me.. but i dunno if it did for you.. maybe i should stop divulging too much here.. urgh i realli dunno..

been counting my money to see how much i can spare.. going to usa + alaska.. and maybe aussie.. it's gonna suck me dry.. and with oasis coming up.. heh.. decided to get the 160 bucks standing one.. found a fren who's willing to stand with me.. :)

ecology field trip to labrador park today was ok.. made a few more new friends.. went around counting spiders.. webs n the number of preys they had.. lol.. quite spastic lar.. just go there n look pretty onli.. haha.. got a lab report to hand up too.. but it's at the next prac session.. which im going to bukit timah nature reserve (i think!).. how happening.. field trips are soooo not my cuppa.. i hate trekking or walking on muddy grounds or getting myself dirty.. neither do i like to get near bugs nor feed mosquitoes.. sigh.. all this just to get a decent grade in ecology and grad.. i realli think my life will no longer be about life sci the moment i grad.. everything also dun like.. die lar.. dunno what im gonna work as in future..

im so so tired.. been up since 645.. had 3 lects from 8 to 2.. and the eco field trip from 2-6.. watched teevee all nite.. n just idling my time away.. somehow im not ready to get started on revising notes..

time to sleep soon.. there's nothing to do anyway.. as i said.. everyone's too busy and cant be bothered..

some nice lyrics that yah maybe in my dreams he'll sing to me..

I'm awake, you're still sleeping
The sun will rise like yesterday
Everything that we are now
Is everything we can't let go
Or its gone forever, far away

I hope tomorrow is like today
Don't you go away tomorrow
I don't think I could handle that
You're probably dreaming that you're flying on
Then you start to fall
But then you rise and shine forever
Don't go away
I hope tomorrow is like today

this is wayyyyyy cool...

2006-01-19T20:13:00.000+08:00

check out the new honda ad..

i'll stop the world and melt with you...

2006-01-19T12:54:00.000+08:00

this song has been stuck in my head for the past 24 hours.. thus making it into jen's list of favs.. heh.. heard it whilst watching sky high.. damn funny show.. warren is how cute?? :P

ok so the issue about dance.. was chatting with fishy yesterday and i was telling her how i dun feel as bonded to blast animore.. like i dunno the juniors.. den shows also like never do already.. everything all so slack.. go blast class like just to learn steps and that's that.. in a sense it's my own fault that i dun make an effort to talk to the juniors.. but somehow i just dun care already.. she was saying how she would rather work during the hols to build up her resume instead of just going for dance.. n i agree with her.. in like 4 months time we'll be graduating.. and that fucking piece of resume is damn important.. lucky for me.. my urops prof is really nice.. and at least i have someone to write reccommendation letters for me.. moreover i might be working in the lab after i grad.. so.. if that works out.. it's 2 or 3 years extra in nus but my rice bowl stable.. after which i'll be going to do masters in the states.. well that's my plan at least.. so yeah i do get envious when i see my friends on teevee.. recently was jiemei on the latest mac's fan-tastic ad.. and i guess the competitions coming up.. performances n what not.. i feel that i dun even belong to blast animore.. like im all ready to grad n infiltrate the working world..

am i really that old already???

i mean dance is and will always be my passion.. it's one thing i enjoy doing and i love my blast peeps.. at least the senior class pple and the alumni.. heh.. it's realli been very very long since i lepaked with them.. and yah i do miss them.. a lot.. urgh.. maybe it's not good growing up so fast.. i realise i start to think a lot.. i start worrying about my future.. i start to take a lot more things into consideration.. maybe that's why i know my life cannot revolve around dance.. unlike some others.. (shall not name them otherwise kena whacked.. lol)

so i guess different people has dance ranked in different orders in their priority list.. for me.. God, family, friends and of coz babey rank at the top of mine.. :)

decided to go for the NUS health screening even though im afraid of needles.. better to do a good check up.. n maybe determine if i do have thalessemia (read: blood disorder).. yah blood pressure's damn low too.. (check out my photo blog on my readings man..) the norm is 120 upon 90.. mine's like wayyyyy below that.. disgusting rite.. took twice on my left arm n twice on my right.. no diff.. sigh... why am i so weakkkkkkkkk :'(

did a damn malu thing yesterdae also.. was skype-ing with babey.. den i went to watch sky high.. so it started raining n i ran to my room to close the window.. at the same time i shouted pig!!!! into the mic.. n i heard his bro's voice.. babey wasnt around!!! omg.. malu lar!!! haha oh well.. another embarrassing moment to add on to the list.. haha..

the last min decision to go down to zouk proved wothwhile.. met up with quite a number of frens.. summer rain-ed with cai on my usual podium.. haha mambo-ed with cai lau greg n another fren.. and not forgetting jo n serene :) heh also met up with shuo.. n guess wad.. luther van dross! haha he quit blast le.. so sad.. but yah turns out he's mambo king!!! hahaha all thanks to him we moved from phuture to mambo..

honestly speaking i love the music at phuture but the crowd realli realli sucks.. omg.. this guy tried to put his cap on my head... eeeeuuuwww.. i mean like how disgusting is that?? the cap dunno whether got wash not.. den his head dunno got wad gross thing.. oh man.. sick lar.. i proved my point once again that the guys are desperate and so are the girls.. jo n serene's gfs got damn high and happily clung on to a guy each.. according to serene who came looking for me n jo after a while.. haha sigh why must phuture be like that??? what happened to the old phuture where everything was pretty n nice??? urgh.. i cant stand it.. it's realli like free frag on the dance floor.. sighzdom.. n i was demonstrating to serene how girls throw themselves at guys.. haha sorry shuo! :P

oh yah.. this gurl.. she was so drunk she fell flat on her face in phuture lar.. n her frens had to carry her up and drag her out.. madness.. why drink until like that??? got any use?? just killing ur liver onli wad... sigh.. dunno lar.. drink enuff to get high but not concuss mah.. :X

so anyway the whole nite was pretty fun.. not to mention serene's fren whom has never heard of a quickfuck b4.. so when he asked me wad i wanted to drink i told him i wan a quickfuck.. n he was like sure.. u want it now?? proceeding that he did the action of unzipping his pants.. i mean like.. wtf??? i just rolled my eyes.. how lame can guys get.. it's ridiculous.. so anyway he was asking me wadz inside quickfuck etc etc etc n i tot to myself.. cham lar.. noob.. hahaha..

but ok lar.. i also quite loser.. shuo wanted to get me a blowjob but i dun wan.. wait messy lar.. must practise at home first den can try at the clubs.. lol.. n i wanted sambuca.. ok actualli i just love chewing on the coffee beans.. haha den he wanted to light my mouth!! oh man.. panic lar.. i also dun wan.. haha in the end after many 'i dont want!!!'s.. my sambuca was lit in the glass.. hee drank quite a bit of long island though.. everything also blame shuo.. haha good fren who tries to make me drunk all the time.. but sorry bro.. i know my limits :P

ok here comes the highlight of the nite.. so we went back to phuture at like 315.. after 'together in electric dreams'.. n i met youngjun siangjin n fren! n i realised to my horror.. oh shit! i forgot to msg him that i was going!!!! so yj tried to make me feel bad all nite long.. and standing outside zouk when it all ended.. the bouncers carried out this guy who was completely knocked out.. and it was none other den jon.. so i had to trouble yj, sj n fren to help carry jon to his car.. n yj drove us down to shim's.. where the poor girl had to be waken in the middle of the nite by me and look after her bf.. but in the end she said just leave him in the car to sleep.. haha shim sent us back to my place where i wanted to go up get the keys to drive yj n sj back but they were so nice they insisted on taking a cab.. thus making me feel bad even more.. din msg them den in the end still got to trouble them.. and it's like we haven met up in ages lar.. knew them since i was only 15.. haha aniwae.. THANKS BROTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i owe you one... a big big big one...

thus ends my clubbing nites.. shall not club so often in future animore.. and onli for special occasions.. i feel realli old.. and this is a good time to stop.. :) and guess wad.. i din spend a single cent at all.. hahaha.. wad a way to end my clubbing escapades~ yayness!!!

check out my photoblog for a few new pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

b4 i go to bed...

2006-01-19T05:31:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU YONGJUN AND SIANGJIN... THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH...

mambo.. phuture.. wadever.. i feel old.. but yah it was great meeting the veejay peeps.. and of coz clubbing with my best clubbing partner.. JOANNE! :) hello serene! haha.. new friend made todae.. excluding those others whom i'd rather not know..

shall blog more tmr.. fucking tired.. din expect to reach home so late.. would have been even later if not for... oh man.. thank you once again yongjun n siangjin.. i really owe u all one.. n so sorry for the trouble..

ps i din get drunk or anithing lar.. haha.. not me.. but yj n sj were such darls for helping me.. otherwise i dunno how im gonna handle the situation also.. i feel deeply indebted to u 2.. smiles..

good nite~

mambooooo...

2006-01-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

well i did wanted to blog about dance tonite.. but i guess i'll leave that til tmr.. just some thoughts i wanted to share.. was chatting with fishy over msn todae and yah i guess different people prioritise dance differently.. more to come in my next post..

for now.. it's time for mambo!!! i decided to go coz today's the only wed i'll be free.. once pracs, tuts and dance starts.. where got time??? so byebye now.. im off to zouk!!! :)

ZoUk-Ca-PaDe!!!!!!!!!

all of a sudden...

2006-01-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

as i dragged my tired body and soul back home.. i realised i was in despair.. i suddenly felt very lost.. flustered.. alone.. it's only been 2 days and i need you already.. how pathetic is that?? you always say i keep crying.. but somehow i always break down when it comes to you... sometimes i wonder why is it that you're the one who controls my heart so much..

i had that sudden impulse to call you right there and then but i stopped myself.. i realised i was making the biggest mistake of all.. i was growing dependent on you.. it's always the case isnt it.. you come back.. i grow dependent on you.. and b4 i know it.. you've flown off again.. leaving me to grit my teeth and be independent again.. or at least appear independent..

for wad reason am i blogging about this.. i have absolutely no idea.. just a sudden urge.. all i know is that im missing you like crazy right now and there's nothing really much i can do about it except suck my thumb...

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on my side of the world:

had my terrible tuesday today.. 8-4 straight of lectures.. that's 4 lectures.. physio (hormones), physio(cardio), phy in life sci and changing landscapes all in one shot.. after 2 physio lects.. i was already brain dead.. totally din listen to phy in life sci nor changing landscapes lect.. not like there was anithing impt.. in future i might just pon n end my tuesdays at 12.. lol..

met up with jo today! like after so long.. chit chat chit chat.. just like old times.. heh.. and i crashed her hall todae.. haha from now on every tues i'll visit her room n wait for papa to fetch me back.. :P

so it's been confirmed.. my timetable.. 3 day week.. terrible tuesdays where i have 8-4 lesson straight.. wacky wed (ok maybe not so) where i have lessons.. depending on which week it is.. either 12-6 or 2-6.. either way i just hope the prac/tut ends earli so i can make it in time for blast.. i dun wanna miss blast!!!!!! *sob* and finally freaky fridays.. where lessons are 8-6 str8 or 8-2 str8.. again depending on which week it is..

come to think of it.. it's quite a sucky timetable.. but i guess im ok with it.. lunch aint impt to me.. and having 2 free days means i can nua at home and not bother bout waking up earli to go to sch.. it also gives me more time to spend with him..

been stoning for the past 2 hours.. reading my frens' blogs.. it's been ages since i actualli went to blog hop.. been too busy for that previously.. realised some people are realli just born jerks and shouldnt even be allowed to exist in this beautiful world of mine.. rite.. who am i kidding.. urgh.. dun wanna say anithing more.. politics in the gang (not my gang thankfully) has shown up in the blogosphere.. which i realli hope the boys manage to straighten things out..

found proj n essay grp for changing landscapes le.. left phy in life sci to sort out.. it's dumb where u have a group of 7 and the group wants to split 5-2.. where the min num is 3.. might as well split 4-3 rite.. how dumb can people get..

lastly.. the most intriguing thing of the day.. life science students dont know how many per cent of our air consists of carbon dioxide.. omg.. i almost puked blood.. when asked.. one answered 20.5.. another answered 12.. n some smartalec answered 7.. wth.. where have all your general knowledge gone????? like hello.... this is pri sch stuff can.. u ought to be smacked! life sci student leh.. dun even noe such trivial stuff.. disappointing..

for the non life sci students.. there's only 0.03% of carbon dioxide in the air we're breathing in rite now.. sigh..

enuff blogging for now.. im in an emo mood now.. blahhhhhhhh....

2006-01-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

took this quiz when i was bored.. quite true i guess..

answer to what does perfect optics sell... *drum roll.......*

$$$ 4D and ToTo $$$ *lolz*

one more post...

2006-01-16T03:53:00.000+08:00

this shop's name is "perfect optics"....

what do you think it is likely to sell???

*answer will be posted after i get a few replies...*

oh n regarding the asianhottestblogger contest.. a few have asked why i aint joining.. well it's because.. i dun wanna be the next dawn yeo or daphne teo.. wait people say i underwent plastic surgery how?? haha.. nah.. fame aint my thing.. all i want is a peaceful n happy life..

this blog will continue to exist.. coz im too lazy to start a new one.. hahaha

leaving on a jet plane..

2006-01-16T03:29:00.000+08:00

babey flew off this morn.. sigh.. i hate this day the most.. but what to do.. can only look forward to 15 weeks later.. plans after graduating are to fly over to meet him den go alaska tog.. :) but things arent confirmed yet.. n i still have grad trips i promised to go with my frens.. i foresee spending a lot travelling.. desperately saving as much as i can now.. everyone's free to donate to the help-jennifer-fund.. lol

a sleepless nite caused me to concuss for 12 hours str8.. was dozing off in church.. urgh.. went to wash my face halfway as i felt realli bad.. luckily after that i wasnt as sleepy.. but the minute i got home.. i knocked out.. din even hear my phone at all.. sorry babey.. din get to talk to u when u were at narita.. urgh.. all my fault!! so so sorry... :( the sleep from 11am-11pm was revitalising.. my brother thought i had died.. lol.. forcing myself to stay awake so that i wun miss his call when he reaches chicago.. trust me.. once i go back n lie down.. i'll fall asleep immediately.. it's scary how much i can sleep.. haha.. *oinks*

din manage to get women's health so i guess im stuck with phy in the life sciences.. easy mod.. dun foresee myself spending a lot of time on that mod.. worst case scenario i'll just s/u it.. but guess not.. gonna s/u changing landscapes instead.. heh.. 2 more s/u-es left to use.. but i still need to pull up my cap that very lil bit.. just 0.05.. i noe i can do it.. n i must..

this sem's gonna be a sem of mixed emo.. on one hand i cant wait to grad n get out of disgusting nus.. on the other.. i dunno what im gonna do after i grad.. work in the lab den pursue my masters in the states?? that's the tentative plan for now.. sad but true.. unless i get married and start a family.. haha which isnt a very viable option.. lol..

just uploaded a shitload of pics into my photoblog.. heh.. pics of my bdae from the professional photographers camera.. those who want the pics.. feel free to ask me.. got more actualli.. just been lazy to put them up on a website for u all to dl.. :P random pics like meeting up with my gang.. my 2a-ians.. outings with babey.. huisin's bdae.. yeah that's about all.. click here for the pics.. or u can just access them from my photoblog link on the left..

funkamania came n went.. sorry to all my blast peeps for not going down to support.. but i've seens the vids *thanks val!*.. excellent job the coup!!! hugs to maki rozzno calvin ahmad :) u guys were wonderful!! top three teams this yr were all girls.. haha girl power!!!! gin n allegra are realli realli hot!!! burning up my laptop screen sia! haha.. sizzle sizzle... and *pat on the back* to the other blast peeps who took part in funka.. like san thit.. elson.. and i tink the juniors if im not wrong.. cant wait to start dancing again on the 25th of jan.. it's been one helluva holiday.. esp with my falling sick for one whole freaking month.. will be missing some blast classes due to the damn physio lab on wednesdays... 2-6 pm! wth.. can give a better timing not!

first week of school.. so so fun meeting up with the babes again.. :) starbucks n hanging out n what not.. heh.. this is one thing im definitely gonna miss when i grad..

one sweet day

2006-01-13T01:52:00.000+08:00

just got home.. lovely day todae.. only *you will know why.. :)

yesterday's mambo was definitely a memorable one.. good music nonetheless.. relatively empty zouk.. in fact one of the empitiest i've seen so far in my history with zouk.. think of the dance floor being 3/4 packed only.. unlike the usual squeeze until like siao kinda packed.. missed a few good songs.. his 'a lil respect'.. our 'summer rain'.. my 'love in the first degree'.. all coz of *censored*.. dun wish to talk about it animore.. one thing's for sure.. im not so glad it happened.. but im glad things turned out well.. so yah.. i guess the nite went well for me in another sense of the word..

first day of sch.. one lecture.. quite fun taking it tog with jt, thomas, giam, ruch n jerm.. haha noisy lar.. but i like.. at least lectures aint boring.. at least there're things to laugh about..

and u noe wad.. my first time printing at sci cblc.. haha shim was like laughing at me lar.. stupid me dun even noe we needed a service card to print.. and how much a service card cost.. i also din noe must put my userid on the card.. lol.. coz i've always been printing at arts.. so it's the cashcard method.. sci so backdated.. sob sob.. but yah i foresee myself printing more notes there.. my printer's down for the moment.. dunno what the hell is wrong with it.. print out junk for me.. urgh.. stupid dumb printer..

finally bidded back my phy in the life sci.. but i still wanna take women's health... sigh.. see how things go.. if not i have to decide between heavenly maths and phy in the life sci.. realli dunno which mod to take man.. sob.. at the end of the day i would still have to drop one.. and the best part.. phy in the life sci was about bout 700 points this round.. haha i threw in all my 1734 pts lor.. last sem liaoz.. chiong ar!!!! :P but this is the first time my module bidding has been so rough.. i usually settle all my mods by round 2c.. headache sia..

i miss dance.. and the blast peeps.. seems like ages since i last saw them.. :(

silly me...

2006-01-11T03:33:00.000+08:00

an invitation to be a contestant for asianhottestblogger.. haha that's quite funny.. but nah not interested.. even if i did join.. i wun change a thing about my blog or wadsoever.. and with my constant lack of updates.. how to win?? lol..

just back from babey's.. the drive back was kinda ok i guess.. super wet floors.. multiple wet puddles.. and that so very irritating jaybee car which was not happy i overtook him.. trying to race me back.. sorry lar.. im not in the mood man.. floor so slippery also.. wait accident how?? u wan to have an accident.. have it urself.. dun get me involved.. bleahz.. if road dry den different story wad..

aniwae due to me screwing myself up in cors.. i've so 'geniusly' dropped physics in the life sciences (sorry candy n dot!) and bidded for heavenly maths.. taking with shim! :) but i still want my women's health! sigh.. realli hope i can take it this sem! final sem le.. dun take now den take when??? so school starts *finally* tmr for me.. instead of friday.. and yah.. the next few days i will be MIA.. coz im gonna spend all my waking n sleeping hours with him.. b4 he goes back this sunday morning.. *sob*..

silly me missed him so much that i had to drive down to his place to see him just now.. haha people would have thought we just started out or wad.. lol.. but yeah i guess it's just one of those times.. heh time to sleep.. :)))))))

flu-bugged...

2006-01-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

seems like lately my body has been yelling out to me to give it a break.. 1 week of flu.. followed by 2 weeks of chicken pox.. n now.. another week of flu.. how great.. and that's how my last holidays are spent.. mainly nua-ing at home.. haha but i did have my havoc periods too.. so not realli complaining.. and there's naruto to accompany me at home.. not forgetting my life size 3-in-1 pillow bolster n blanket~ heh..

done with episode 130 (i believe) of naruto.. in just one week.. amazing or wad.. haha.. waiting for my bro to burn out the next 30 episodes.. n den i'll be on par with the rest.. waiting eagerly each week for the new episode to be released.. heh.. i heart gara!!!! *sabaku kyu!*

felt a lil bad for missing blast last wed.. but realli couldnt breathe so figured no point going also.. so i slept the whole afternoon away.. amazing wad a lil red pill can do to me.. totally knocks me out flat..

haven really been going out.. coz *someone say wanna bring me go but always never bring mi go gaigai!! lol.. played mahjong with babey and my family last nite.. 3 rounds can! haha played til 3 am.. best or wad~ and i was on a winning streak somemore~ :) could have won like close to 50 bucks! but i onli took 25.. heh.. good enuff for me.. one nite's worth of work~ *grin*

school's starting next week.. having mised feelings about it.. i have a 2/3 day week but on tues n fri.. my timetable's packed to the max.. so i dunno whether to be happy or sad.. but i guess i'll survive.. moreover it's my last sem.. i better pull up my cap a lil to get the darn merit.. if not i'll really be considered as a loser.. and come to think of it.. im gonna have to miss quite a few blast classes.. sigh.. how sad is that?? but i realli cant help it coz it's a core mod.. grrrr.. see how it goes lar.. boo..

babey's gonna pick me up later.. :) will rewatch naruto with him.. heh.. time for dinner with my family~~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2006-01-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

it's finally 2006.. a brand new start to a brand new year.. heh.. hope you all had a wonderful celebration.. i did.. :)

spent it at zouk's NYE mambo jambo party at the expo!!! SHIOK!!!

imagine being on the same podium as all the lao jiaos.. stress stress stress.. heh.. but it was damn fun.. counting down to 2006.. wishing everyone a happy new year.. and most imptly.. being able to be with the one i love at that very special moment.. :) kana filmed for almost the whole 'love in the first degree' by zouk's camera man.. haha paiseh sia.. but luckily it was during that song.. my 'pet' song k! lol.. the whole nite was just perfect.. for those mambo fans who din get to go.. you all are missing out sia!

mahjong-ed away the new year too.. played on the eve.. new yr's day and the 2nd of jan.. haha my family is a bunch of hard core mahjong addicts.. :)

and who could forget N-A-R-U-T-O! heh.. touched episode 100 already.. chiong ar!! kage bunshin no jutsu! lol..

one day without *you and i miss *you already.. yet i noe i cant get used to seeing *you so often.. otherwise come 15 jan.. it'll be another heart ache for me.. my mind's still in a flurry.. everything seems so unreal.. im actualli confused.. the feeling of being mixed up sucks.. and i can only wait n see what the future holds.. i just want it to be the way i've envisioned it to be.. nothing more nothing less..

last day of 2005...

2005-12-31T05:22:00.000+08:00

it's 5 am.. most of you all must be sleeping by now.. not me.. i just came back from an eventful day.. went to town with daddy to shop.. bot 2 white handbags for myself.. 1 white handbag for my mummy ( yes i love white handbags..) and also a black satin topshop top.. (which i just wore actualli.. heh)

had 2a class gathering at shuo hui's place.. it was great meeting up with all of them again.. bout 12 of us.. but yah good enuff for me.. i had so much fun and a great time catching up with the girls.. cant wait for the next 2a outing.. it's so comforting to know that after so long.. we're still so close and bonded tog.. :)

on the way back.. a call came.. "eh gia leh.. phuture..." haha yes i went home changed n went out again.. :P it was damn fun.. meeting up with frens whom i haven met in ages.. in a sense i do miss phuture.. yet i noe that my new hangout place will eventually be MoS.. i mean free invites.. who can resist? :P the next time i have the invites.. im def jio-ing jap col n shaun.. these poor folks haven had the chance to check out mos.. and thanks Y for sabo-ing ar.. idiot.. im never gonna play finger guessing with u animore.. hmph~

so that ends my lovely happy day.. met up with soooooo many frens from the past.. it's like im reliving my sec sch days again.. moreover shuo hui's place was where i had some bbq-cum-getting super dirty with the gang my clique used to hang out with.. just brings back sweet memories.. :)

i foresee a sweet dream tonite.. and a superb 2006.. heh..

those going for the mambo party at expo.. pls call me!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

mambo mambo mamboooooooo

2005-12-30T04:20:00.000+08:00

mambo-ed last nite as usual.. heh.. with *him.. just us and his fren on the podium.. our lil corner..

as i stood on the podium last nite.. quite a lot ran thru my mind.. i remember how i laughed at the people doing the actions when i first started clubbing 3 years back.. i rem how my friends and i will follow a few actions for the kick of it.. i remember not understanding the logic behind the synchronised actions..

3 years later.. esp after knowing *him.. my mambo king.. i finally understood why.. the first few times on the podium with *him.. i was still dancing my usual way.. not knowing the actions to any of the songs.. maybe a few here n there.. and i started learning the moves.. partly coz i din wanna be the onli one on the podium who din noe anithing.. *noob*.. heh..

week after week of mambo.. i realised that i noe more n more moves and yah up til todae i still aint an expert yet.. though i can safely dance out maybe 3 songs.. lol.. but u see.. u'll actualli get hooked onto it once u noe the actions.. it proves how zai you are.. it shows that u're a lao jiao and u smirk when people on the floor try to follow u.. haha i aint that huge a mambo fan.. and podium standing is onli when im with him.. i dun deny that i enjoy myself.. it's fun learning new moves each week.. it's fun when u noe the movements and 'show off' to the rest.. best part is when u noe people are watching you and copying you.. heh..

mambo nite.. either you hate it or you love it.. during blast yest.. pat was somewhat criticising mambo nite.. like wth is that kinda thing.. that's the thing.. he doesnt understand the beauty of mambo nite.. i mean where else in the world would u have people doing such stuff.. even if MoS plays retro.. do you actualli see people doing synchronised actions?? that's wad makes mambo at zouk so so special.. it's the onli place in the world where u see such stuff...

i do actualli feel a bit cheesed off when people criticise mambo.. i mean if u hate it den just dun go there.. there are so many other places to go.. so stfu and let the mambo lovers enjoy their mambo nites.. i can do without the podium or the actions.. but i noe of a lot of people who cant.. to them.. mambo nites are a must in their weekly activities list.. n i noe the reason why :P

N-A-R-U-T-O!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-28T03:14:00.000+08:00

hello world.. im happy today :)

past 2 days been naruto-ing with babey.. haha 40 plus episodes in 2 days.. are we zai or wad??? :P

wanted to watch naruto tonite.. but decided to wait until he comes over to watch it with me.. otherwise he'll make me rewatch them! (not that i mind :P)

cai's party last nite was quite fun.. reached just in time for all the action.. *censored censored censored*.. met up with the 01 vj peeps.. :) n saw a side of cai i never saw b4.. haha..

just attended huisin's bdae party.. happy 21st girl!!! :) happy birthday jiating too!!!!!!!! :) now we're all 21 already.. heh.. shiok or wad!!!

all thanks to you.. i've been happy the past few days.. *hugs*

MERRY CHRISTMAS MY DARLING FRIENDS!

2005-12-25T12:06:00.000+08:00

heh.. thus ends my blogging hiatus.. im back!!! :)

a brand new start.. to a lot of things.. wanted to change my blogskin actualli but couldnt find ani that i like.. oh well..

im kinda ok from chicken pox already.. spots are actualli still there.. but dried up.. no longer contagious since 1 week back.. n me being me.. have been out shopping.. meeting friends.. spending time with my special someone.. :P and my first mambo in a long while.. heh..

the past few days have been a rollercoaster ride for me.. there were many times i was disappointed and depressed.. i guess many wun understand what i've been thru.. the emotional turmoil.. but once again.. my dearies have come to my rescue.. thanks :) i love you girls.. for just being ever so sweet to me..

checked out MoS too~ managed to cut queue with the help of my didi.. amazing how his friend can recognise me after so long.. maybe it's just me n my lousy recognition skills.. heh..

ladeedar.. im happy today~ maybe it was my secret rendezvous last nite.. or maybe.. love is in the air~ :P whee~

Listen to your heart

2005-12-18T13:01:00.000+08:00

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

more awake and clearer den ever..

2005-12-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

at this very point in time.. i suddenly find myself enlightened.. after being trapped in a complicated web for a relatively long period of time.. i find myself wanting out.. i definitely will not share a guy with some other girl(s).. n i definitely do not want a guy who is not 100% committed to me.. funny it took me so long to finally see what i've been screwing myself over.. i guess the signs were all there.. if only i took a step back.. but it's better late den never.. at least im at peace with myself.. at least i'm walking away knowing i've made the right choice.. painful it might be for now.. but i'd rather suffer now than later.. no more tears i tell myself.. no more..

day 7 of the chicken pox.. infected but there's antibiotics to counter it.. there are things much more important den just my dumb chicken pox.. maybe staying at home for the past few days has done me good..

come back in a few days time.. im taking a break from blogging.. peace..

and the war with the pox continues..

2005-12-14T01:47:00.000+08:00

so day 6 of the pox.. everything's the same.. fever's gone.. no new spots appearing.. *thank God*.. but.. i had difficulty breathing the whole day.. dunno if im allergic to the antiviral med or wad.. but it's been bugging me all day.. din wanna alert my parent initially but figured by nite time that i wun tell them if i was still uncomfortable.. so let's just hope things wun get worse tonite or u'll see me in a&e.. i seriously doubt it.. the tightness in the chest is bearable.. so i'll leave it til tmr morn to visit the doc.. let's just hope it's some rxn to the antiviral n nothing else..

day 2 of blast camp.. i bet they must be having fun! salsa/lindy hop master class n jazz master class! i wanna do jazzzzz.... the campers must be choreo-ing their dance now for the mini dance comp tmr.. hee..

been watching dvds the past few days.. aeon flux was not too bad! a lil like the island though but yah i liked it.. the gurl is so so pretty! :) watched into the blue too.. jessica albaaaaa!!! but the scenes a lot like v fake.. for instance.. talking underwater.. wth lar.. even pro divers use the scribe lor.. n.. dun use oxygen tank can stay underwater for so long meh.. i dun believe! somemore so deep.. lol.. but i guess it just a moovie... caught the exorcism of emily rose too.. quite a good show.. at least i wasnt that freaked out..

the one movie u have to watch... wallace n gromit.. the curse of the were rabbit!!! haha damn damn funny.. maybe coz the show reminds me of my fatty pampered chubby bunny at home.. so somehow keeps wanting to be stroked todae.. lol.. but it's realli funny.. catch it when it comes out.. :)

ok time for the antiviral med.. n some sleep b4 i have to wake up 4.5 hours later to take it again.. bleahz.. shall blog more tmr~

thanks laopo n shuo for calling me today to entertain me :) heh thanks daniel daniel for the oc seaseon 3 episodes 1 n 2!!

n im awaiting for someone special's return coz i got a big big pressie this xmas!!!!!!!!!!!! *big big grin*

xmas wish list...

2005-12-13T02:21:00.000+08:00

to add on to my 7 wonders post.. here's the 7 items i want for xmas this yr..

1. black ralph lauren top (on model at suntec branch) $189
2. white soft leather DKNY handbag $175 (after a whopping 50% disc!)
3. ELLE handbag $109
4. Guess denim skirt $106
5. Topshop denim skirt $79
6. Dorothy Perkins turqoise top $69
7. Adidas Pink top $49

judging from my available finances.. i've decided to forego items 1 and 3 to get item 2..

the spots are starting to realli itch.. urgh.. so so disgusting.. n fever's coming on n off.. other den that.. im ok.. day 5 of the pox.. 9 more days to endure!!!!!!!!!! i need to go shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7 wonders..

2005-12-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

i bet everyone knows about 7 wonders of the world.. but how many can you name?? i onli managed 5.. out of which.. 1 was wrong.. coz all along i tot niagara falls was one of the 7 wonders.. *beep* i was wrong!!

since i have nothing better to do.. i figured i might as well.. once n for all.. do my research on the 7 wonders.. learnt a lot actualli.. :) different sites quotes different places.. but after sieving thru over 20 websites related to the 7 wonders.. here's the list.. *grin*

the 7 wonders of the natural world

1. Mount Everest in Nepal
2. Victoria Falls in Zambia/Zimbabwe
3. Grand Canyon in Arizona, USA
4. Great Barrier Reef in Australia
5. Aurora Borealis "Northern Lights"
6. Paricutin volcano in Mexico
7. Harbor of Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

the 7 wonders of the ancient world (these are all man made)

1. The Great Pyramid of Egypt (only this has survived til today)
2. The Hanging Gardens of Babylon
3. The Statue of Zeus at Olympia
4. The Temple of Artemis at Ephesus
5. The Mausoleum at Halicarnassus
6. The Colossus of Rhodes
7. The Lighthouse of Alexandria

so what happened to the great wall of china and my niagara falls???

according to this website, the great wall of china belongs to the 7 wonders of the medieval mind.. and my niagara falls belongs to the 7 forgotten natural wonders of the world.. wtf is that.. but if u go by that website.. i visited the empire state building.. which is under the 7 wonders of the modern world.. also the golden gate bridge when i was realli young.. haha under the forgotten wonders.. the sydney opera house (been inside.. performed in there..) n statue of liberty..

from wikipedia..

existing 7 wonders..
1. Great Pyramid of Giza
2. Great Wall of China
3. Taj Mahal
4. Serengeti Migration
5. Galapagos
6. Grand Canyon
7. Machu Picchu

7 wonders of the modern world..
1. Channel Tunnel
2. CN Tower
3. Empire State Building
4. Golden Gate Bridge
5. Itaipu Dam
6. Netherlands' Tidal Defences
7. Panama Canal

natural wonders.. same as the natural wonders list above..

7 underwater wonders
1) Palau
2) Belize Barrier Reef
3) Great Barrier Reef
4) Deep-Sea Vents
5) Galapagos Islands
6) Lake Baikal
7) Northern Red Sea

and you thought there were ONLY 7 wonders of the world... think again!!

and here's something extra i would like to share.. still related to the 7 wonders but not quite.. click to view!

chicken pox chicken pox chicken pox

2005-12-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

argh..... more new spots!!!! all over my body!! n face!! n scalp!!!! EEEUUUUWWWW!! i look hideous!!! sob... mummy applied calamine lotion for me to stop the itching.. looked fresh n clean after my nice warm shower... onli to appear all white n calamine-d soon after.. sigh.. pls dun come n visit me.. i realli look super unglam.. :(

the spots are starting to itch now.. n with more appearing.. i wonder how much of it i can take.. resistance is futile.. haha im sure.. anihow trying to not think bout the itch and sms someone or type faster on my lappie when the itch starts..

i wanna hug my frens who have shown so much love to me.. but not now.. wait u all kana the virus.. not my fault ar!!

to all the BLASTards!!! have fun at camp tmr!!!!!!!!!!!! it'll be one heck of an experience! :)

i feel like doing something evil.. like taking pictures of my spots n uploading them here.. hahaha gross u all out.. any takers?? :P u can request for any part of the body EXCEPT the face..

isolation... is not good for me... i cant be stuck at home lar!!! been going out everyday.. I NEED TO SHOP!!!! i wanna buy a lot of things!!! i must help the singapore economy!!!

sigh.. expect more blog entries.. jennifer is gonna be a bored lonely gurl at home... thank God for the teevee n the internet.. otherwise i'd rather just go n die..

i hate chicken little.. i hate chicken pox the most!

2005-12-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

OMFG.. I HAVE CHICKEN POX!!!!!!!! *wails* why now why now why now??? i still wanna go out.. i still wanna shop.. i still wanna club.. i still wanna chill with my friends!!!

oh no.. will i be spotty during xmas!! 2 weeks.. i should recover by xmas.. I DUN WAN ANY SPOTS ON ME AT XMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just let me go n die.. I AM SO UPSET... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck..

I WANNA CRY...

*enters 2 weeks of solitude n loneliness.. :'( *

strikes one off my wish list!

2005-12-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

i bot the topshop denim skirt!! :P

tried on a dorothy perkins top too.. so so nice! but it's 69 bucks! urgh.. :(

feeling damn sick now.. sorry friends for not meeting up tonite.. really feel like crap.. it's like all of a sudden my flu took a turn for the worse.. i just hope it aint chicken pox..

i want my babey... *whines*

sick but happy lil gurl...

2005-12-09T12:58:00.000+08:00

seems like i haven recovered from the exams yet.. this exams realli wiped out all my brain cells.. been sleeping at 3 4 am everynite.. cant fall asleep.. it's like my brain's still active or something.. been trying to sleep at 130 the past 3 nites but i always cant seem to fall asleep.. oh well.. at least i dun have to be up earli the next day.. den again im always up b4 noon.. cant seem to sleep past noon..

yesterdae was a really good day.. chillin with dawn shim yoon n dawn's fren ade at caffe di rosta.. people watching.. nua-ing.. bitching.. talking bout our sec sch days.. haha fubu jeans.. cross colours.. alien belt.. what not.. so so funny.. what were we thinking man.. baggy jeans??? lol.. i love chilling out!!!! this is the life man.. :)

thanks cai for lending me ur zoukout tic.. i'll pass it back to u if im not going tonite.. :P

gonna get ready.. im going shopping!!! hahaha.. so many things to buy.. i still cant decide whether i wanna get the elle bag or the dkny bag.. as for the ralph lauren top.. i tink 189 bucks can fetch me a whole shitload more stuff at far east.. so i tink i'll pass on that.. n i wanna buy a dress for xmas!!!! heh.. :) time to shop for presents too!!!

retail therapy retail therapy retail therapy... *big big grin*

i miss mamboooo....

2005-12-08T01:28:00.000+08:00

someone asked me.. you never update ur blog?? heh.. oopz.. just been too lazy..

been thinking of shutting this down n getting a whole spanking new blog.. this blog is too easily searchable.. and as much as i say it's a public one.. i dun really want strangers reading about my daily life.. hmm ponder ponder..

for now.. quick bites on my life.. heh..

still sick.. down with the damn flu.. urgh.. it just wun go away...

went shopping the past 2 days! (pls skip to 2 paras after this if u're not interested in shopping)

met up with mich n loo to go shopping.. heh best part was.. we were all in orange!! oh man... it's as though we planned it or wad.. but no we din! it was totally by chance! haha i tink we must have looked like some bimbos who realli went to plan and decided orange was the colour of the day.. lol.. so aniwae.. shop shop shop shop.. in the end i bought a pretty brown top! to those who wanna see it.. come mambo next wed.. haha i'll be wearing it! :P din really buy much stuff though.. but i saw a denim skirt that i wanna get.. and im deciding between a 104 bucks elle bag and a 175 DKNY bag.. (which used to cost 350 bucks.. a whopping 50% disc..) oh man.. so so tempting! the elle bag is so pretty.. unique and it's so ME.. but the DKNY bag is gorgeous! white soft leather.. omg..

met up with wanni today to shop.. saw this freaking chio 189 bucks polo ralph top.. it's just plain satin black.. the model on the display in suntec is wearing it.. omg.. i tried it on.. in XS somemore.. n it fits oh-so-perfectly!! with a 20% disc.. the top still costs 150 bucks.. but it's just so so lurvely.. i AM actualli comtemplating whether to get it.. it just so perfect! the salesman was laughing at our indecisiveness.. urgh.. stupid dodo.. haha girls are fickle.. n when it comes to tops costing more den 100.. we realli have to think about it realli realli carefully b4 buying it! bleahz.. the brown corduroy jacket i tried on was pretty too! but it's 246!!! tried on a guess denim skirt which costs 106 bucks.. perfect fit too! but i already have another one in mind.. hee..

yest: went down to changi simei cc to support matt harold steph n the other hong zu members for their performance.. :) not too bad i must say.. but still needs more polishing somehow.. energy level a bit low.. den went to siglap for coffee~ yummy yummy starbucks.. heh.. vanilla frap with a mint shot! (coz they din have irish cream.. bleahz..) oh i got lost while trying to find the cc.. turned into the correct lane.. (the cc was actualli up ahead) but i tot to myself.. damn dead end.. wrong place! ok 3 point turn out... den i ended up at blk 148 n 149 which my 'trusted' street directory said the cc was supposed to be between.. i saw nothing.. asked this kind malay guy for help n he gave mi the directions which led me back to the 'dead end' i was at originally! urgh.. im such an idiot!!!

todae: yoon joined mi n wanni for lunch at crystal jade.. haha most humourous of my crystal jade experience but yah.. lunch was fantastic! we over-ordered though.. in the end still have to da-bao.. heh..

okie time for bed.. meeting the gurls tmr in town! yippee!! maybe i shall go cut my fringe b4 meeting them.. i wanna cut hair!!! but i just cut it not too long ago! bleahz... so i shall shorten the fringe coz it's too long already.. not nice.. cant wait! :)

bugged by the flu..

2005-12-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

so just after 4 days of partying.. the flu bug has finally hit me.. so so bad.. i just feel like sleeping all day..

fri: met up with jason.. like after dunno how many years since i've known him.. for swensen's ice cream~ borrowed some vcds from him too.. heh.. den i met adam korkor in town for dinner.. hey bro.. hope u're feeling better now.. dun really know how to help you but i hope at least i cheered u up somewhat..

ended the nite off with phuture-ing with shim + jon, jason n john.. n jon's frens.. and it happened that it was kenneth's bdae too.. so loadz of drinks.. met up with chalk lionel shaun.. n a few others..

here comes the surprising part.. i PUKED.. yes.. n we all tot i could hold it all in.. n i myself tot i've trained well enuff to not puke.. but no.. not fri nite.. after 1/2 jug of long island.. 3 apple shooters.. 3 illusions.. 2 kamikazes.. 1 quickfuck.. 1 sambooka.. (not counting the stronger den usual housepours..) yeah i puked 3 times!! omg.. so so disgusting n unglam! but at least im a 'considerate' puker n din do damage to anyone or anithing.. *phew* thanks jon for the ride back n thanks shim.. once again u saved my ass.. n i realise the next morning that.. after puking.. u dun get a hangover the next morn! haha (ok it's not funny.. :X)

caught RENT with huiwen on sat at kallang theatre.. acoustics bad.. the performance wasnt that good i felt.. but the story plot was very close to my heart.. speaking about how friendship n love are the most important things in the world.. rather den wealth or fame.. cliched i noe.. but it realli is true..

attended janice dearie's 21st bdae party at goodwood park hotel.. a samll gathering of about 20 plus of her close friends.. i went anyway despite not knowing anyone there.. just told myself i'd leave earli if i realli felt extra.. coz you see.. 1/2 the grp are her med frens.. n the other 1/2 are her rgs frens.. so basically i felt damn damn extra.. thank god for liangshuo.. if it werent for him.. i would have just sat there n stoned all nite..

we headed down to acid bar for drinks after which.. n we made janice a really happy gurl.. haha i must say she's a good drinker.. she had a flaming n waterfall.. n a blowjob n a 151.. and she was still ok.. high nonetheless but not concussed.. *applauds* if i were her.. i tink i would have concussed by den.. lol.. i din realli drink much.. 2 apple shooters.. 1 glass of moet.. 1 151.. n that's it.. but the flu bug was realli killing me.. i went home.. popped a cold tablet n panadol n went to bed.. thanks liangshuo for the ride back :) it's funny how we knew each other from pri sch.. met again in vj.. but we never really talked.. im glad i had u for company last nite :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE DEARIE!!! :)

sundae: woke up to a v v bad aching body.. went to church den visited the doctor n concussed the whole afternoon.. woke up to a bad headache n zonked out feeling.. gonna idle the rest of my sunday away.. hopefully i'll be up n running by tmr.. urgh.. i hate the flu...

one last thing.. i am NOT an ALCOHOLIC! so pls stop calling me that.. i am not addicted to alcohol ok.. pls get this str8!

so so tireddddddd..

2005-12-02T11:39:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog last nite but i was so so so concussed.. my dear fren called me at 10 freaking am.. which gave me a good 3.5 hours sleep.. n somehow my active brain just refuses to shut down.. was wide wide awake sia.. hung around online for a while heading down to the bus stop for laopo to fetch me.. haha.. :P direction idiot lar u.. tsk tsk nudge nudge..

lunch was settled at pastamania at scotts.. we got a free ice lemon tea just by acting blur.. and the best part of the lunch was..

"laopo: eh now what time ar?
me: *checks my watch* oh shit! 220!!!
laopo: ar??? faster eat faster eat!!"

both of us were laughing hysterically.. haha happily enjoying our lunch when our movie was at 220 at lido!!!!!!! haha.. luckily we managed to get there just as the movie started.. lol..

shopping shopping shopping den met up with shim n dawn for coffee~ laopo went to meet his another fren at bout 7.. shim went to meet jon.. so me n dawn headed to nydc for a nice dinner :) continued shopping around while waiting for shim n jon to be done.. den dawn's jon came.. n we basically lepaked til 10.. the 2 couples went to watch saw 2.. n the v v tired me went home.. at like 9pm i was already in a daze.. things were in a blur n haha yah i just wanted to sleep..

honestly.. now i feel like i have nothing better to do.. haha just willing time away in town.. hanging out with frens.. SHOPPING!.. coffee.. clubbing.. what not.. but.. that's how life should be.. :)

ps: after much consideration.. i decided to finally post this.. maybe im jealous.. but i guess it's more like i hate being made used of.. if u wanna noe my fren.. go str8 to her.. dun fucking make use of me to get to know her.. coz it's rude n clearly im not respected as a fren.. so thanks for making me feel soooo treasured as a fren... i realli 'appreciate' it.. was damn fucking irritated the other nite.. being nice doesnt mean you can make use of me all the time.. so there..

mambooooooooooooooooooooo

2005-12-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

heh ok more like phuture-d.. it was a good thing by the way.. i heard mambo sucked.. and for the short time i was there.. the songs were crap.. oh well.. maybe the mambo dj is losing his touch.. or maybe i should stay there all nite one day n see it for myself..

somehow the crowd at phuture is getting worse.. we so need to find a new hangout place..

last nite was great!!!! we were all surviving on house pours until 11 pm came.. den whack ar! haha shots lar.. flaming lar.. long island lar.. haha got me spinning for a while.. but yeah i was fine as the nite progressed and i danced it off.. :)

*hugs* to shim jon dawn jon adam n jeff! n also to my didi.. n not forgetting blast prens! :) but stupid maki left earli.. bleahz.. heh practically the whole world was there last nite.. haha for those who werent there.. where were u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUILING! :)

woke at 10.. somehow couldnt get back to sleep animore.. walas tonite? hmm i tink i'll give it a pass..haha..

gonna go meet chris (finally back from aussie!) for lunch in a bit~

last paper syndrome

2005-11-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

super duper sian.. no mood to study at all.. i slept the whole afternoon away! omg.. i cant believe i slept THAT much.. grrr.. oh well.. but im realli realli sick of studying.. see the notes already damn turn off.. sigh.. the last paper syndrome strikes again..

my mind keeps drifting off to mambo.. haha.. the challenge continues at phuture tmr.. *winks*

i received something really really sweet today.. SNAIL MAIL! omg.. i was so so shocked n touched when i received.. a letter full of sincerity and care from a fren.. who is probably reading this right now.. n dun worry i wun disclose ur identity.. but it was a really really sweet gesture.. :) you really made my day... amidst all the turmoils.. it's heartening to find that your friends still care so much for you despite themselves going thru so much..

in another 15 more hours.. i'll be free.. freedom never tasted so sweet...

to the one who's been with me thru it all..

2005-11-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

Don't say it as often as I should
But I really want it to be heard
When I say I love you that's for good
You have my word
That day after day after all
I will always be true
That's a promise I make to you

just wanna say thanks :)

brain dead...

2005-11-28T01:52:00.000+08:00

pharmaco was ok i guess.. though i blanked out and wrote stupid drug names.. haha couldnt realli recall what i've studied... like onli the gist of it.. let's hope i do ok for that..

human disease this wed.. which is also mambo nite! haha keep thinking of playing.. like the last paper dun matter sia.. happily slacked the weekend away.. luckily i was in the lib in the afternoon for a while.. managed to study a lil.. cancer, diabetes, atherosclerosis, alzheimer's n obesity.. 5 different diseases.. a ton load to enter into my lil brain.. which by the way is still saturated with pharmaco..

to be honest.. i do like pharmaco.. it's interesting and relatively easy to understand.. but i hate having to memorise all the drug names and mechanism of action n the side effects blah blah blah.. as for human disease.. i dunno how well i can score for that.. essay qns.. eeeeuuuwww.. why no mcq one?? grrr.. im so gonna take physio next sem.. the final exam is mcq! haha.. i prefer shading lil circle than writing pages n pages of essays anytime!

mugging session with shim todae was not too bad.. haha mugged outside the sci lib coz i din wanna be in an air con place.. the day b4 with jt n kel totally sucked.. all of a sudden central lib's aircon was v cold n the air was v dry.. i felt sick after a while.. (like you would be interested in this.. haha)

for the more juicy part.. im hooked on solitaire showdown!! so next time if u're bored n wanna play that.. jio me ok!!! :P thanks to wj, zl, hj mummy and amos for playing this stupid game with me the past few days.. dunno why im so addicted to it aniwae.. lol..

mambo on wed! i cant wait!!!! blast outing!! gether gether! :P

fun day with pharmaco...

2005-11-24T20:25:00.000+08:00

darling yoon played me n dawn out by not coming to sci lib to mug with us.. haha in the end dawn's oh-so-nice jon came to fetch us from sch to my place.. where we ate our hearts out and mugged our brain cells away..

pharmaco is realli THE killer paper.. n we studied til we went mad.. started coming up with.. 'eh let's name our kids drug names in future! A is for abciximab.. B for betamethasone.. C for clopidogrel.. D for despiramine.. E for etanercept.. F for fluticasone.. G.. for.. err crap.. got any drug with G anot??'.. haha u get the point.. i almost wanted to rename chubby to.. omalizumab! haha that's such a cute name.. so alien-sounding.. haha and the best part.. dawn wanted to have ALL the diseases so that she can rem all the drug names that need to be taken to reduce or relieve the symptoms.. muahahhaha.. all study until siao already..

even went to disturb cai.. first time talking from my house to ur house eh! haha..

a whole shitload more to study.. wish me luck.. muackz..

to those who has finished exams: dun call me until the 30th!!!!
to those who are still struggling with me.. jiayou!!! it's gonna be over soon! HOLIDAYS!!! heh

plans for kl tripping pending.. i hope my parents will allow me to go! *keeps fingers crossed*

n jb tripping too.. el shall organise! *point arrow* haha

oh well.. b4 all that.. it's back to pharmacology.. boohoo..

2 papers down.. 2 more to go...

2005-11-23T02:07:00.000+08:00

i cant wait.. 30th nov is approaching!!! mambo nite with the blast peeps!!! whee~ :P

but for now.. it's the awfully long wait til that day.. 2 core mods left.. 2 killer papers.. pharmaco and human disease.. so so scary.. esp pharmaco..

now with food n health out of the way.. i can fully conc on pharmaco.. n die on fri! billion and one drugs, side effects, mech of action etc to learn.. how fun!

i miss dance.. i miss my blast prens.. i miss lepaking..

central lib n sci lib have become my 2nd home.. 1/2 my day is spent there.. unbelievable..

ps really random thoughts.. im up at 2 but i aint studying.. completely distracted.. it's time to sleep n mug at sci lib tmr..

2005-11-20T10:44:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of *you last nite.. i dreamt you called and we spoke n everything was ok..

it was all but a dream..

nothing unusual nothing strange

2005-11-19T02:31:00.000+08:00

just back from a nite out with dawn n bf (happy birthday jon!), her cousins justin n adam.. n shim n bf.. chillin at liat starbucks was.. peaceful.. def moments when i thought about *you.. nothing new..

protein paper today was bad.. to think there are people who said it was easy.. oh man im screwed.. next major paper is pharmaco.. better start studying for it now.. if not i'll confirm die.. 80% paper.. freaking heavy.. grrr..

so anyway here's my conversation with chalk just 10 min ago.. when i was complaining to him about pharmaco.. damn funny.. chalk.. u're my crappiest friend can! can give u award le.. im sure no one can beat u..

JeN -trying to get over you- says:
diff leh.. next major one coming up.. i need to remember super a lot of drug names.. n their side effects etc.. damn sian

Table Knives and Bleeding Hearts says:
marijuana - makes ur reaction slow, bloodshot eyes, increase in appetites
LSDs - makes u slow, hallucinations, lose apetite and loss of sleep
Heroin - Bone ache, sleepnessness, fatigue

Table Knives and Bleeding Hearts says:
Shrooms - Gain in appetite, makes u slow

Table Knives and Bleeding Hearts says:
Ketamine - Sweat a lot, Gain appetite, makes u slow
Table Knives and Bleeding Hearts says:
E and ice - Makes u slow, hallucinate, thirsty

Table Knives and Bleeding Hearts says:
see A+ liao

JeN -trying to get over you- says:
hahaha u go take the paper for me lar

Table Knives and Bleeding Hearts says:
sure deans list one..

Table Knives and Bleeding Hearts says:
confirm plus chop

lol.. wad a joker..

ps thanks friends for cheering me up.. n to *you.. no one's calling you the bad guy.. no one said you were..

all but an illusion..

2005-11-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

i broke down in central lib level 6 toilet this morn.. im such a loser.. but i couldnt help it..

even wanted to resort to vitamin c.. shim n dawn stopped me yest.. but they let me try it today.. somehow i din.. it's just not me to do so.. den again if it kills the pain.. why not.. maybe tmr.. i'll give vitamin c a shot..

for now.. alcohol shall remain as my new best fren.. my sleeping pill.. thank goodness for the unlimited supply in my kitchen cupboard.. free flow ar!!! lol..

studying in central lib somehow is more fun and productive.. too distracted in sci lib already.. at least the occasional laughs in the lib is good..

i really need to stop thinking about *you... i really need to stop missing *you...

all because you kissed her goodnite..

2005-11-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

firstly.. yah i know.. my english sucks. period. i am afterall not an english major.

2ndly.. i dun see the point in rebutting anything.. i dun have to prove it to anyone..

3rdly.. to end a 2 1/2 yr r/s over msn.. *applauds*

thanks to all my frens who really care about me.. im really touched.. :) but i aint breaking down in front of you all..

one thing i regret doing yesterdae.. drinking almost one whole bottle of sheridan.. n concussing in my room.. only to suffer the effects of a freaking bad hangover in school today.. i burned my stomach.. thus proving my point again that alcohol without food is very very bad.. headache was so bad i had to buy panadol.. spin spin spin.. i realise i feel the whole world is spinning when im drunk.. i was fine for that moment.. i was able to sleep.. reality hit me hard yet again when i opened my eyes...

if caring and cherishing about someone means letting the person go.. i'll let *you go no matter how fucking hurt i am rite now.. time will heal.. i noe.. but the time will not be soon.. anyhow thanks for loving me in your own special way.. n i hope you'll be happy..

2005-11-15T16:34:00.000+08:00

i wanted to type an entry to seek justice for my actions.. but i dun see the point anymore..

*you just dun bother.. *you just choose to walk away.. coz *you feel it's a small issue.. haha.. i really should invite guys over to my palce to stay and not tell you n see how you feel about it..

i really should ask my guy friends to put up my picture on their friendster profiles and see how u react..

i really should ask my guy frens to dedicate blog entries to me..

but no.. i wun.. im not such a bitch..

i have better things to do.. like study for my exams and shut this whole episode away.. maybe it's really better this way.. goodbye

and ps.. i really hate people who block me on their msn..

2005-11-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

im fuckin crying and you dun even know it.. or maybe you just dun bother..

do i not mean anything to you anymore?

2005-11-14T02:38:00.000+08:00

just done with the freaking human disease lab report.. last report for this sem.. phew.. spent one whole day on it!

teevee nite as usual every sunday.. i heart the apprentice and my date with the vampire~ heh.. tianya's so so pretty! but of coz i still like ma xiaoling! heh..

too many commercials on the chi numa numa.. it's disgusting.. dunno wad kan jian zhang lang bu pa bu pa aye... see a cockroach not scared not scared aye??? eeeuuuwwww... what's wrong with the chinese people??? like seriously.. ran out of orginal songs? or suddenly all the song writers disappeared? man.. it really sucks..

mugging at central lib yet again tmr with the usual gang n blast peeps! whee~ heh.. will someone wake me up an 8 freaking am????

2005-11-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

this song reminds me of *you.. it's been on repeat the whole sunday as im doing my lab report and chatting with *you.. n i still aint sick of it... yet.. *smiles*

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away

I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say

Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

I don't want to go another
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts

Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever

drained of energy..

2005-11-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

for the past few days. my life's been pretty much routine.. wake up.. go to sch... central lib lvl 6 usual table.. mug mug mug.. taking occasional breaks when frens come over or i go find fren to talk talk.. den going back home when the lib starts playing music n threatens to off all the lights after 5 min.. haha thanks kel for all the lifts :)

oh results for human disease are finally out.. i did pretty ok i guess.. den again there are those who totally spoil the market n got full marks.. i mean like.. how the hell do u get full marks for essays??? bleahz.. spoilerrrrrrr... nonetheless at least i din fail or whatsoever.. one lab report to complete by tmr coz it's due on mon.. lol..

so so tired.. gonna sleep rite after im done blogging.. only had 2 hours of sleep the prev nite.. n no.. it's not coz i was studying.. it's coz i was hanging out with my usual lovelies.. :) a fonecall from shim at 10 when i was on my way home in kel's car became a hanging out session at haagen daaz at siglap.. shim ling dawn jon n syl (n of coz me) then turned into greedy monsters and headed down in jon's car to east coast macs for supper.. lol.. it was actually my dinner considering that kel helped smuggle in a waffle for me and el got me devilish twist from sci :) 'ai xin' "dinner" from frens.. really appreciate it~

anyhow the fone call from my best fren at 7 freaking am just about did me in.. napped twice in the lib todae.. went back in the evening n slept.. even skipped the family dinner i was supposed to have with my family.. oh well.. i must study n finish my lab report tmr!! diabetes is killing me... sob..

i dunno how im gonna finish studying.. not even thru with round 1.. this totally sucks..

tiredddd...

2005-11-10T02:54:00.000+08:00

long long day today.. woke up at 7 freaking am for my 8am class.. onli to find that it was totally useless and a huge waste of my time! went over to yoon's room to sleep b4 heading for pharmaco lect.. not too bad.. just that the lecturer went too fast.. oh well.. that marked the last lect for this sem.. yippee~ exams are coming... boo~

my first attempt at dota failed horribly.. firstly.. the characters look the same to me.. 2ndly i get a headache maneouvring my way around the place.. thirdly.. my coordination or whatnot got problem.. hence i shall remain as a dota noob and shant bother about this animore.. lol.. i really dun understand how guys can get hooked to this.. it aint that exciting.. n it's a reali long game! played for like 45 min n it still wun end! i tink im happy just msn-ing and blog hopping.. :P

i am so tired.. yet i need all the energy boost i can for this last lap of the sem.. nobody said it was easy.. that's precisely why we are all mugging our asses off.. us poor students.. boohoo..

it's time to crawl into my nice comfy bed.. it's gonna rain.. n the rain always reminds me of that certain someone..

spectacular spectacular~

2005-11-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

was fortunate enough to be the inner door usher at circle 3 tonite for the imperial russion ballet of r n j.. so so so so nice!! omg.. i was mesmerised!! they make it look so easy when it's actualli not.. full house tonite.. same goes for tmr as well.. had fun working n watching the show.. heh.. n i met shuo hui!!! my cousin cum cedar classmate n her sis! so qiao~ v v happi to meet up with her.. now that i have her msn.. 2a'98 peeps... keep ur eyes n ears open! there's gonna be 2a the gathering real soon! probably in jan.. coz a lot of us are away on SEP now..

todae i went to sch for nothing.. i should have read the tut qns b4 coming.. totally waste of time.. me n dondon walked out of the lt.. cant stand the lecturer.. cant stand his.. 'i dunno' to most of the qns asked.. like wth lar.. dun have an ans den dun put the qn down lar!! realli waste time leh..

gelare's at holland v was great.. went tog with yoon shim n dondon~ i just lurve hanging out with them~ heh.. n we got study ok!!! :P

i heart sappy korean dramas.. boohoo.. cried buckets over the 2nd last episode of 'tian guo de jie qi' or something like that.. next mon chan u.. last episode!! must watch! heh..

time for bed.. 8 am class tmr.. grrrr...

'if u dun wanna tell me anithing.. it's fine..'

2005-11-08T02:53:00.000+08:00

was about to sleep when i did a bimbotic thing.. bleahz.. i was printing my notes.. den printer says no ink.. so i changed the catridge.. den somehow i started shaking the 'empty' catridge..and i was thought.. still got so much ink wad!! shake shake shake.. i got ink all over myself!!!!! boohoo.. scrubbed off all the ink and now im fresh n clean again.. so much for wanting to sleep earli.. heh

oh i forgot to add in the prev post.. daddy was made to sing the birthday song for mummy coz he din wish her happy birthday!! haha :P punishment~~~

mugging at central lib today was ok.. a bit distracting though.. i shall stick to level 5 reference.. so much quieter.. studied with yoon, shim, nikki, jo, paul, harold, elson.. but not all at the same time though.. but it was good.. all great study buddies :) i feel quite accomplished..

so bout wed nite.. haha nothing really much.. oh being the eve of a public holiday.. the queue was super long.. like how a normal queue would look like at 11 pm.. went with jap june n ashley, jo el john eugene and queued for a good 1/2 hour in the rain.. tahkfully it was onli a drizzle.. met ti eu, har n chalk at phuture.. met yoon at mambo too! so fun! heh.. had many many shots n jugs of alcohol but i was fine.. so unlike that fri nite when i concussed... yes up til today shim n gang are still teasing me about it.. bleahz.. and there was this guy who approached me n told me he was having a bachelor party coz he was getting married on sat.. treated mi n jo a shot of sex on the beach in exchange for my name n hp num.. which of coz i gave a fake number.. lol.. quite funny though..

hung around at phuture most of the time coz the music was good and also it was amazingly cooler n less crowded.. zouk on the other hand was like a suana.. in the end bout 2 plus i couldnt take it so off we went to mambo at zouk.. haha so fun!! :) my first mambo in a long long while.. my mambo was complete.. i got to do summer rain on the podium! haha tog with jo~ :P was thrilled to hear all those retro hits ringing in my ear once again.. heh but sadly i forgot a lot of the moves already.. nvm.. go more often n learn again haha.. partied til 5 n went home satisfied.. heh one of the best clubbing nites.. i totally enjoyed myself.. :)

pms-ing period is over.. the sun shines again.. jennifer is back to being her usual bubbly self~ :) muackz thanks frens for being so nice.. heh

birthdays~~~

2005-11-07T02:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY~!!!!! :)

had a nice lovely dinner at hot stones (thanks weijie for the reccomendation!) with the whole family.. ambience realli great.. the food's not bad too! something diff.. will post up pics tmr or something.. hee.. v happy.. n mummy's bdae cake was the white chocolate macademia from secret recipe!! so yummy! heh surprised her with a swatch.. :) she kinda chose it herself.. hee~

next up..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONDON!! :P

heh rushed down to dawn's place after dinner with shim.. pulled a realli nice stunt along the cte too.. remind me again to stick to ecp aye or sle.. me dun like pie cte.. heh.. :P yummy sweet secrets cake.. was too full to eat ani of the food.. but can tell dawn was realli happi.. and i was a lil disappointed in a few pple.. who last min found excuses not to go.. i mean if u dun intend to go den just say no lar.. anihow we still had a great time.. heh.. 'initial d-ed' with jonathan on the way home.. lol.. actualli not realli lar.. heh.. but on the way back i had this realli bad feeling that i'll crash the car or something.. so i was paying much much more attention to the roads.. looking out for pedastrians too.. thank God i made it home safely... bot dawn a swatch too :) to be shared among the 8 of us.. n shim me cher n yoon bot her an additional bobbi brown concealer! heh..

it's 2 and im beat.. din do ani mugging today.. tmr the mugging begins.. at central library level 6.. pop by if u're lonely and wan to meet me! haha.. *winks*

lonely....

2005-11-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

just back from a 8 course dinner with family n my dad's buddhist center people.. his 'shifu' came down to 'visit'.. just before leaving home.. i was hit with super bad cramps.. den i felt realli sick.. but i still went.. along the course of the dinner.. many jokes were made.. some i thought was really out of hand but i din say a thing.. religion issues again.. i guess it's better to just shut up n eat the food..

been pms-ing the past few days.. can feel myself getting pissed off for no rhyme no reason.. thank god i din blow up at anione.. but yeah it got me slightly depressed too.. kinda thought back about my r/s with *him.. like all the things we've been thru.. n yeah i do agree dat at times i might be that tad bit oversensitive over 'the same old issue'.. but u cant deny that the reson im feeling this way is coz of the well known saying 'once bitten twice shy'.. im really afraid.. vulnerable.. i dunno.. maybe i do feel lost n alone at times.. but i guess it's more of the uncertainty about what's happening over there rather den anithing else.. sometimes i feel that *he's still unsettled.. just a few days back.. someone left a comment on *his blog.. clearly indicating she tot he's single all along.. so how am i supposed to feel? i really dunno.. i guess he'll be unhappy once i post this up n he reads it but im realli not feeling ok now.. im realli not in the mood to hide things from him.. n i dun intend to..

shall blog bout my happy mambo nite another time.. not now.. not when im feeling depressed n lonely..

long d r/s.. definitely NOT easy.. not when it comes to the point when u dun even noe what the other person is doing on the other side of the world most of the time.. when u fear saying the wrong things coz u might be scolded stupid n useless.. when u cry when u talk to *him n the part when he says those 3 words to u.. coz those 3 words.. throws all the bad thoughts outta my head.. just those 3 simple words means the world to me... and through it all.. despite how im feeling.. i still find myself falling back into *your arms...

one more kiss could be the best thing.. one more lie could be the worst.. in my head there's only you now.. this world falls on me...

random rants.

2005-11-01T03:06:00.000+08:00

from a supposed wacky nite out at zouk became a nice quiet chill out nite with shim :) met her at siglap where we each had a smoothie n shared a muddy mud pie! yummyyy! *grinz*

what we talked about really set me thinking.. she asked me "dont u feel that it's wasted??" i told her.. maybe but it's the circumstances that made me as such..

im no longer the same girl i was 2 yrs ago.. i've grown.. changed.. for better or worse i dunno.. but there's def no turning back.. i've been thru a lot.. maybe not as much as others but still it's more than my heart could take..

den i thought to myself.. has the environment we're living in shaped us to what we are right now? ask urself then.. conformist or the one being conformed?

something i got from the teg's blog.. "what hurts more than losing you..is knowing you're not fighting to keep me.." shaun's realli good with words.. it just hits you right straight in ur heart.. just when u least expect it....

girls.. always so full of problems.. but dont guys have a part to play as well??

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

just another day...

2005-10-31T03:27:00.000+08:00

typical normal sunday.. my body aches from breaking class.. the knee drops n scissors spins.. the body aches indicate that im old.. n weak.. i need to have more strength so i can do breaking..

one week free trial pass.. looking at mtv, street jazz, j/k-pop, girls hh.. and breaking! but den again it depends on whether i have time this month to go.. exam period.. yet i aint suffering from exam fever... yet...

test this fri but it's halloween eve tmr.. damn.. should i go party or should i stay home n mug? decisions decisions.. no costume but i cant wear my bdae outfit n pose as a retro chick.. or wear my cedar or veejay uniform.. it'll be cool.. hmm tmr den decide lar..

"everyday i shed a tear or two for you.. for all the horrid times we've been thru.. yet i still love u regardless of what.. you just don't know it.. no one does.. it's painful but i'm holding on.. im surviving.."

especially for *you

2005-10-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.
But if destiny decided
I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you,
Just how much I really need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight?

my life is brilliant... but i was f**king high..

2005-10-29T16:42:00.000+08:00

firstly.. thanks to shim jus n jon for getting me home safely last nite.. :P and *points finger at adam!* all ur fault! grrr....

nonetheless.. dawn's bdae celebration last nite was great~ heh each of the girls had a flaming each.. woot~ plus we had dj milkz.. unfortunately i barely danced.. just sat there n stoned.. haha.. but yeah managed to get home safely thanks to my dearie shim.. with the help of the driver n the helper.. lol.. apologies to har n chalk though..

dragged myself outta bed at 10 this morn and got my ass down to studio wu.. took breaking class with elson tracy n nadine.. it's quite fun actualli! heh learnt a few techniques which looks damn difficult but actualli not that hard to execute.. hee.. but must practise.. n it was more tiring den expected..

next up was ryan's street jazz class! one of the best classes ever! except for the maluating part where ryan asked mi to shake my ass in front of the whole class.. everything else was fun.. v v diff way of teaching as compared to pat.. guess im more used to pat's style.. but ryan is so so comical and nice! love the way he teaches.. free 1 week trail pass to 5 classes! im gonna take all of ryan's classes! heh street jazz.. mtv.. what not.. n maybe one more breaking.. something diff from the usual hiphop i've been doing.. :) something fresh n i like it! hee..

so urops presentation totally sucked.. couldnt realli ans the qns but my prof was realli nice.. :) im so thankful for him.. he realli treats me v v well.. *grin* had blast last class.. shiok ar.. i loved the choreo.. but i tink the poor juniors were like dying.. they were struggling to keep up.. but it's good training.. push push push n soon u'll be able to get the steps..

den it was blast 4th anni! hee.. the yummylicious chocolate cake.. performances by the juniors.. photo taking.. gather gather of blastards.. *grin* i heart blast!! my big happi family!!!!!

so wed marked the end of my full ownage of baby six.. but it was good while it lasted.. :) heh..

i hate the way i am.. how i can never be angry with *you.. even though im upset.. i still cant find fault in *you.. i dunno what's going on over there.. but *you had better know.. When somebody loved me, Everything was beautiful. Every hour we spent together, Lives within my heart...

2005-10-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

his hello was the end of her endings
her laugh was their first step down the aisle
his hand would be hers to hold forever
his forever was as simple as her smile
he said she was what was missing
she said instantly she knew
she was a question to be answered
and his answer was i do

i just wish u were a lil nicer n give me the support i need

2005-10-26T02:23:00.000+08:00

urops presentation in a few hours time.. damn low morale.. n someone just made it that lil bit harder.. sigh..

the weekend's been great.. started off with coffee at starbucks.. ended up with a fun filled nite at zouk's reopening party.. dun understand why 6 million was spent.. i prefer the old zouk.. the deco inside phuture resembled that of coco latte.. n i dun see much extra space for dancing.. nonetheless.. the lightings did make the place look that tad bit brighter.. new flooring too i think.. din realli see properly.. the new seats at phuture were uncomfy to sit on.. maybe that's the whole idea of it.. to get pple to the dance floor.. i dunno..

but.. the company was great.. thanks to jobyna, johnny, cai, greg, ian, eugene, anna, anna's bro + fren, victor.. err i cant rem who else was there.. kev n his frens.. matthew n his fren.. ryan n frens.. lionel, harold n chok.. spent the later half of the nite with johnny's gay frens.. haha that was the highlight of the nite i tell u.. they were so super funny.. even battled one of them to beyonce's shake.. too dark to see who won.. super a lot of jugs of beer.. found out that 2 of them.. bobby and ritz are gonna open the much-talked-about butter factory.. and even tracy phillips was there.. haha being gay has its perks eh.. so for once in my life.. i was clubbing with high profile people.. cool or wad! :P oh ya even saw fiona xie there.. n i heard she was kissing a small boy.. hahahaha

sat was even better.. chillin at walas with shim dawn yoon nikki job n johnny.. tried stella artois.. n decided i should just stick to hoegarden in future.. since i was driving i onli had 1/2 pint.. the calamari n wings were damn yummy.. n desert at nydc was even better.. :P after which we all decidd to head down to my place.. so equipped with ice cream, potato chips and other junk food.. all 7 of us squeezed into my baby 6 n we breezed thru the nite back to my lowly abode.. poor baby 6 had to work extra hard.. imagine revving at 3000 and only getting like barely 90 km/h.. bleahz.. that sucked up petrol too.. opened the bottle of champagne too :) a nice lil cosy gathering.. i like~

sun: managed to wake up in time for church.. joined justin n his family as he saw me alone.. den headed down to sch to pia the remains of the lab report..

mon: first to school.. den to town.. far east chicken rice is still as yummy! and i bot accessories for my nano! so happi :) shim, dawn n yoon bot stuffs from the closet affair.. the clothes were realli nice.. but i refrained from trying on anithing so i wun spend.. den it was off to starbucks for coffee and chit chatting session.. as some of u all might have already known.. there were certain issues to settle.. being the people in the middle.. we decided not to interfere and let things take its course.. those things i never noticed for the past few weeks/months/years.. yet im glad i managed to see thru that person's true colours now.. better late den never i guess..

was busy the whole nite coz of my new found love.. :) check her out here!

tues: drove to sch yet again.. lunch with the babes after lect.. this time cheryl was there too.. haven seen her in a bit.. :) the journey back was horrible.. was raining so super heavily.. cant see a thing.. could barely make out the 2 red back lights of each car.. n pple started turning on their hazard lights.. yes it was that dark.. n the roads were flooded.. *hugs* baby six.. must have been tough on u..

took a nap onli to wake up in horror that my parent's flight was pushed forward by half an hour.. rushed to the airport.. grabbing my new love along.. lucky thing my parents werent out when i got there.. so there i was.. indulging in my new found love.. waiting for my parents...

presentation preparation totally sucks.. gonna skip tmr's 8 am lect to prep myself up.. *keep morale high!!* n guess wad.. i get to drive to sch tmr! yippee~ the last final day of my time with baby 6.. after which it aint mine totally animore.. sob.. but not too bad.. petrol consumption over the past 5 days was about slightly more than 1/2 tank.. :)

baby six has been my great pal for the past few days.. to sch.. to holland v.. to church.. to town.. back home... hee i wish i could own her completely...

certains things have been running thru my head.. many thoughts yet i cant put them here.. not when everyone's reading.. but one thing's for sure.. everyone fears being alone.. everyone fears rejection.. everyone just wants to belong..

3am and it's time to sleep.. but i have to blog first :P

2005-10-21T03:21:00.000+08:00

here's to my filipino maids... "the mangos v juicy n sweet!!!" heh.. *hugs* i love u all..

spent all day today just pia-ing my lab reports.. finally the stupid human disease report is done.. 10% of final grade leh. hope i do ok.. did my food n health report too.. that's done.. yayness.. :)

submission of urops is on mondae.. scared scared.. hope i'll do well..

anihow.. i think i hurt my ankle *again* at dance yest.. just doesnt feel right when i woke up this morn.. hope it's nothing serious.. bleahz.. last senior class of the season.. the steps quite shiok.. danced to the sound to the siren.. or something like that.. v white-hoody.. lol.. i liked the last part.. domino effect! heh.. :) hope i can get to dance next week.. zy pls find someone else to help with the anni prep!! heh.. but if realli no one wanna help den i'll help :) heh.. last blast class of the sem.. my days as a blast member are numbered.. soon i'll become a lao lang! sobz.. speaking of which.. im gonna wear my SPANKING NEW DKNY BLING BLING WATCH tmr :P

parents are flying off tmr.. noel too.. n i wun be able to send them off coz i have a 10am class.. urgh.. forgetful me.. happily told them my class is at 12.. bleahz.. forgot bout the darn protein lecture at 10.. boohoo.. but aniwae.. i get to vroom vroom down to sch tmr! heh.. :) n i'll be wearing the new EARRINGS jenny dearie got me for my bday!! hee.. :) i lurve accessoriessssss~

ok here's a list of pressies i've received.. a fren said i should write one or blog about it so in future i wun forget who got me wad..

1) cedar gurls - the gang : adidas handbag n adidas top
- eunice n siying: gold makeup palette
- gwendo n xuanwan: white glittery stone necklace

2) veejay - joanne laogong: handmade photoframe plus pouch
-janice mama: handmade jewellery box plus custom made earrings
-zy, amos, sean n gab: red crumpler bag
-k: nano
-jassia baby: handmade card plus bracelet

3) diving frens - daniel: book on fishes (so that i wun go around telling him i saw nemo or big white fish or blue fish with stripes etc..)
-zhiming, william n roy: levis top

4) sentosa vball gang - wj,deckie,zh n jh: everlast handbag

5) NUS life sci babes- huisin, jt, mich n xinloo: blue handbag, hot underwear, pig wrist-rest n bling bling key necklace
- dawn+jon1, shim+jon2, yoon, cheryl+jason, adam: blue flower swatch n charcoal gray with gold stripes adidas jacket
-huiwen: happy house photoframe with a note n our pic inside!

6) BLAST! peeps: - val n caleb: retro bling handbag
-jenny: retro pouch, notepad and earrings
-ti eu: swarovski earrings with pearls
-the rest.. maki, mich, celia, cheryl, idil, rozzno, ahmad, jimmy, bob, maomao, tau, fen, liza, xuanjie (anione i missed out??) : dark brown leather BLING BLING DKNY watch :)

7) family: -mummy: chalet + catering of food + bdae cake
-daddy: still owes me a pressie.. lol
-korkor n kris: card plus 80 bucks of adidas voucher
-godma: white gold chain
-sq baby: roses n more on the way :P

8) overseas fren:
-chris laopo: bdae card

i think that's about it.. will add in more if i missed out anione.. :P and thanks to all those who smsed n called me.. :) heh at least im still in ur hearts *wink*

muackz to all! im still basking in the joy of my bdae party.. *smiles* hahahaa

the low down of JEN's 21st PARTEE!!! :P

2005-10-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

word of advice to those organising a party.. prepare way in advance.. party deco takes longer then expected.. lol :P

friday.. mummy picked me from school and we went to the concourse to get party deco.. went back.. took a nap.. totally concussed due to the 4 hour sleep i had the nite b4.. burning mambo music for the party.. doodling on my guestbook.. writing up my pack list.. charging hp, cam etc.. basically pre party prep...

awoke 2 hours later to start packing up all my stuff n den heading down to the chalet.. mummy was busy preparing all the BBQ stuff in the afternoon.. she's more zai den me.. lol.. so settled down.. started the fire n soon my relatives came.. forgot to take pictures with them.. *shucks*.. but yeah it was a nice lil get together.. wanni audrey n shuya came too :) so at about 10 or so my relatives left.. and the deco started.. korkor n kris helped pumped balloons.. (yes they were the ones who created the lovely balloon stairs..) whilst me n the gurls started on the putting up some deco.. the lamps, the curly wurly spirals, the streamers.. sounds like easy work.. but no.. by the time that was done.. it was already 1am.. korkor, kris n daddy went home about midnite.. leaving all the ladies in the chalet.. i chased mummy off to bed b4 heading down to mustafa with the gurls to get more deco stuff.. yes we were lacking in quite a bit of things..

the nite drive to mustafa was fun.. all 4 of us in my shiny baby 6.. :) and we saw many trans along changi village! haha exciting or wad!!!! exploration of mustafa was quite the adventure.. haha haven been to ah neh land b4!!! picked up stufs we needed.. n i even found a boa! heh so fun.. spent like 40 bucks there.. so back we went to the chalet and it was 3am.. shuya dearie drew n cut out the letters for 'the party's here' sign board.. while wanni fell asleep.. lol.. me n audrey did the colourful letters that spelt J-E-N.. and we cut out colourful cellophane paper to be pasted over the lights.. creating the ultimate retro effect.. haha all of us concussed about 5 plus..

the BIG day: us gurls woke up at 10 coz wanni's mummy came to fetch.. n pass mi the agar-agar.. (it's so so pretty! :) ) wanted to invite aunty in for coddee but she had to rush off.. aud n shuy stayed back to help mi complete the deco.. grandma, erlene and mummy helped with the balloons.. and mi aud n shuya pasted the cellophane over the lights, put up the retro beaded cutrains, my name and the purple board.. we den started on the balloon arch at the main door.. goodness knows how mani balloons burst in our faces.. the lousy ah-neh brand.. blahz...

and.. pretty pink flowers came in the morning!!!! from sq baby!!! :) heh.. thanks dearie.. they're like the loveliest flowers i've ever received!!!!

at about 1pm.. the deco was FINALLY done.. n i sent shuya n aud out to tampines mall.. here comes the story of the MAD rider.. there's this crazy guy who tailgated me.. so close his whole face took up my whole mirror!!! like wtf.. want to die also not like that rite.. considering i was going bout 90 along loyang ave.. if i braked a lil.. that guy will fly man!! urgh.. cant stand such people.. after 'diao'ing him goodness-knows-how-many times.. i released my accelerator.. letting my speed drop to 60 or so.. forcing him to overtake me.. which in the end he finally did.. omg.. what kinda people are these?? come out from army camp den wan to die already lar.. relaxing lar!

so anyway dropped the girls, picked mummy up from changi village n headed back to the chalet for lunch.. mummy went back home to get stuff.. i took a short nap.. when i woke the lovely balloon arch was gone!! :( the stupid heat from the sun burst almost all the balloons! urgh.. quickly went to buy more balloons.. the caterer came.. settled it on my own as mummy wasnt back yet.. sigh.. when mummy was back.. she helped mi put up balloons at the bus stop and we put up the signage too (courtesy of audrey babe).. once all this was done.. i went to take a shower.. maki was the earliest! followed by xuan jie.. den shuya n wanni came.. den daniel daniel.. eunice n siying came.. caleb.. diving buddies.. n the rest just streamed in about 8.. weijie came.. which was a lovely surprise for me as he told me he's not coming.. aniwae if u're reading this.. wj.. i hope u're feeling better.. dec told me about it.. *hugz* cheer up k! :)

was busy all nite long fluttering from group to group.. entertaining my frens.. hope i wasnt such a lousy host.. n hope you all enjoyed urselves! :) thanks to those who were like eh relax babe.. sit down n rest.. heh..

cake cutting was quite the experience.. smiled for dunno how mani photos.. from sentosa vball frens to tao nan to cedar to veejay to nus life sci babes to diving frens to BLAST! peeps.. haha but it was great fun.. i felt like a star.. everyone lurved the choc fudge cake! :P couldnt really eat the cake in peace though.. haha but thanks william for holding my cake for me..

my blast frens switched off the lights and started boogeying inside the chalet.. n my funky mama joined in the action too!! haha i obviously wasnt spared.. was sabo-ed to perform my mambo moves standing on the chair.. bleahz.. den i had 'special' performances by jackjack n mr kong.. haha hilarious or wad.. my blast peeps just made the party a whole lot more happening!! :P

people started to leave about 11 plus.. finally got the chance to sit down n play indian poker with my life sci girls n a few diving frens n a few blast frens at like 1am.. heh da-ed a cup of baileys with adam kor n another vodka vanilla with daniel daniel.. opened all my pressies too! indian poker was changed to heart attack.. haha super fun or wad.. someone tried hitting me but ended up hitting the table damn hard.. haha lol.. but it was damn fun lar.. hee.. dawn, adam n jon were the last to leave.. jo n daniel stayed over.. packed up n finally showered.. twas 5am.. yet again.. haha daniel concussed on his bed.. whilst me n jo squeezing on the other were talking n catching up.. :P

thanks to all my frens who called to wish me happy birthday and also for all the bdae sms-es.. haha :) esp to those whom i barely keep in contact with n still bothered to sms.. *big big smile* im glad im still existent in ur lives.. heh

in the morning.. woke up n mi n jo took pictures of all my pressies! hee so fun!! *daniel was still concussing in the room* lol.. it rained all day long.. but mummy said it's good.. showers of blessing.. indicating God raining down His love for me.. and for that moment.. i smiled..

went to church n had family dinner.. den came the biggest shock.. i received an ipod nano~ my goodness.. i finally own one!! though it's white.. n i realli realli realli wanted the black one.. but cant change also lar.. no stock! :( sob.. so i guess i'll just have to make do with this.. heh but really thanks.. i really appreciate the kind gesture.. :)

so that sums up my bdae celebration.. :) received 2 more pressies along the way.. from godma and also from huiwen babe!!

im 21 n i dun feel old.. still the playful small lil gurl that i've always been.. lol.. halfway thru to turning 42.. lol.. look out for me den.. one more RETRO party when im 42 coming ur way!!! hahahahhahaa

ps check out my photoblog for bdae pics! beware.. camera whore!

the aftermath of retro nite..

2005-10-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

super tired but it w as damn good!! i love all my frens!! heh thanks all for making the effort to come down and *hugz* to everyone!! everyone made the effort to dress up and i could see retroism in everyone of you all! heh.. :)

esp my blast frens.. realli blast from the past man!! u all just made my nite lar! :)

big big hug n kiss to my cedar gurlies.. thanks babes for helping with the deco the nite b4... though our 'stayover session' was spent driving up at 2am to mustafa for more deco needs and docorating the place til 5 plus in the morning.. i thoroughly enjoyed every single moment of it.. realli v touched :) muackz.. i love you babes!!!

realli super tired to blog in detail now.. but i would like to thank my cedar gurls, my vj fwens, my nus life sci babes, my diving buddies, my sentosa vball kakis, my blast family and of coz my dearest family! thanks for making my 21st bdae party a success... sorry i wasnt a v good host nor entertainer.. but i hope u all had fun dressing up n taking lotza crazy pics nonetheless.. thanks eric my photographer too!!! :)

ok time to concuss.. i'll update more soon.. hopefully tmr.. heh

IM FINALLY AN ADULT!! (yes mao mao.. i can join the lao langs already... lol..)

the best bdae celebration ever.. i love all the pressies.. hee.. i love the company of all my frens.. n family too.. it was truly SATURDAY NITE FEVER!!!

ps my bdae is on 16 oct.. not 15!!! :P

2005-10-14T04:14:00.000+08:00

it's 4am and im still not sleeping.. been doing my bdae stuffs ever since i came home from work at esp.. mambo music burnt.. guestbook done up and it's ready for everyone's autographs.. (thanks jan for the help todae!!).. planned my route after i end class at 12..

bbq in the evening with a few relatives n my cedar gurlies.. im gonna be MIA this weekend.. anything.. you know the number to call.. :)

nevertheless... there's gonna be a RETRO PARTY ON 15TH OCTOBER THIS SAT AT CHANGI SAF HOLIDAY CHALET! for those invited.. u all noe the block n unit number already.. :) so BE THERE and PARTY ON! ah kow.. mambo session after cutting of cake ok! haha im damn rusty liaoz!!!! :P

was inner door usher for peter pan todae.. it's not that bad lar! everyone say until like so boring like that.. but i quite liked it.. esp the last part when peter pan sprinkled sparkles on us and many many bubbles fell from the ceiling.. so so nice!! :) but.. working at the stalls is no mean feat.. have to be super fast.. super alert and also carry super a lot of booster seats!!! we used 80 tonite!!! moreover there were like 58 latecomers.. when cj walkie-d me.. i panicked man.. have to seat soooo mani pple in the dark.. thankfully everything was quite smooth.. except for 1 minor cock up.. this couple sat at the wrong seat.. thus caused 'double seating'.. fixed the problem during intermission and thankfully there was no harm done.. :) phew.. im still a noob.. cant handle such stuff man.. everyone learns.. n tonite i learn a lot from cj.. this guy realli impressed the shit hell out of me man.. n he has faith in me that i could fix that prob of double seating.. *smiles* thanks man~ work todae was so much more fun.. had the company of jil, mc, uncle b, hz, jen and of coz new frens like chris, cj and th... :) my 'passion' returned.. after the prev unpleasant experience.. some pple can be real bitches.. *shrugs*

meeting my urops prof in like a few hours time.. realli super confused and at a loss.. let's hope the session clears up everything..

it's gonna be a helluva long day tmr.. but.. i noe it's all gonna be worth it in the end... come 16 oct.. i'll be a teen no more~

it's all about my partee...

2005-10-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

haha this entry is specially dedicated to blogging about my party.. afterall.. the past week or so has been revolving around it and so will the next few days until the big day..

been shopping like there's no tmr for quite a number of days.. yet im not bored n tired of shopping yet.. lol.. far east is a good place to find nice clothes.. :) my entire outfit from top to skirt to accessories can all be found there.. and total price is about 100 bucks.. not too bad lar :)
i am happy with my outfit!!! retro or wad!!! woot~

expect a 4100g chocolate fudge cake from france.. haha not directly flown in but the shop's a franchise.. :P super yummy.. yes my cedar girls might get sick of it coz we've had it for all the gang member's bdae.. lol.. den again.. i wan my other friends to try it.. esp the blast peeps ;)

just dug the cupboard for bottles of alcohol (for consumption onli after cutting cake).. n there is no way im gonna get drunk on my bdae.. so pls dun try to knock me out.. i will not agree to da each person 1 glass.. haha coz that's so not fair!!! anihow.. absolut vanilla, sheridan, baileys, red wine... 4 bottles.. i tink that should suffice... haha might throw in another bottle of champagne.. quite a number of alcoholics..

deco.. left streamers n balloons to be bot.. some balloons donated courtesy from maki.. (the remnants of her party.. lol).. other deco stuffs.. packed into a big paper bag by me just 2 hours ago.. look out for balloons at the bus stop~ :)

misc: need to source for extra stools.. if not can be like primary sch n everyone sit on the floor.. haha.. need to buy mosquito coil coz adam's fan club of mosquitoes will be there.. hence endangering the lives of my guests.. haha.. mambo music yet to be burnt.. need jan dearie's help to deco my guestbook.. :)

hmm that's about it.. im excited.. retro party~~ it's gonna be good.. hee~

tiring weekend...

2005-10-10T01:51:00.000+08:00

finally done with my project.. n handed it up.. heh :)

fri: lab was super duper ultra boring.. thankfully i had pple like jobyna n johnny to make it more interesting.. super crappy talk cock session with them.. haha we were so bored until jobyna suggested going clubbing that nite.. n yah i broke the clubbing break i made but well breaks made by me are means to be broken! haha.. :P

so jio-ed some frens to coco latte that nite.. me, job, greg+mel, jap, shaun, jackson and justin.. heh.. free entry into coco! bouncer was in a good mood i guess.. crowd was older den usual.. music wasnt that great but the company was great.. shuan's first time clubbing too! haha.. downed flaming n submarine.. and the usual housepours.. 4 jugs shared among like 3 of us.. the rest barely drank.. i drank more then the guys! haha but somehow after so much 'drinking experience'.. i still feel i cant hold my alcohol well.. but... definitely much better den b4.. i rem feeling drunk after just a lil bit of vodka ribena sq mixed for me over at his place a yr back.. lol.. i was so lousy den man... met some vj frens there too.. ok not frens.. pple from my batch who amazingly knew my class.. haha me on the other hand never saw them in my life b4.. lol.. and there was this guy in black (read: stranger) happily hugging the pole n dancing.. so so hilarious.. i couldnt stop laughing.. haha anyhow.. no more cute waiter.. sob.. oh n i saw amanda too!! haha..

embarrassing moment.. i shouldnt be blogging about this but wad the heck.. unglam funny moments should be shared.. i sat on the toilet floor and showered! haha coz my headache was really bad n i couldnt stand properly to shower.. hahahaha den after the shower i immediately went to my bed to concuss... haha

sat: with barely 5 hours of sleep.. i met celia after her field trip to east coast.. started shopping at 12 at ps.. all the way to heeren.. taka.. far east.. we shopped like mad women until 11 pm!!! that's 11 hours of non stop shopping! and it's REALLI non stop can! we din eat.. except for fried mars bar which we shared.. omg that's sooooo yummy lar.. u all should go n try it.. but it's super sinful! and yah just basically shopped shopped shopped all day long.. maki joined us from like 1 plus to 5.. den she had to rush off for her proj.. wanted to have marche tog one.. but in the end the plan failed.. sob.. i wan to eat rosti n crepes!! haha
met wm a lil while after that as he was in the area.. baby blue honda jazzzz... lol

sun: lack of sleep yet again.. woke up at 8 for church.. den came home to change n get ready for ushering duty at 1230.. today's show was peter pan.. got ticket tripper.. heh not too bad it's quite fun actualli.. though i would have preferred inner door usher.. kana scolded by jasmine for sitting on the table.. sigh.. but realli very tired wad! oh well.. shirleen had earli dismissal so i was left alone most of the time.. the 2 audreys who were baggage check basically talked among themselves n ignored my existence.. fine by me.. i saw their faces when jasmine was reprimanding mi n shirleen lor.. that smug look on their faces.. thanks ar.. i dun need it.. but i cant be bothered.. pretend din see n act normal.. but im realli glad i got to partner shirleen todae.. she's realli nice and easy to talk to.. :)

went cake shopping after that.. finally i've decided.. im gonna get the taka cake.. dun care already.. haha im quite tired of all this cake searching.. no design den no design.. but the cake's realli realli good.. im sure all my frens will lurve it..

din go for cuzzie'z bdae dinner in the end.. realli too tired.. came back to rush my protein lab report due tmr.. thanks priya n janet for helping me out.. :) time to sleep.. it's another 6 hr freaking protein prac tmr.. urgh... n after that it's down to town for cake shopping n top shopping! yes.. i finally found my retro outfit!!! woot~

2005-10-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

Just saw this in my NUS mail... like wth...

Rag and Flag 2005 - Clarification
The Rag and Flag 2005 Organising Committee will like to make the following clarifications.
A review of the results for NUS Centennial Rag & Flag 2005 has shown that NUS Students' Business Club should be the rightful winner for the NUS President's Challenge Shield for the category of Best Flag Day Collection For Faculty Clubs. However , NUS Students' Science Club remain the winner of the NUS Chancellor's Shield for the category of Overall Winner for Faculty Club.
We apologise for the mistake and extend a congratulatory note to the winning parties of the Rag & Flag awards.
Regards,
NUS Centennial Rag & Flag 2005 Organising Committee

dance class todae was great as usual.. heh less shaking this time round.. the 'floor sweep' was fun~ heh.. last part pat split us into seniors plus lao lang.. junior girls plus junior junior girls.. junior boys plus junior junior boys.. haha old already sia.. next yr i'll be in the lao lang group ar..

been piled up with projects.. and the thought of the incoming lab reports just scares me... after clearing the mid term tests.. now i have to deal with projects and boring lab reports.. urgh.. plus my urops report is due real soon.. scary or wad.. gonna be busy busy busy for this whole month.. den it's the rush to the exams.. die lar.. realli no more playing n must be serious nerd already.. sob.. byebye social life~

bdae prep update: discussed food catering with mummy.. u all prefer malay food or normal chinese food?? lol.. :P
n... vhat cake?? cheese or chocolate???? lol.. i realli cant decide..

2005-10-03T02:37:00.000+08:00

feeling irritated now.. so i've decided to post..

*deletes away whatever i've typed*

the big 21's coming up.. yeah there's gonna be a party n all.. unfortunately i cant invite all of my frens even though i would realli realli love to.. *deletes any what i've typed*.. yet the most impt person can only celebrate it with me in dec.. sigh..

ok.. pls ignore me.. i m PMSing... a rare occurence but i really really dun feel like talking or socialising.. come back in a few days.. thanks..

ps. 3/10 at 11.30 pm... this entry was edited after i felt a lil bit bad.. was just in a temperamental mood.. so easy to tread on my toes.. lol.. later got time den update more..

v v v v v v v v tired.....

2005-10-01T02:18:00.000+08:00

just back from lash.. midori pineapple... yummmmm.... :)

it's been a long week.. it's time to take a break.. im mentally exhausted....

" the receptor KNS phosphorylates KNN which dimerises with CCB... KNN-CCB enters the nucleus and FOS expression occurs.. the FU protein is formed... "

hahahahaha like WTF... STFU lar jen... :X

trivia: there IS such a thing as FOS being a transcription factor.. and FU is really a protein.. one more interesting fact.. SONIC HEDGEHOG is really some scientific term.. n so is DISHEVELLED, SMOOTHENED and PATCHED...

sorry.. science overdose... zzz...

stressed...

2005-09-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

1 test finally down today.. 1 more to go.. pharmaco test was crap today.. should have left more blanks so i wun lose so many marks.. urgh.. i un-heart negative marking.. blah... probably can pass but dunno whether can do well not.. i lost count halfway whilst the lect was going thru the answers.. but seems promising lar.. lol...

so 2 tests and 1 proj down.. up ahead.. cancer test on fri.. die die die.. the stupid lecturer just changed the format from mcqs with negative marking to 6 freaking essays in 2 hours! wtf!! so so upset can.. that's like 700 slides of cancer shit to study! crap.. :X

dance todae was not too bad.. no senior class.. so joined in junior class... heh same steps at last week's senior class steps so was trying to polish my own steps.. still looks v raw leh.. sob..

vroom vroom-ed to sch n back today.. :) happiness.. though din really like the slight jam on the way back.. but happy that i got to drive anyway.. *hugs my baby 6!*

oh finally started on my urops.. and my worst nitemare came true.. i had to wear the surgical mask, hair cover, shoe cover, surgical robe and do work in the clean room!! wah lau machiam i got disease like that.. the very same thing that freaked me out a few months back is the exact same thing im doing now.. happiness rite? nonetheless im learning a lot from the phd student and im grateful that she's nice n din mind me asking so many silly questions..

with that said.. it's time to face the cancer notes.. wanna run away also cannot.. 30% leh.. how to play play n not study??? sigh... *shakes head*

jen is a nerd tonite and tmr....

jen's weekend...

2005-09-26T02:43:00.000+08:00

sat.. brother's ROM @ hotel furama river front.. finally my brother is officially married to kristine.. honestly nothing ha really changed for me.. coz she's been staying with us ever since they got tog.. so.. yah in a sense it's no biggie.. but im really happy for them.. :) hope they live in eternal bliss~ pics up on photoblog~

somehow i freaked out when the JP pronounce them man n wife..for a split second i imagined myself to be in that exact same scenario.. and what if the guy i was marrying is the wrong guy?? lol.. i quickly wiped that tot off my mind.. at least 5 6 more yrs b4 my turn comes.. will worry about it den.. :P

met up with my cousins and chatted a lil with my bro's frens.. one more down.. 2 more to go.. haha maybe by next yr all my bro's frens would be married.. hmm.. good chance.. and my cousin is also thinking of settling down.. she's like 24 this yr.. but been dating for 4 yrs plus already.. in my opinion they should.. date too long also not good.. couples tend not to end up tog.. and the heartache totally sucks..

supper at coffee bean at changi airport was shiok.. raspberry cheesecake! yum yum.. and my car was skidding whilst i was going up the ramp.. no guts to do the drift yet.. wait my car kana stuck how? lol.. but yah it was close to it lar.. according to my fren.. :P

after church.. i went home to concuss.. got woken up bout 1 plus to have lunch with andrew kor.. din plan to send him off tonite coz his new girl would be there.. wait mistaken den how.. heh.. so yeah nice lunch at cartel with him and coincidentally met junliang there.. chatted a lil while b4 heading home to concuss somemore.. i spent almost my whole sunday sleeping!!! yikes.. :X

my urops FINALLY starts tmr.. i cant wait..

on a sadder note.. chubby has a growth on her belly and im really worried for her.. really hope it aint anithing serious..

thrilled...

2005-09-24T02:38:00.000+08:00

just back from dinner or supper with kev.. who so kindly met me to pass me the torch for my esplanade ushering job.. had swensens!! so yummy.. heh.. fish n chips and coit tower.. my fav!! of coz we shared it coz i wun be able to finish it on my own.. but shiok lar.. was so full after that.. it was great just sitting there and admiring all the chio cars that drove past.. miatas.. silvias.. wrxs.. etc etc.. wad a beautiful sight~

had esplanade ushering in the evening.. today's event was another cantonese opera but it was so much more slack than the prev one i did.. maybe coz it wasnt by some famous singer by the name of chan po chu.. lol.. was so bored during the opera.. i just sat there n stoned.. lol.. but i had uncle bernard as my outer door usher partner.. n i really learnt a lot from him.. i loved talking to him.. super inspirational.. *respect*... im realli impressed by his attitude in life.. how he's so patient and friendly with everyone else.. how everyone else knows him.. thanks uncle bernard for showing me the ropes.. :) cant wait to usher tog with you again.. you owe me something!! heh and have a great time with ur grand daughter!!! she's so so cuteeeeee :P

the funky mama aka jennifer siow was also on duty.. she's realli very funny.. behaves just like a 21 yr old girl.. made a few more new friends.. jiajian, wai mun and eric.. :) looking forward to 'stomp-ing' with u all.. sadly though we wun be working at the same time slot.. oh well..

had protein test in the morn and it was alright.. not as bad as i expected.. so yah hoping to do pretty ok.. at least a pass for the paper :)

thurs: met up with joanne!!! study study study in the engine classroom.. tog with paul too.. and someone stood me up for dinner... heh.. (to the guilty person: just joking lar! it's ok one :P)

wed: dance class was super fun.. i was on an all time high.. the steps super nice!! just keep shaking shaking and shaking! until i got a stitch.. lol.. :P but it was shiok!!!! loved the junior class steps too! heh.. wish pat's choreo will be like that for the next few lessons.. i'll be so so happy! feels the adrenaline pumping in me again~ yay!! i wanna dance dance and danceeeeeee!

i still miss tioman.. though lesser.. but i noe the memories will always be kept close to my heart..

i wish i could find that someone who loves me the most.. that someone who can pamper me and not put me down.. i may not be the best.. but i aint the worst either.. dun deflate my ego just to make urs bigger..

my lovely memories on pulau tioman...

2005-09-21T12:50:00.000+08:00

it all started on fri evening.. gathering at the club house.. filling up forms.. getting up on the bus.. and off we went.. :) got off at the checkpoint.. my first time doing so.. heh.. normally always enter m'sia via car.. met the aur grp there too.. pple like greg n kheng moh! heh.. *waves* it's always nice meeting frens esp when u're in another country.. :P

slept the rest of the bus journey there.. stayed at hotel timotel in mersing.. not a bad place.. :) got hot water n ac.. that's all u need to make jenjen a happy lil girl.. heh cards over at dawn's cuzzie's room b4 heading back to our own room to concuss..

freaking wake up call at 630.. barely ate bfast coz i dun have the habit of doing so.. den it was a 1 1/2 hr boat ride to tioman!!! :) check in to the resort and headed down to the jetty in prep for our first dive.. heh

first dive @ pulau bay, 6m deep.. entered the water via giant stride.. descended down and performed some basic skills like regulator removal, half mask clearing, full mask clearing, fin pivot and hovering.. first time underwater.. a lil scared but was happily enjoying the fishes with my dive buddy.. there was this fish that swam v close to us.. heh.. wanted to touch it but it swam away.. and i crashed into a huge coral.. coz it as behind me n i din see it.. but luckily it din break or anithing.. phew..

2nd dive @ pulau soyak.. 12 m deep.. after lunch we took the boat out to sea again.. this time it was more of a leisure dive.. entered the water like james bond.. the reverse backflip.. so cool.. sit at the side of the boat and just lean back and flip 180 deg into the water.. hee.. practised finning n hovering.. but it was a lil bit scary coz this girl, huixian or so named mini cooper by jack suddenly stopped finning and sank right into the corals!!! jack had to go n rescue her.. my gosh.. i was so scared.. thought something happened to her.. she kept sinking whenever jack let go of her.. haha.. as wad jack said.. poor corals.. thankfully she din land on any of those hideous sea urchins.. saw stone fish, squid and a school of barracudas!!!

3rd dive @ pulau renggis.. 12 m.. my first leisure dive!!!! the open water divers were split into 2 grps from the start.. so for this dive we all descended down tog.. after descending down tog with my dive buddy.. i started swimming into the school of fish coz i saw fins from a distance and wanted to go join them.. lol.. kana pulled back by zhiming.. lol.. wrong grp.. :X but that moment when i was swimming in the midst of the huge school of fish.. magical! magical! magical!!! everywhere i looked.. i was surrounded by fish! up down left right.. there were everywhere!! so so pretty!!! totally took my breath away! even saw a blue spotted sting ray.. dunno why zhiming din manage to see it.. heh

returned to land after that and showered.. got ready for dinner too.. heh.. food was not too bad.. :) but din realli eat a lot also.. dawn had 3 servings of rice!! so scary!!! i am so amazed at the amount she eats man.. waited for the leisure divers aka daniel adam n wanho to come back from their nite dive as we were playing asshole daidee and i had my traffic light ice cream~ i dropped from being the president to being the big asshole.. wah lau.. so suay..

all 9 of us gathered in the room to play cards.. joined the 2 double decker beds and was happily playing daidee with 2 decks of cards when suddenly there was a blackout!!! *sings i need a man who can make it blackout blackout* haha lame.. but yeah so we were all sitting there for a while.. wondering when the lights will be on again.. it was quite dumb lar.. i was still holding onto my cards.. after a while it got super hot so we decided to go outside to get some freash air and check out the situation.. turns out the whole island had a blackout!

went to the dining area to sit around and enjoy the sea breeze.. and i started falling asleep.. heh daniel had to wake me up to go back to the room.. was listening to mp3s on the upper deck of the bed and unknowingly concussed.. i din realli feel hot as there was a slight breeze blowing thru the room.. the torch kev passed to me for my esp ushering job b4 i left for tioman came in handy! heh was using it and sharing my torch with others..

awoke at 630 on sunday by zhiming.. washed up and headed down for bfast.. omelette!!! there was a huge storm and it rained like crazy.. but after a while it was just drizzling.. cold n sad.. we headed to the jetty once more for 2 more dives..

4th dive @ pulau renggis... took a boat ride out to renggis again where we had a leisure dive.. the water was super choppy.. and visibility was low at 5m.. swam around.. admiring the corals and all.. alex was the dive instructor this time round.. dawn jeff n jason got lost from our grp.. according to her they were the last 3 to descend and one min they see us.. the next min they got intercepted by a school of fish and couldnt find us animore.. so they resurfaced and went for their own leisure dive with another instructor.. i tried to go as near the sea bed as possible but there were moments when i freaked out and floated up a lil more.. partly coz i dun wanna destroy any corals.. and also coz i dun wanna get stung by the sea urchins and end up lying in bed for the next few days.. did a safety stop and resurfaced.. waited damn long for the boat to come and in the choppy water i tried breathing thru the snorkel.. but the min i leaned back.. i drank sea water! eeeuuuwww.. but yah.. it was hard to breathe properly as well.. just couldnt wait for the boat to come.. the boat took ages to come man.. n i realli had no more energy coz i had to keep swimming towards the boat and prevent myself from not drifting too far apart.. the current was super strong.. in the end i hooked up with my buddy, william, roy and another open water diver from the other grp alex.. n i rested.. really super shag.. when the boat finally came.. i let the other girls go up first b4 i went up.. my energy level dropped to zero.. i couldnt even take off my fins! intructor alex had to do it for me and i was literally dragged up the boat.. climbed the ladder and almost fell back coz the tank was weighing me down..

den the best part came.. when everyone was back safely on board.. people started getting sea sick and puking.. it was madness i tell u.. like out of the 13 open water divers.. 4 were puking and there was this girl stella puking right beside me! my gosh.. i also buay tahan.. tried my v best to control and look far.. den we were told to reek up for our last dive n i carried my weights belt (which is 8 pounds!! coz i kept floating up), my fins and my mask over to the end of the boat.. almost fell off the boat man.. thankfully for roy and myself.. haha i crashed into the wooden seat.. so everything was fine.. roy helped mi carry my stuff over and we all reeked up.. being the lousy dive buddy that i am.. zhiming had to reek up on his own and den help mi reek up.. ee tze was helping me too.. i remember squatting at the side of the boat and shutting off all the puking sounds.. haha

5th dive at pulau tomok.. went into the water and immediately felt damn sick.. but i controlled.. so we did alternate air source ascent with my buddy, CESA and while waiting for my navigational lesson.. i felt so sick.. i puked! like a mouthful... so disgusting! it's like how mani years since i last puked.. totally hate to puke.. no matter how drunk i am i also dun puke.. oh man.. den when ee tze came over to show me n zhiming how to use the compass i told him.. i cmi le.. i need to puke again.. but this time round nothing came out coz i barely ate.. haha zhiming kept asking me to puke it all out but i din wan to.. apparently he puked twice and felt damn song after that.. lol

after all those training skills.. i realised i was like one of the few left onthe surface.. saw quite a number of people on the boat.. den i asked ee tze if can go down for leisure dive and alex brought me down.. this time the depth was onli 10 m.. but it was one of the best underwater dives i had out of the five.. just me n alex.. he showing me all the wonderful creatures.. playing with the cuttlefish.. me accidentally breaking a small piece of coral.. :X playing with mani nemos.. and even seeing a tiny tiny nemo.. seeing bat fishes.. did a safety stop b4 going up.. i wished i could stay in there forever..

but in a sense i couldnt wait to get back to shore.. felt realli sick.. and at the jetty.. there was xiao mao mi!!! alex named her tiger.. heh.. she almost got blown off into the sea.. luckily i held her.. brought her back to a safer spot and she was following me quite a distance.. heh.. so cute.. i love kittens.. din eat lunch but ordered hot milo for my grp of 9.. the milo did wonders.. i felt so much better.. went over to ai meng's room coz alsa's room had a queue.. took a nice warm shower (my area had no hot water at all coz of the blackout) and headed back to my lil chalet.. packed up and lepaked around.. :)

while waiting for the ferry to take us back to mersing.. i dragged zhiming, william and roy to find tiger.. heh played with her a lil while and den bot sour apple ice cream! so yummy~ heh filled up my dive log book and got my temp card! cant wait for the real card to be posted to me! blasted music the whole boat ride back.. was v hot n uncomfortable in the boat.. coz had to close all the windows.. den i had nothing to do coz daniel was sleeping.. heh.. washed up a lil b4 getting on the bus.. the bus ride back was long.. had a lil jam.. shared all my goodies with my grp on the bus.. yum yum.. nestle milky bar!!! :) reached back to the club house about 11pm.. and mummy came to fetch me home!!

so super tired but so super happy!!! this rounds up my whole adventure at tioman.. the magical moments underwater.. the new friendships made.. and honestly im quite impressed at how nice guys can be.. it's been a while since i last came into contact with a nice guy.. and this time round i came into contact with quite a few.. esp daniel and zhiming.. :) thanks my big brothers.. *grin* hope i wasnt too much a pain in the ass for u guys! heh

i miss tioman!! i wanna go back... im stuck in that moment n i cant get out of it...

gonna share with u all my magical moments at tioman.. click on me!

if you're going to san francisco...

2005-09-21T11:52:00.000+08:00

im back from tioman!! sorry for the lack of updates.. :P the rest of the month's packed like hell and i dunno how im gonna cope man..

fri - protein test and food n health proj due, esplanade ushering in the evening.. some cantonese opera.. (again!!)

sat - brother's ROM!! big day for him!! and i get to wear my pretty pink dress~ heh just got news that the health show at toa payoh got cancelled.. how sad?! 100 bucks gone.. and i happily gave up my ushering job.. but nvm lar.. shall go out on sat! hee.. but i really wanna do a show... sigh... wonder what time my bro's ROM will end actualli..

sunday - family day and study for the 2 tests and get another proj done... all due for next week!!!

thanks jingkai for letting me get the 1st oct slot for STOMP! yayness! im gonna watch it n get paid! hee.. doesnt matter which position im posted.. outer door also got tv to watch.. good enuff for me.. heh~

damn tired.. went to med lib to mug yest with dawn n yoon.. den went bugis with TLC (the lepak club) aka my dance peeps.. seoul garden buffet! thanks WHAK for winning the vouchers! heh.. had so much fun... with a small comp amongst the guys to see who was the last man standing.. with the funny recipes from i'dil... celia's fried veggies.. xiao's float.. and a lot more crazy wacky stuffs! hee.. had so much fun.. den we met up with pat n the lao lang.. aka alumni.. sat at some open space at the national lib there and lepaked.. heh.. pat was telling us stories.. filling us up with trivia.. like how he n marq came up with the word blast.. his take on the diff scholarships.. and the 4 guys did some funky bicycle stunt.. heh.. laugh until peng! chatted til like 1230 am b4 we all headed home.. i concussed the whole bus journey home.. thankfully when i woke up it was a few more stops to my place.. otherwise i'll end up at bedok and either walk home (which will take me dunno how long..) or take a cab..(but im damn broke)..

and i finally managed to watch the dr video too! i tot it was v nice.. :) wished i could have been there.. but den again.. i wouldnt give up diving for the world.. the past weekend.. 3 days i will never forget in my life.. even now as im typing this.. im drifting in and out of nostalgia.. reminiscing the great weekend in tioman.. it's so hard to snap back to reality when i've left my heart and soul there.. i feel i dont belong here.. constant reality checks done on myself.. but every little thing just whacks me back to the memories of tioman..

you all must be thinking.. it's just a dive trip.. why is she making such a big deal out of it? why is it she's feeling this way?? well it's more than just a dive trip.. definitely i do miss being underwater.. within hand's reach of the fishes and corals.. but most of all.. i miss the people.. they were all so nice to me and constantly rendering help.. so here's a lil shoutout to my apache divers! :)

zhiming, my dive buddy: hey hey! thanks so much for helping me throughout all the 5 dives :) thanks for always holding the tank for me and for making sure im near you underwater.. and esp the time when i was damn tired.. even though you always bully me and say u'll purge my regulator or snatch my regulator... but heh i noe u cant bear to rite? *grin* i really appreciate your concern and i dun think i can find another dive buddy better den u!!!!

dawn: babe! heh it's so great going diving tog with u and ur cuzzies! they're one wacky bunch! i really wonder how u endure all their nonsense crap man.. haha 3 days and i cannot tahan already.. but yeah let's go diving again! haha this time we can go as leisure divers and go for nite dives! whee~ i wanna give u a big big hug! heh.. thanks for being there for me... and all our lil bitching sessions.. *wink*

daniel: my big bro who was always looking out for me the whole trip.. helping me carry my bag.. making sure i wasnt wet by the water when in the boat.. giving me a new mouthpiece for my regulator.. keeping my passport in his pouch.. THANKS! i really had a lot of fun.. n also for the advice as to not to panic during my first dive.. heh..

jeff: haha i dunno what to say man.. everytime i think of u.. i rem the walk back to the resort after our dive on sat.. *shhhhh* but it's been great knowing u.. haha always so cheery and full of crap.. ^5 to my fellow asshole in daidee.. lol..

william: eh.. ma xiao ling is mine can!! hee.. dun anyhow steal her away from me.. you also another one.. always bullying me.. but i tink i bully you more.. haha.. thanks for looking after this xiao mei mei.. and for going with me to find my xiao mao mi... :) u've been awesome~ loved talking crap with u on the bus ride and also in room 1004.. heh~

roy: the fella that loves food.. hee.. glad ur tooth is ok now and you could eat all the nice yummy food from paya beach resort.. lol.. u're such a funny person lar.. (right dawn?? *wink*) thanks for catching me when i almost fell off the boat.. lol.. and for all those jokes you made on the bus ride home when everyone else from our grp of 9 got off at clementi stadium.. easties!!!!

ai meng: though we probably wun be in contact animore coz i din get ur msn/hp.. thanks for letting me use the warm water in ur room to shower.. heh.. always thought u were damn dao.. like on the boat u barely talked to us.. but the walk to ur room showed a different side of you.. ac boy.. dun so attitude lar.. tsk tsk..

adam: another of dawn's crazy whacky cuzzie.. heh.. though we barely hung out.. except for the cards session at nite and lepaking after dives.. can tell u're one huge crappy person! haha well as they say.. what's new from the yeo family???

wan ho: sorry keep forgetting ur name initially.. in the end we remembered it as "one hole".. lol.. hope u had fun during ur leisure dives with adam n daniel!!!!

alsa and huixian: it's been great knowing you girls~ our group wouldnt have been fun without you two! heh huixian aka mini cooper.. rem to keep finning underwater.. dun break animore corals!! tsk tsk.. :) keep in touch! :P

to the dive instructors:

ee tze: the best instructor ever! it was really enriching learning under you.. you showed me all the ropes and skills of being an open water diver.. wasnt easy at first.. but it was all good in the end.. and dun worry lar.. ur wife wun be jealous one.. tsk tsk..

alex: the moment underwater with u alone was magical.. no inhibitions.. dun have to look out for anione.. just follow you whereever you went.. played with many nemos and the cuttlefish.. and even saw bat fish.. so huge!!!

jack: towkay!!! great leisure dives with u.. saw the blue spotted stingray, stone fish and a whole school of barracudas!!!! you must have had a hard time in the 2nd dive looking out for 'mini cooper'! lol.. at least huixian is able to dive on her own now without u having to hold her.. hee~

and the other dive instructors: thanks for the wonderful time on the surface and most imptly underwater.. i had so much fun.. being so close to nature and feeling like i belong underwater.. if only the air in the tank will never run out.. i wanna stay there forever.. bloop bloop bloop~

ok i shall post this entry first b4 continuing on the account on my whole dive trip.. :P super long entries todae!!!!

the day has finally come!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

16-18 SEPT 2005 TIOMAN - Jennifer's Open Water Course @ Paya beach

oooohhhh weeeee~ i cant wait.. the feeling of exhilaration is building up inside me.. heh the past 4 days have been crazy... 2 diving theories.. and 2 diving practicals.. feeling much more confident now as compared to yesterdae and yah i hope i wun panic when i enter the sea.. heh.. :) already made a few friends taking the same course as me and yah im happy! just v v excited.. somemore the people all seem v nice.. n with dawn n her cousin jeff.. and daniel.. it'll be great!!!

so within the last 2 days.. i've learnt the lasic diving skills.. how to clear ur goggles in the sea.. how to breathe thru a regulator.. how to descend n ascend.. finning.. doing emergency drills.. n so many more! realli hope i can rem them all when im at sea.. but thank goodness i have a nice diving buddy.. heh tmr 7pm onwards.. jennifer will be away.. so just leave an sms or a tag on my tag board if u realli miss me a lot.. heh

let's rewind to monday.. wakeboarding!!! super uber fun!!!!!!! i managed to stand up on the board n ride the waves can!! heh thanks tingkang for the lifts there and out of the club.. :) thanks for jio-ing! hee.. had so much fun! on our own lil boat with me audrey justin huimin (yes from blast.. heh.. turns out she's justin's fren.. so qiao..) and this other ntu girl called jolene.. i just lurve being on the boat.. the wind blowing against ur face.. initially it was tough trying to stand up and yah the first time i stood up i started screaming.. haha scared lar.. dunno wad to do.. but the following few times were great.. though i couldnt realli stand up for very long but it was all good.. pics will be up real soon.. heh :)

the rush to prac afterwards was bad and i was 1/2 an hour late.. but who cares.. pharmaco prac.. slack ar!!! hee..

ok time to pack my bags for tioman tmr... 10am class.. yawn~ with all that diving training n all.. im so exhausted.. yet i believe it'll be all worth it in the end..

anticipation..

2005-09-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

so my weekend is over and it's finally monday!! ie wakeboarding day!! in a few hours im gonna be riding the waves! just hope i dun swallow sea water man.. lol.. but im excited.. something i have been wanting to do ever since veejay days.. :) grin grin smile smile.. just hope i dun make a fool of myself.. hee..

weekend was great.. sat nite at yy's 21st chalet.. met up with gwendo, xuanwan, aud n risshe.. n of coz kev.. heh.. had fun playing mahjong with them!!! n i won! haha but din play money.. :P nonetheless there were a few classic moments like someone throwing out a chicken.. (hahahhahaa) i still laugh hysterically each time i think of that moment.. someone spilling whisky all over the place.. someone laughing each time my turn is skipped coz someone else pong-ed.. how we 'challenged' each other to see who can hit the tile louder.. haha all in the name of fun.. lame i noe.. but yeah one of the most wackiest mahjong sessions ever.. :) grin grin.. i miss all my cedar gurlies!!!

east coast macs for supper.. which was a sundae shared by two.. haha din wanna grow fat lar.. den sat at the breakwater to chit chat a lil b4 heading home.. realli brought back a lot of old memories.. sweet memories they were.. but it's all in the past.. somehow i thought to myself.. i must have been realli foolish to stop coming to the breakwater just coz of someone.. someone who still lingers in n out of my life but doesnt have ani effect on it no more.. i dun cry over that person.. there's no more special feelings.. nothing.. it's just acquantainces.. sad rite.. when i used to share a major part of my life with him.. for 1 yr and 8 months... all gone just coz things din work out.. nonetheless i guess we're both happy with our lives now and yah.. that's all that matters...

todae was mahjong day with the family.. i won 26 bucks! heh perfect.. needed the cash esp since i'll be spending like 500 on water sports this week.. and i still need cash for cab fare to sch tmr after wakeboarding.. sigh.. after this really must start saving le.. im sucking my account dry! never hit so low b4 can!!!

went with my bro n his future wife to try the suit n the gown respectively for their ROM day.. 24 sep 2005.. :) it's gonna be soon... and yah that lil girl in me was so happy looking thru all the wedding photos of other people.. forming designs of my own wedding gown in my head.. wondering when the day will come when my prince charming will kneel down n propose to me.. heh sure.. i dun deny i dun have expectations.. i do have a lot.. just that it's kept in this lil head of mine.. left to wander and imagine the happy ending every other girl has formed in her head.. :) den again... marriage for me wun be until at least another 5 yrs.. so.. haha i shall just live in my fantasy for now *grin grin*

ok im just happy today lar.. nothing's gonna spoil my mood.. nothing can! and have you all treid the raffles hotel mooncake??? champagne truffle or the cognac dark chocolate?!! it's so so so supra.. i mean super nice!!! heh i dreamt of my supra last nite.. :P and it was pink.. lol.. i cant believe i even dream of cars when i sleep.. haha

and i found a new love.. the spanking new ipod nano.. check it out at the apple website.. so sleek.. so small.. so cool.. i love the black one!!! *drools*

the exciting adventures of jenjen~

2005-09-10T12:35:00.000+08:00

went to school like any other normal day.. sat thru protein lect.. not too bad.. at least i listened.. den came to the as what dawn would call 'bl***y caucasian' lect on diabetes.. blah he machiam dun teach.. dun wanna upload lect notes.. mumbles to himself.. and better still speaks in a uk accent that no one understands! and he thinks he's damn good lar.. saying things like oh u dun have to come to class if u dun wan to.. u can dun come for tutorial if u think ur answers are good enuff.. blahhh...

so aniwae i lept for joy when he ended his lect and headed home.. well not exactly.. dropped by parkway to do some stuff in preparation for jo's pres.. heh.. den home.. bot a bun too but din have the appetite.. was bogged down the whole day by a tummy ache n diarrhoea.. popped 2 dhamotil b4 going to sch.. *groan*

met ian at 530 at the upper concourse.. b4 heading down to the M level to get ready for my first ever ushering job! haha.. met hanzhong there too.. but he was stationed at concert hall.. took a look at the notice board for the event i was gonna do that nite.. and this is wad it said..

Moonfest – A Mid Autumn Celebration:A Sentimental Journey 《剑雪浮生》
by Spring-Time Group Limited (Hong Kong)

Starring Hong Kong's famous veteran actress Chan Po Chu （陈宝珠）, this musical theatre traces the lives of legendary Cantonese opera stars Tang Di Sheng（唐涤生）, Yum Kim Fai （任剑辉）and Pak Suet Sin（白雪仙）, and their undying love and dedication to the art. This production made its debut in Hong Kong six years ago with 100 sold-out shows, marking the comeback of Chan Po Chu after 26 years. And for the first time, it will travel outside of Hong Kong and Macau to Singapore. A definite must see for all fans of Chan Po Chu and Chinese musical theatre! (Performed in Cantonese with English and Chinese surtitles. 180mins with intermission.)

wth.. a full 3 hours of cantonese opera??? no way!!! the remarks said.. a lot of elderly!!! omg! die lar.. wait they use their walking stick n hantum me how? and it was almost full house.. 1723 people.. haha scary or wad.. but apparently the older generation adores this woman lar.. she whom i have never heard of b4.. lol..

so anyway i took down details for the concert and collected my nehru suit.. i was inner door usher~ so in the sense i was relieved.. not so bad coz 1st time n it's an easier job i guess.. so me and nor (senior usher) positioned ourselves in front of the firing squad.. most of them were really nice.. and started talking to us in dialect.. so i started answering their questions and listening to their 'stories'.. even showed some people where they were seated.. heh these 2 ladies were telling me that they took leave to see this concert.. haha best liaoz.. even asked if there was gonna be recording by the media so they could buy the vcd after.. and chan po chu has a fan club too.. haha scary or wad..

this lady kept asking how come we haven open the house yet.. i told her the production not ready n stuff.. den she told me she stand until her feet swollen and that she has cancer.. so i asked her twice to take a seat.. n she refused coz she din wanna squeeze.. so yah i just left it as that..

when the doors finally opened.. it was time for work.. ushering pple to the seats was quite fun.. some din need my help.. some elderly i helped them down the stairs.. haha suddenly felt like a 'hao gong ming'.. yeah 2 suitable intervals for the patrons to enter if they werent punctual.. and there was this 2 ladies whom i was told to let them sit at the first row.. but the seats were already taken.. so i asked them to take a seat at the side first and i will settle the issue.. went out to discuss with nor.. and apparently over the other side there were 2 pple without tickets... best rite.. dunno how they managed to come in also.. apparently thoese 2 rows were all friends and probably due to the sheer number of people.. they maanged to sneak in.. rectified the prob over the intermission and yah thankfully those 2 ladies werent unreasonable or bitchy.. phew..

oh and there were these 2 ladies who kept taking pictures!! i told them to stop already and at the end they whipped out the camera and took.. i overlooked that coz it was already very bright and from where i was i couldnt see the flash.. but according to the inner door usher at the other side.. she told me.. n i felt bad for not doing my job well.. sigh..

and one more thing.. thanks ian for exchanging torches with me!! my lousy quality torch was so dim.. cant see for nuts.. thanks man :P

so the event finally ended at 2330 or so.. and yah after everyone left n we had our post show debrief.. it was midnite.. crazy or wad.. i was hungry coz i din eat all day.. but my tummy wasnt feeling so good either.. nonetheless i agreed to meeting kev n russ so russ came to pick me from the esp and we went to newton for supper.. din realli have the appetite either.. was sharing wanton mee with kev but yah we both couldnt finish... sad case rite?! heh shared cab back tog with kev after coz i felt bad for making russ drive us back lar.. we passed his place den i was like eh just drop us here.. we can grab a cab back.. dun see the point in making him go one big loop just to send us back..

so that marked the end of my 1st esplanade ushering experience.. :) overall i would say it was good.. no unreasonable patrons.. no complaints.. yah n i got to experience a very different culture.. cantonese opera.. something i wun pay for to go n watch.. but it's not that bad lar.. got english subtitles and even though most of the time i din know who's the main star.. but yah there were some funny parts.. haha n since i couldnt do anithing else but watch.. i just tried to follow the story.. haha failed.. :X din realli know what it's all about anyway.. bahhh.. but yah an enriching experience i must say :)

2005-09-10T03:58:00.000+08:00

first time working as an usher at the esplanade..

thanks ian for the help... at least i wasnt so lost..

supper at newton with kev n russ after..

thanks russ for the lift..

home.. tired..

shall update tmr...